Chapter 35: I Understand

Wendy continued speaking, “Just think on it.” She looked around before adding, “I’ve got to go, but I’ll make sure to keep my phone on me in case you call.”

“Have a good rest of your day,” I told her.

She waved goodbye to me and walked out the front door. Her car drove off a moment later, as I heard the loud engine of her sports car. Then I was left practically by myself with Dax gone for a while.

Never in my wildest dreams did I think she’d offer me a way out of everything. It seemed too good to be true. I was going crazy being in this mansion with such a man. I had never been ordered around as much until I got here.

Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad to just leave it all behind. But the only issue was about the baby. Would I really be able to leave Dax without this heir? It seemed kind of heartless to do. Did I really want to be stuck with a baby and all on my own?

I wasn’t sure if leaving was the best choice in the long run, but there were so many things wrong in my situation. How could I continue to put up with Dax’s behavior until I had the baby? He was already on my nerves almost every day.

I thought for the rest of the day about what I wanted to do about Wendy’s offer. It was a tough decision to make, because I would have to leave all of this behind and couldn’t come back. I wasn’t going to rush such an important decision.

Could I keep enduring his treatment? I wasn’t sure if I could. Besides, my sister really needed me to be closer to her. I was more easily available to her when I was at my apartment. What if she really needed me?

The answer finally dawned on me as I prepared for bed. I needed to get away from this life and from Dax. I would wait until it got darker and sneak out.

I turned my light off around eleven, and I sat on my bed. I tried to listen to hear if the whole place was quiet. There was no chance to be reckless and go out when someone could find me leaving, especially Dax.

He would stop me from going before I even got to the door. It wouldn’t surprise me if he’d personally escort me back to my room. Just the thought of that happening made my blood boil.

After I was reasonably sure that everyone was asleep, I turned on the nightstand light and headed for the closet. I grabbed a bag to pack clothes and other necessary items and took it to the bed to start packing.

I tried to get this done quickly, since I couldn’t waste time in getting out of here. I was ready to leave and not have to see Dax or this place ever again.

When I was done packing, I tried to be quiet going downstairs. I wasn’t sure if there were any creaky steps that would signal what I was doing. I had to remain as quiet as possible if I was going to be able to get away.

If I lost the nerve to sneak out, I wouldn’t be able to go through with it at all. I reminded myself that it was better to go back to my apartment. I needed to return to my old way of life. This new lifestyle was too overwhelming, and I couldn’t keep up with it. Besides, I didn’t think I belonged at the mansion.

I got close to Dax’s office while quietly walking by. For some reason, I peeked into the office as I noticed that the light was on.

I hadn’t expected this and was surprised. Was Dax up or had he forgotten to turn out the light? I had to know if he was up or not.

He was still awake and hunched over his desk working. He didn’t look up once to notice me standing there.

What was he still doing up this late? I noticed that his desk had papers that were scattered all over the place. Dax put his hands in his hair in clear stress and let out a loud sigh. His hair was disheveled for once while his tie was in all out of sorts.

I had no idea that he was under so much stress. I had made things worse for him by acting like I did. Why hadn’t I tried to see his side of things?

Suddenly, I realized that I had been unfair to him. I was blowing things out of proportion. Dax had enough stress on his shoulders, and I had just added to it by my actions towards him. A twinge of guilt came over me. I headed back for the stairs and to my room without making too much noise.