Dilemma: in between making a decision

Lucius point of view
I felt so much excruciating pain, I let out a very husky growl, I tried to keep my eyes open, but they felt extremely heavy, it was making me want to let out another cry of pain, but I'm a wolf, I can't lower my pride to that level.
I noticed her bright blue eyes, turned to a shade of golden hue, I couldn't believe my eyes, she withdraw a little, before she stared at me while curving her lips to a mischievous smile.
I felt immense pian on the particular spot she had just bitten, I felt like my head was about to explode, given the fact that my thoughts were no longer straight.
" oh my my.... what do we have here" the mischievous voice of Lucius resounded, before I succumb to the unending darkness.
" please, don't take him away from me, he's the Only some".
"you are nothing but a loser, you cheated on me"
"oh no, that's the bastard son of the alpha"
" please don't kill me"
I kept on hearing voices from different scenes, sometimes, I'll see a woman crying, sometimes I'll noticed a man shouting, I let out a groan of pain, because random scene kept on paving it's way my memory, memories I don't have any clue about.
"argh..." I groaned, feeling immense pain, after sometime, the pain managed to subside, it was evident enough that I have been trying so hard to keep myself from screaming, but I couldn't stop myself, I managed to open my eyes, only to noticed that I was in a unfamiliar place.
I managed to Inhale the beautiful scent of roses, the trees patched, the leaves paved it's way to the ground, the air was fresh, the Sky so blue and bright, the rainbows shows it's beautiful colour, I can't help and admire my environment.
I let out a husky groan, before I managed to stand up, observing my environment, I took a mouthful of air, trying to keep steady breaths, it made me want to leave for a while longer.
"stop admiring the place and let's head on to business" he said, I took a deep breath, before I noticed the man who was right in front of me, it was non other than lord Richard.
"why...why am I here?" I managed to ask, he plastered a smirk on his first before he said the unexpected.
"to complete the initiation" he said, before he walked up to me, he held my hand so firmly before he said.
"I can see your thoughts, your heart is so dark, and for that reason, I'll want to give the position I have never given to anyone, to be my best ally, someone that will know everything about me, and you will me right hand in command"
" why did you chose me?" I managed to ask, he only plastered a smile on his face, before he came closer to me, he then placed a kiss on my lips, which took me a back, but what surprised me, was the way, he bit my lips, sucking my blood.
immediately that action was done, I found myself in another strange environment, where he placed a hand on a crystal Ball, then the blood he had suck a while ago, he let out the dripping content on the blood.
when that happened I felt excruciating pain, I screamed, I wanted to shout at the top of my lungs, but I know it'll be futile, I can't do anything to stop the pain, rather I felt the pain increasing to the highest peak .
"please stop... stop, I can't take it anymore " I pleaded, like my life depended on it, but rather he started saying some incantation that made me feel even more pain, the words he let out, was like Croatian, I can't really decipher, but my Heart was already thumping to the highest speed.
"I'm begging you to stop" I pleaded, but he was not listening, he then came took a cup of blood from a table, before he poured the content on the crystal ball, making me feel immense pain.
"the days are gone, when peace reign, now pain takes place.
days are gone, when homage was done, now Battle has begun.
days are gone, when people sang, now poeple cry.
days are gone, when poeple dominate, now beast shall dominate" I Heard those words vividly, escaping his lips, it shocked me, because a while ago , I felt he was muttering incantations, but now it was clear and vivid.
then he took another cup of blood, before he poured the content on the ball, before he started again.
"dry leaves, are the key to suffering, but yet victory to us.
dry bones, are they key to dead, but yet a home to us.
non existent people, is a key to extinction, but yet a happiness to us"
when he let out those words, I felt the most excruciating pain ever, the pain was immense.
"argh.... please... please stop" I pleaded but it only proved futile.
then he took another cup again, pouring the content on the crystal Ball, before he started muttering some words, I couldn't even get time to listen to what he was saying before I Black out.
I found myself in a place I never expected,the place was dark and eerie, I couldn't even noticed a thing, I tried the move, not until I heard the sound of my footsteps echoing, it was like the there was the dripping sound of water.
I tried to find my way out of this place, but it was not working, the place was too dark.
"here I am... you can get me now, don't be scared, I'm here" a little voice of a kid resounded, I couldn't believe it.
when I noticed a kid looking at me, she was around the age of five or less, with a long blonde hair, her smile was curved, but in a split second, it turned to a sad smile, she stared at me, allowing her white gown, to flow like a fountain.
"I know how it feels, to love someone and knowing the person is with someone else, she was Destined to be your mate, for a short period of time and you will find your true mate, don't let this get Into you, because Decision today will definitely affect your life tomorrow" she said, her voice immediately changed like that of an adult, I squint my eyes, trying to adjust my vision, because she was shining so bright.
"don't listen to her Lucius, you will have Emily all to yourself, unless you complete the initiation" Richard echoed, his voice was full of all seriousness, I took a deep breath, because I was torn in between, I don't know who to go to and what decision I needed to make.
"don't listen to him, you have a go back to your pack and make amendments, don't let the hatred overpower your rationality, don't let the quest to take Emily by all means, lead to your doom, you need to make a Wise decision" she said, I couldn't bring myself to say a word, I know she might be right,but the love I have for Emily, was making me hard to let go, I want her to myself, I want her to scream my name, And Only my name when it comes to giving body pleasures.
"please don't do this, please" my wolf advised Inwardly, but I heard the voice of Richard which managed to make me see reasons why I need to do this.
"think of making your own pack, and having Emily at your side, think of the way she will scream only your name I'm pleasure, think of the way, her beautiful breasts will be the one to milk your cubs, don't let this opportunity slide, because if you do, this opportunity will not be given to you again"
" I want Emily, I want to have her by all means, I don't care, about the path I take, or the routes I used, but I'll have her"I shouted.
"you have made a very wise decision, now take the apple" he said before I noticed a pure red and juicy apple which was laid, on the table.
I found myself walking toward it, the apple was so pleasing and enticing to the eyes, I can't stop myself from walking further towards it.
i then took the fruit before I placed it in my mouth, I bit the fruits, that's when I felt different kinds of flavours, different kinds of taste,all packed on one.
I then noticed a hand writing on the apple "welcome to the new world"before I felt nothing but immense pain, I cried trying to subside the pain, But i couldn't, it hurts as hell, not before I succumb to the unending darkness, allowing myself to feel the reality of the situation.
I then woke up gasping for air, in the same place where I had left those ladies.