Chapter 50: New Life

Danica POV

Dax rushed me into the hospital and talked to a nurse immediately. I was put onto a gurney and taken down a long hallway. I got more nervous as this was finally happening.

We got to the delivery room quickly, and doctor was already prepared with his team. The contractions were bringing me a lot of discomfort in my lower abdomen. I wanted this to be over as soon as it could be.

I knew my mom had taken hours to deliver me. She said it had been the most pain inducing experience of her life. More nerves started to build inside me at the thought of having to go through that.

The fear and nervousness must’ve shown on my face. The doctor came to my side and looked at me with kindness in his eyes. He spoke in a calm tone and said, “I’ve delivered a lot of babies in my lifetime, so there’s nothing you should be worried about. Everything will be okay.”

His words gave me some reassurance, but I couldn’t calm down. I was worried that something could go wrong. I had gone through too much for the baby to not make it through.

The next few hours were excruciating. There was so much pain as I had to keep pushing and pushing. The doctor tried to be supportive throughout the whole event and said soothing words to me to help me.

I had chosen to have an unmedicated birth. At the time, I thought that would be best for the baby’s health and wouldn’t have as many risks. I wished I had chosen differently after the doctor got started.

Maybe I wouldn’t want to have another child after this. How did other women want more than one kid? I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to go through this again. I would have to return to that thought later on. It wasn’t a concern of mine yet.

The contractions were so much more unbearable during labor. I never wanted to have to go through them again.

After it was over, I felt absolutely exhausted. I laid there and tried to calm myself down. That had been the longest time of my life. I thought it’d never end.

I really wanted to see the baby. After all that time, I needed to know I had done everything right. Please be healthy.

The baby got cleaned up and was brought over to me.

The doctor told me, “You’ve got a healthy baby boy. Congratulations.”

I took the baby in my arms and held him against me. He was so tiny and fragile. There was a lot of innocence about him as well. It was amazing to think I had brought him into the world.

It was hard to believe that this child was here. It felt as if just the other day that we saw the sonogram.

He started crying seconds after I had started holding him, and I had to soothe him. I was making soft cooing sounds and rubbing his back in circles. Dax came in shortly after I had been holding the baby.

Suddenly, I remembered I couldn’t get too attached. It was too late for that after I had actually held him. I had to give up this child to Dax and never see him again. A pang went through me at knowing that.

How could I do that? I had carried him for months, and he was used to my voice. Dax wouldn’t be as familiar to him. This child would think I abandoned him one day. It was painful to imagine.

I went back to the present when I heard Dax’s voice, “Do you think I could hold him?”

His question caught me off guard. I wasn’t expecting him to want to do something like that. It was so fatherly of him. I distinctly remember that he didn’t want to be a parent for this child. Had he changed his mind after seeing the baby?

I finally told him, “Of course you can.”

I held him out to Dax who took him gently from me. I was surprised that Dax could hold him properly. Most men seemed as if they had no clue how to handle a baby.

Dax gave a little smile looking down and said, “I’m going to make sure nothing happens to you. You’re my son.”

Tears welled up in my eyes at hearing Dax say that. I was so happy that he had accepted this baby as more than just an heir. I knew Dax would be able to give a good life to him as well.

Suddenly I asked, “What do you want to name him?”

Dax looked down and then back at me. “How do you feel about the name Christopher?”

It was surprising that he asked for my opinion. He knew I wouldn’t be around to raise the kid. I was honored to have been asked regardless. It was considerate of him.

I said, “I like that. Christopher Ryan has a nice ring to it.”

Everything had come to an end. It was going to be harder than I thought to leave this all behind, especially Dax. I had grown so attached to him, and he had become very important to me.

I never wanted to get that close to him but couldn’t undo my feelings I had. Dax was a part of my life whether I liked it or not.

How was I going to say goodbye to my new life and be without Dax? I didn’t want to leave him or Christopher. It was too hard to imagine having to be on my own again.

There was so much that I wanted to experience with Dax. It almost felt as if our time had been taken away from us too quickly.

Dax handed Christopher back to me and said, “I’ve been doing some thinking. I don’t want us to go our separate ways. Please stay with me. You mean more to me than anyone in the world. I can’t be without you. I love you.”

I smiled and said, “Yes. I’ll stay with you. I couldn’t imagine being without you either. I’m in love with you Dax Ryan.”

He bent down and kissed me tenderly on the lips. It was exciting to know that this wasn’t the end for our relationship.

It was only the beginning of something more for Dax and me. With Dax by my side, I felt as if anything was possible. This was a chance to be able to make more memories with him and getting to stay by his side, hopefully for the rest of my life.