Chapter 20

Alex.

07:30 '' Provisional Detention Center II Guarulhos '' Cell. ''Sao Paulo'' Brazil.

It's been a week since I've been out of my cell much, and I still don't feel very good about leaving. After what happened to me, I confess that I'm scared of that happening again. I feel really stupid for being so weak, but the fear paralyzed me; I couldn't think of almost anything; I just wanted to be rescued. ''The one who is taking advantage of my time in the cell is Diego; this man is very insatiable, wanting sex all the time. 

I feel terrible sometimes; every time he touches me, my mind screams that I shouldn't let him do that. But my body thinks otherwise; just one kiss from him is enough to make my body feel warm, goose bumps from his touches. ''That makes me feel terrible; he's not a good person; far from it, he's someone bad who has no shame in killing to get what he wants. 

I hate my body for feeling good with his touches; when he touches me, it feels so good; when he's fucking me, it's wonderful, but as soon as it's all over, the guilt settles inside me. ''As my overalls were all torn and covered in blood, he told the director to bring another one for me. I thanked him very much; I didn't want to be naked in front of him all the time. 

Things have changed so quickly; I got here not even two weeks ago, and I'm no longer a virgin; I was almost raped twice; I was forced to have a dick down my throat; I lost my virginity to the most dangerous guy in prison, and now I can't. Leave it alone. ''I can't talk to anyone except my friends, that's all; it's very boring and suffocating. I'm sure that at one point or another, I'll end up exploding with anger. 

I don't know what I feel about him—maybe anger for taking not only my virginity, but also my freedom; the only thing I wanted was to be free from this prison, to take my friends away from this horrible place. 

The food is different for those who have power in this place; Diego has already brought me wonderful food: lasagna, stroganoff and rice with straw potatoes on top, pasta, a delicious vegetable soup, a bean soup. All very good, but for those who don't have any power, they eat a horrible mess; I mean, it looks horrible, but the taste is good; at least that's it. 

This place is huge and has a total of one hundred and ten cells, with good beds, because in other prisons prisoners sleep on the floor and have horrible food; they only eat to avoid going hungry. ''Everything is well organized here; the cafeteria is a very big place, and it's not that dirty; there are a total of twenty huge tables, enough for everyone to sit. 

There are also cells downstairs that face the cafeteria; the courtyard is large and has gym-like things for the prisoners to work out; there is really beautiful grass, and I feel free when I'm in the courtyard. ''From the outside, the prison looks horrible, but inside it is well organized. I know that everything is organized like that because of Diego, who doesn't like mess. 

We also don't even mention the bathroom; it's big and organized by the prisoners themselves, who clean that place. The only thing that I find disgusting is having to share the soap with the other prisoners; it's not a soap for everyone; it's a soap for everyone; this is too disgusting. ''This week that I stayed here in my cell, I asked Diego if he could get me a toothbrush and some soap, just for me to use. 

It hadn't even been two minutes before he had already achieved it. This man really has control over this place. I wonder if he can leave here if he wants, but if he can leave, why doesn't he leave? Why stay here?

''You are very thoughtful. ''I was startled by your voice in my ear; it sent goosebumps across my skin.

Holy shit, what a stupid fucking body. 

''Just thinking about some things here. '' I said, taking my head off his chest. 

He took me by surprise by putting me on top of him.

'' What? '' I raised my face and blushed a little when my face was so close to yours. 

''You look sexy, thinking. '' I felt your hands go down to my ass. 

''D-Diego… Please no. ''He licked my chin. 

''You begging like that makes me want to possess you. ''He bit my throat. ''But unfortunately, I don't have time to play with your ass. 

I don't know whether to be happy about this or disappointed. 

'' Why? '' I widened my eyes as the words left my mouth. 

He looked at me with his black eyes that seemed to be seeing my soul. 

''I have some matters to discuss with the director. ''He caresses my ass. ''If you weren't wearing that ridiculous jumpsuit, I would have made you ejaculate just with my fingers inside that ass. 

My skin crawled at his words.

Fucking body!

''You'll never admit that you love having my dick inside that ass of yours, will you?'' '' He asked, pressing his finger in the middle of my ass over the jumpsuit. 

''I-I don’t love it. '' He smiled.

''I kept denying it then. ''He turned me over on the bed, getting on top of me. ''When I have resolved the issues I have to deal with the director, I will catch you and leave your ass well broken for me.

He kissed me brutally, and it made me gasp between the kisses; his tongue slid into my mouth, driving me crazy with it. 

''Boss, forgive me for interrupting you. ''We turned our faces towards the cell entrance, seeing the big boss. 

''I hope it's fucking important!!! I'm very busy here!! '' He spoke very irritated. 

I was so embarrassed to have been caught in this position. 

''The director wishes to see you. '' He said, looking away from us.

He clicked his tongue angrily, grabbed my jaw, and kissed me hard.

''Um! ''He sucked my tongue and then my lips hard. 

''I'll be busy, and when I get back, I want to have you close to me. '' Spoke very seriously. 

I nodded without being able to formulate a single sentence. 

''Go take a shower with your little friends. ''He turned away from me, so I could get up. 

''O-Of course. 

I got my things for the shower—a toothbrush, toothpaste, and soap, and he also gave me a towel. I was happy with that. 

I left the cell without looking back because I felt his gaze burning into my back. 

At least I'll be free of him today.