Him

"But words didn't help," he denies.
"Yes, hurt can, it can heal wounds, Maki, just make sure that the words are from your loved ones and to those people who truly care for you.," I insist.
"But you don't...right?"
My World stopped at what I heard, Hrighte's kinda hard to get. Does he don't have trust in me?
I sighed while looking at him. This is always the scenario of us, staring at one's eyes and then immediately or some other times will look away.
glancing at the moon, I think of many things, I asked also hundreds of questions in my mind knowing that I can't get the answer to all of these. But I still ask. Still.
"So I 'm right," he uttered that made my gazes turn back to him.
What did you mean? Bastard, you make me feel uncomfortable.
I arched an eyebrow at him and he drink. Still glaring at me and I guess I can't keep these eyes on him. I think I'm the one who will go to my coffin first if I continue it.
"W-what? What do you mean?" I asked him even I know the answer.
"Silly, it's nothing, just don't mind it,"
His voice is cooler than the winds that pass through both of us. Maki, I'm worried...to you.
"Uhm..." I'm about to speak when he glances at me
"Just eat, don't mind it," he cut.
"Yeah, I do, I-I...I care," I said breaking my voice.
He stoppedblew and gently move his head in my direction and gave me a stare that feels like he was scanning me and studying if I was true to my words.
"S...stop staring at me like that, It makes me anxious," I stated and look down at the food.
"Okay, sorry..." He said.
We both didn't speak for about a minute, him staring at the dark clouds, dark oceans, moon, and nothingness while I, watching him. Devouring all the beer and gulped it. While thinking about I don't know but I guess, it's too deep to measure.
Something abyss.
"May I know something about you? I mean, you act as you know me better than I know and...in my case, I don't know you more than Maki, Maki ferell,"
I don't know where I get the strength to ask him about it but, My mind is kinda confused. After all this time, I realized that I was just spending my time with a stranger.
"Uh, you mean, information about me?" He clears his words. Without looking at me.
"Kinda yeah, if only you are comfortable with it?" I asked.
"So what's your question," he asked and drink once again.
"When did you want to stop drinking alcohol?"
It's not my real question but seeing him slowly killing himself by the means of alcohol, makes me annoyed.
"Until the world stops on spinning," he said.
"Maki!" I almost shouted but he didn't care.
"I'm not kidding, Maki!"
"So am I?" He turns his gaze to me. And quickly looked away.
"In, a possible way, Maki, answer me," I begged.
"I already answered you," he said.
I lost my hope. I guess he would not going to end his drinking habit until he dies because of that.
I rolled my eyes and took a bite on the red apple in my hand, I think I should stop asking him
"Until she comes back?" He answered. Yet sounds like he's kinda throwing me a question.
Why is he like that?
"Is it possible to come back of her?" I asked and he chuckles sarcastically,
I can sense the bitterness, the pain, and the sorrows he's been carrying as it stays in his heart for a very long time.
"That's is why I answered you like that. It's impossible. Impossible to quit drinking and impossible that one day she will come again."
He said and scratches his little eyes with his finger, I looked at him lower when he looked down.
"Are you crying?" I asked and he immediately put his hand back to his side.
"I don't cry, There is just sand entering my eyes, it gets irritation in me." He said and tried to look cool.
"Ahh, is that so, does it hurts? do you need help?"
"Of course not,"
I chuckle after I heard him. He's kinda cute when he's acting like he's not getting hurt but in fact, he blinks several times in a second, I know that sand hurts.
"Yes, you are, Maki,"
"No, I said no," he said and then scratches his eyes again.
"That's not the way to get out the little sand, Maki," I said and I immediately stood up,
I approach him and gently knelt in front of him.
"Come on, I will try to blow it away," I said and I saw his lips gently parted when his eyes badly hurt.
He's cute, by the way,
"I told you I'm not needing your help," he said irritated. While his one eye is glaring at me and another is hurting.
"Shut up, You kinda stupid,"
"Why do I become stupid huh?"
"I said shut up,"
I started to lower my height so that I can easily approach his face, I even see him widen his eyes when I get closer to him, he was sitting relaxing, so in simple words, he is seating like he is enjoying the sun's light on his skin.
"Ouch, that hurts, a-aww," he mouthed when I gently open his hurting eyes,
"Shh, just...be quiet," I said and he obeyed. Did he obey? Yeah...cause he shut his mouth,
"Okay, I will blow it gently okay?" I asked and he closed his eyes then node. Even a few pores aren't visible, I wonder what products dis he used to maintain a very clear skin huh?
"1, 2, 3," I counted and I slightly opened it, he even highen his hand up to where my hand is when he feels hurts, I even feel his finger gently stroking down to my arms but he quickly put it down. I quickly but thoughtful blew up his eyes and then sat,
He has good hair and a great smell.
"Does it hurts anymore?" I asked with a smile. He is still closing his eyes and even tried run rub again but I hold his wrist deterring him to do that.
"Uh...I, I don't know, it hurts...oh," he stopped saying and then blink many times,
"Does it?" I asked and he looked down.
"Uh, I.I think no, you may go back eating now,"
I giggle and look up at the moon.
"The night is beautiful," I mugged. And stood up to go back to my sit,
"So even the grits tell you to avoid drinking," I uttered and bite the apple again.
"Tss," he mumbled and then looked away, he's cute,
"So, Maki, aside from your name, where did you get high school?" I started asking him and he pinned his lips. And he Gently lies down to the carpet,
"In Seoul, Hankuk University, I...I studied there since pre-school until then," he asked with a frigid tone.
"Ohh, that university is kinda outstanding, how did you get that?"
"What? I don't comprehend you," he said and then glow at me.
