Chapter 138: We’ll Do This Together
ELLIE
“No. I haven’t done it yet. I was scared. I’m sorry. I’m still not sure, it’s just a suspicion,” I explained, consumed by nerves.
“Why are you apologizing?” he asked, stepping closer and cupping my face.
“This isn’t your fault, love.”
“I know… it’s just that… I didn’t know how you would react,” I confessed, covering his hand with mine.
“I thought you trusted me,” he said, looking hurt.
“I do trust you. It’s just that I thought: ‘Okay, he’s ready for a wedding, but this might be a bit too much.’ I know it’s too soon and…”
“Hey… it’s okay,” he interrupted, making me look into his eyes and calming me down. “I’m here with you. We’ll do this.”
“We will?” I let out a long sigh.
“Yes, I mean, if you really are.”
I was so scared. Up until last week, I had never even dreamed of the possibility of this happening so soon. Then, just before his trip, the suspicion arose.
But I didn’t have the courage to tell him before he left, and everything felt even harder without him around.
It had been so terrifying that I cried a few times. But now I could see that maybe fear had been my worst enemy, making me think he wouldn’t react well.
The truth was, it was me who was terrified, even though I’d always dreamed of having a family.
“I don’t know if I’m ready for this,” I confessed.
“I know. I know. But I’m here, it’s going to be okay. We just need to be sure first, okay?”
“I know. But I don’t know if I can do it.”
The mere thought of waiting for the test result was terrifying.
“Yeah, we’re going to do this now, okay?”
“You’re not scared?”
“You better believe I am. Scared as hell,” he said, with a nervous smile.
“Do you want it to be true?” The question slipped out before I could stop it.
I had spent so much time thinking about how he would react, but I hadn’t really considered the idea that he might actually want this.
“That’s a hard question,” he reflected. “Of course, I’ve thought about the possibility before, but always for the future. On the other hand, the idea of becoming a father…”
“What?”
“I think I would be the happiest and luckiest man in the world to be the father of your children.”
“Don’t say that, you’re going to make me cry.”
“It’s the truth.”
“We’re not ready.”
“Okay, let’s make a deal,” he said, tucking a strand of my hair behind my ear. “If it turns out to be true, I know we’ll find the best way to handle it. And if it’s not, we’ll keep enjoying our time together and we’ll plan for it in the future. Until then, I promise we’ll keep practicing,” he teased, making me smile, his words managing to ease my nerves.
I loved the way he made me feel safe, even though he was scared too.
“You’re such a goof. Looks like we’re finally going to have to pick a wedding date.”
“Good. Maybe you’ll finally stop stalling.”
“You know it was because of work and because of Anna.”
“Doesn’t matter. Now, with or without a baby, this wedding is happening as soon as possible.”
I nodded, and he gave me a soft kiss.
“Are you ready?” he asked, taking the box from my hand.
“No.”
“I promise I’ll be with you the whole time.”
“We have to wait a few minutes to be sure.”
“We’ll wait together,” he said, holding my hand and pulling me toward the bathroom.
I followed him, making him stop in front of the door.
“Wait here, I’ll be right back,” I said, taking the box from his hands before going in.
I left the bathroom a few minutes later, avoiding looking at the test I’d left on the sink. My heart was pounding, and my stomach was churning with nerves.
“Did you do it?” he asked, wrapping his arms around my waist.
“Yes,” I sighed. “Now we just have to wait.”
“No matter what the result is, I want you to know that I’ll always be with you, my beautiful, crazy scientist.”
“I know.”
I had no doubts anymore that he would always be there for me when I needed him, because he had proven it countless times over the past few months.
He was keeping the promise he made me on that plane. He was giving me his best, even though just having him by my side had always been enough for me.
“It’s going to be okay. I love you,” he whispered, looking into my eyes before kissing me gently.
“I’ve always loved you,” I whispered back.
He sighed deeply, resting his forehead against mine.
“I’m really hoping this is over soon so we can go back to bed.”
“How can you even think about sex right now?” I scolded him. “It was sex that caused all of this.”
“Then we better get used to it, because I’m willing to take that risk as many times as it takes,” he teased with a mischievous smile. “Now come on, let’s put an end to this torture once and for all,” he said, holding my hand firmly and pulling me toward the bathroom.
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