Feeling immense pain

Raphael's point of view
after the conversation with Rowland , I took brisk strides towards my home, because I was scared, I don't want anything to happened to her, I took a mouthful of air, because of the lingering thought of what might eventually happen to my woman, I hate the thought, but I can't help to think that something was wrong, and I'm scared that despite the fact my woman is there, I can't still have the lingering thought that she's not completely safe.
when I reached my pack, I was still having the raw urge to go back to the pack I just came back, but I can't possibly go back to that pack, despite the fact I just needed time to get my shits together.
I took a deep breath, because I noticed that something was not right, the place was silent, the place seem oddly strange, and I don't seem to find any children running around like they always do, I took a mouthful of air, before I rushed to my apartment, hoping I'll find answers, but unexpectedly I came to see a set of vampires was fighting with my wolves, I immediately became alert.
in less than seconds I have already shifted, as I started fighting like a Maniac, I didn't spare a soul, I couldn't stop myself any longer, Because my wolf was angry and so was I , I hated the fact that these set of blood suckers have to come to invade my privacy, I was not listening to words of reasoning, but I just want to fight and destroy, I want to kill anyone that tries to come my way, the lingering thought of how everything happened to me, And I don't want history to repeat itself, I want to protect my pack members with what I've got.
after countless minutes of battle, some of vampires flee, when they noticed we were about to overcome them, But unfortunately we lost a handful of our well trained and equipped fighters, I knelt down, after transforming back to my human form, I let out a growl, when I noticed the dead body of my Delta Jonathan.
" no...no" I cried, I can't bring myself to say a word, because I was already weak, and I needed more time to get myself on the right track, the whole thought itself was bringing cold shivers down my spine.
I crawled towards him, before I noticed the way he was barely breathing, but be was still breathing.
" please call the pack health workers, I need someone to call them now" I shouted, clearly exasperated, I couldn't bring myself to look at Jonathan in this critical situation.
he was bruised all over, his body was bleeding profusely, and his bones was cracked, I held unto him like my life depended solely on it, which it did, I couldn't bring myself to stop crying.
not untill he held my cheeks, I then stared at him, feeling nothing but immense pain.
"please... please don't do this to me..." I shouted, looking so vulnerable,I hate the fact I had to act this vulnerable in front of my pack members, but I was feeling immense pain looking at my Delta in this sought of condition, the situation hurts as hell.
" I'm glad working with you alpha... and always remember that you are the best alpha we would ever thought of having in this pack" he said, before he took his last breathe, I clutched unto him, holding him tight, before I let out a very husky growl, I couldn't bring myself to say a word, because deep within I was torn, I felt like I have failed my pack members.
I then took his body, and Immediately commanded the others to take the lifeless bodies of our warriors, before we started matching with them through the thick forest, I took mouthfuls of breaths, trying to restrain the tears that was thinking of paving it's way down my cheeks, it hurts as hell, but there was one thing I couldn't stop myself from doing, which was to let out the tear to freely paved it's way down my cheeks.
I woke up the next morning, feeling so tired, my bones cracked, as my thoughts immediately wandered to what happened yesterday, how I'll have to bury the poeple I have always reconsidered a family, the poeple I have always wanted to continue loving till my dying breath, and those set of blood suckers have to ruined everything, my hatred for them intensified.
I managed to take my weak and tired body towards the bathroom, where I allowed the water to cascade down my body, I felt like it was time to take revenge and I don't care about the repercussions, I just want to destroy that bastard calling himself Richard.
I was about to step out of the bathroom, only to feel immense pain, in my heart, almost like it was being torn into pieces, I let out a very husky growl, I felt so much pain, that's when I immediately knew that Diana was not okey, I immediately rushed in wearing my clothes before I rushed to the pack I had left Diana.
I came to realize that the pack was oddly quiet as well, it brought that unknown shivers down my spine, I couldn't help it any longer , as I rushed to Rowland department, in search of my woman, but I don't seem to find her anywhere, no matter how I tried, I then noticed a handful of men were Inside the apartment.
" what are you guys doing here" I asked clearly baffled.
" because we are in search of our alpha, it seems like he didn't sleep here last night"One of the men said. I became scared, before I started searching for many rooms in search of my woman, but I don't seem to find her anywhere.
"Diana... Diana..." I called out, but there was no response, I immediately regretted for bringing her here, because Rowland doesn't give a shit about my woman, he is so selfish and his only knows how to protect his own woman without caring about mine.
I sat down on the sit, enveloping in my pain, because it hurts as hell, knowing the fact the woman you shared so much is no longer there, rather she's somewhere you can't even trace, that's the most hardest part of it.
I then heard approaching footsteps on the door, I immediately stood up before I head straight to the door, I then noticed Rowland was limping, but I don't give a shit, as I immediately had him in my grip, I don't care what he thinks of me right now, but I hate those people who are very selfish.
I took a mouthful of air, trying as much to get my shits together, but I can't.
after series of argument with Rowland, I then heard the voice of the person I have mostly dreaded, is the voice of no one else but Lord Richard.
he then took graceful strides, be was still wearing his black clothes, before he sat down on the couch, clearly finding the whole situation amusing and enticing to him.
"those are the looks I have always wanted to see, where all of you, will have to look at me in the eyes and have the raw urge to kill me" he said gently, yet with so much mischief.
" where . The . Fuck. Can . Get. Woman" Rowland said gently, but clearly stressing every word, it was evident he was trying so hard to control himself from ripping this bastard apart.
I don't freaking care, about his shitty games he's doing, but all that ever matters to me, is how I'll get to meet my woman, I just don't want anything to happen to her, especially now that I'm not feeling her, Almost like she was dead, the Mark that bond us to together, it was like the string has being destroyed.
" I don't give a damn about your shitty games Richard, but where the fuck is my woman " I shouted, it was taking the last bit of my rationality not to pounce on him, Because what I wanted at that moment was to kill him and to make him beg for dead, but he won't get one.
" just chill, it's nothing for both of you to take it serious, they are both doing well and even in safe hands" he said, making me feel even more angry than I had anticipated, before I could think, u found myself lunching at him, he swiftly Dodge my Assult, but I was not giving up, I kept on pushing further, trying as much to keep steady breaths, I took alot of me, to keep a calm expression, I tried not to think much about it, But i can't help it, knowing full well that this loser in front of me, wanted me to show my weaknesses, but I was not showing any sign of resilience.
so I continued lunching at him, not until I felt him pierced his fangs into my system, I let out a growl of pain before I succumb to the unending darkness.