"Maybe you are drunk? I mean, how did you afford to study on that? That is costly," I said.
"Uh, nothing, My father was just friends with the owner of it," he muttered.
"Woah? Really? You're so lucky huh?"
"Tss, maybe,"
"What is your course there?" I asked and he closed his eyes, the wind blows and that causes my hair to fall on my face and the Rio that I am using gently flocked up.
"Shit, this again broke up," I mumbled.
"Use cotton or something that didn't break easily, it may help," he suggested. That was so unbelievable.
"Yeah, I will," I retorted.
"So...Maki, what is your course there?" I asked again.
"Business, I was taking a business management,"
"So, you would like to be a businessman in a near future? Isn't it?"
"No, I don't want, I just, Nothing, just ask another one," he said and then sighed.
"It's cold here," I said and he asked me
."do you want to go inside?"
I sighed and look at him who was now looking at me.
"No, I want to cherish this and enjoy every minute here," I replied,
"Yeah, I think you should too cause this is first and last,"
"What do you mean by that?" I asked softly, "nothing," the only word he retorted.
"Hmm, who are your parents?" I mouthed and he smiled thinly,
"I think I would not going to ask it, Ask me another,"
"Why?"
"Nothing..." This man is kinda fucking me up,
"Maki, why did you do that thing? What are your plans for me and why did you pay for Sana's operation?" I asked and hoping for him to answer me by saying a fact not only by just nothing.
"Just my trip,"
Okay, I didn't get the word "anything" but he change it to just his trip. Argh! This man!
"Ahh, Uhm, this, I hope you will gonna answer me like what I was waiting for,"
"Spill,"
"Okay, Uhm, I just don't know you more than you know me, you are very secretive and hard to understand, tell me, why did you act like that?" I asked and he opened his eyes but looked at the dark sky with a million stars that keep on glowing and twinkling above us.
"I think because not everyone has the right to know me better than I know them. And that's called privacy, They will know certain information about me only those things I allowed them to know. exactly what I did to you," he mouthed very cold and calm.
"So...Maki, I don't have right to know you better than now?" I asked and he bit his lower lip.
"Pardon but someday, maybe someday if I'm whole again," he stated and I have a double mind to understand him. There is a lot of back words on my mind and then there is telling me that he didn't like me and was just a victim of kidnapping. But he didn't do anything bad to me.
"Ah, don't worry, if ever after those days that we have been together and will come back to the city, and our fate will be in the same time again, I hope that you are whole and healed that time so that, I can ask you many questions and you will answer me confident," I said and he hardened his bit on his lip.
"Will look forward to that, I hope so,"
"So...Uhm, Did you have a past relationship? And did you miss genuine from them if ever you have?" I asked and he almost kill me with his stare.
"Why did you ask me that shit?" He asked and I realized, he was too sensitive.
"Ahhh, I'm sorry, Okay I will think another," I asked and he put his hand under his head.
"No," he uttered.
What does it mean by saying no?
"Uhm, be specific, you kinda keeping me hard to understand,"
"I said no, I don't miss anyone of them, I dated A lot of girls before but when I saw her hurting my dad, I...I even get afraid of might someone can hurt me that way also and I don't want to experience it,"
A sudden realization in his words, is he referring to his mother?
As I look at him lying on the carpet, his hands are on his hair fixing it, while the other hand is under his head, I watch how the winds make him feel comfortable with the climate, he even smiled genuinely after the wind passes to him.
"Are you referring to your mother with the word she?" I asked and he quickly get up.
His summer look polo keeps him look hot with its open three buttons,
"Did....did I spill something?" He hurriedly asked and his eyes were wandering to me.
I shooked my head gently and smiled. "Not really but I just understand your puzzled thoughts, and realized that you seem to talk about your mother," I explained and he licked his lower lip.
Don't please, I'm going to be uneasy with me.
He licked it more than once and then looked away, my heart is beating so fast that it could get out, how dare you Maki, please stop that!
"Aish, yeah, I just spilled something, " he said.
"tu es intelligente et belle, j'en ai été vraiment étonnée, Cassandra, tu me fais tomber plus fort vers toi,"
He stated in a french language,
"I'm sorry?" I asked waiting for him to translate it to English or Korean, languages,
"아무것도 아니야, 안에 들어가서 쉬고 싶으면 거기 가서 자, 내가 여기 다 알아서 해줄게."
"하지만 난 아직 너랑 끝나지 않았어, 마키, 최근에 무슨 말을 했는지 말해줘, 1분 전에?"
"아무것도 아니야...그건 별로 중요하지 않으니 신경쓰지마."
(Translation: "nothing, If ever you wanted to go inside and rest, just go there and Sleep, I will take care of everything here,"
"But I'm not done with you yet, Maki, tell me what did you say, a minute ago?"
"it is just nothing...it's not that important so don't mind it,")
"확실합니까? 자지 않을래요? 여기 남을 겁니까?"
"그래, 하지만 걱정하지마, 난 취한 게 아니니까 내가 짊어질 수 있어."
("are you sure? Aren't you going to bed? you will stay here?"
"kinda yeah, but don't worry, I'm not drunk, so I could carry myself,")
"하지만 여전히 대답을 하지 않는 마키."
"그래, 내 말에 그녀는 내 어머니라는 걸, 알았지? 이제 가도 돼."
("but you still don't answer me, Maki,"
"yeah, that she in my phrases is my mother, okay? now you may go now,")
"마키... 널 여기 두고 싶지 않아, 혼자 있을게."
"나는 자살하지 않을 것입니다, 당신은 자야합니다" ("Maki... I don't want to leave you here, all by yourself, I will stay here,"
"I'm not going to kill myself, you should sleep," )