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"It's not what I am thinking, I'm thinking about you, yeah I know that you won't do Suicide but it's kinda horrible that I saw you mourning here and then I will leave you, please even just only, for now, listen to me," I stated and he looks at me with severe eyes.
I never did this to Renz so, aside from my family, mama, and Sana, my little sister, he's the only person I've been worried about. Renz is kinda careful in everything, every step he made, decisions, words, and especially to himself, while this person in front of me staring at void is different, very different from him. The way it always stares, glances, his words, tone, and now this habit of drinking. He's destroying himself slowly. And the fact that he doesn't feel love or any sentimental feeling.
"I said I'm okay, I'm fine!"
Then this. He always denies everything that is so obvious. Anything in his world seems to be a burden for him. Even people, I wonder when did the last time he feels overjoyed, happy, or loved? And what is the reason cause, If I will going to be asked, I don't know, I don't know how to make him delighted.
"You are not, Maki please, don't be rude to yourself," I let out and he is on his way to taking another bottle of beer he was drinking before.
"I said don't drink again. Maki ferell, you kinda hard to control,"
He chuckles when he heard the slightly irritated tone of me.
I arched an eyebrow and glared at him. What is wrong with this man.
"You want me to control? Kiss me,"
My heart is beating so fast, this shit, what did he guess? I'm kidding?
"I'm not trolling around, Maki." Are aid and he quickly stood up. My heart, oh gosh, my heart,
I'm lost, I'm losing my breath away, he takes my breath away!!!! Oh shit, this one is kinda...
"If you want me to stop drinking then kiss me, just a French kiss," he said while he was standing in front of me.
"S...shut up. That's not what I'm..."
I lost my words when he knelt. Fuck!
Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Argh! I can't wheeze!
"M..Maki, s-stay away from m..me," I said, he comes closer and I can't get enough air to use.
He looked in my eye and I am staring at him excessively. His black tantalizing eyes keep on staring at me and the way his lips move makes me feel uneasy.
"Or just a quick kiss," he whispered and all I can do is to stare at his lips moving.
"What the hell is that request? You bastard—"
"Hmmm, okay, feel uncomfortable again, huh? Come on we're just two here," he with a mock in his voice.
"Shut up! You pervert!" I yelled, and he just smiled.
I can smell the good fragrance of his cool minty perfume that gently gets inside my nostril and gives me pleasure.
"M-Maki, stop this," I said when he comes closer to me. My eyes are on his polo and I saw his chest and his costly pendant on it.
The way the pendant of his necklace tells me that he's kinda richer than I thought he was.
"Just a quick," I heard him saying, and as flash as the lightning strikes on the other side of the sea,
He flattened his lips to mine. I also felt his hand to my neck supporting and pulling me closer to him.
He gently rub his lips and I could feel the softness of it while he is pressing it harder to me.
I widened my eyes and my heart is freaking want to explode. I see how the Violet lights splash on his eyes that quickly vanished in just a second. I want to refuse but I can't do it. I watch him being closer to me as he closes his eyes and enjoys the way he wants me to do.
He pulls me and his kisses began to harder and I couldn't help but notice that I was going to partake in his kisses.
My hands are gripping on the layer of his polo shirt and I felt his tongue licking my lower lips.
"M-Maki...." I whimper and he gently entered my mouth.
I gripped more and more and he moves gradually delivering me to pleasure.
His hand lowered to my arms and it strokes up and down. I want to refuse...
I heard a little noise caused by our kisses, and I closed my eyes as he pressed more and more and my tongue feel his warm tongue.
I tasted the beer he's drinking lately and the after-taste of it. It's sweet but has bitterness.
I could feel his gentle touches that enter my blouse and the way it warms me and makes my abdomen hurt. I tried to push him until I can, But he's kinda strong to maintain his position.
"M-M...Maki," I wail almost catching my breath and he parted his lips to mine. Still closer to me.
"Seems like you enjoy it..." He said in a tone of seductive. Is he freaking playing to me?
I closed my eyes and I smell the minty flavor smell of his breath that gently touches my skin. It's warm and delicate.
I tried to calm myself and breathe but knowing that he was in front of me made me feel uneasy to do this,
"Stop pretending that you don't, it's easy to say yes," he whispered as I simp. I lack air!
"Cassandra wake up, don't you dare partake in this play," I said to myself,
"Maki...d-don't you dare to do it again—" I said almost every word I said it's hard to pronounce
"And then if I do, what would you gonna do to me?" He said playfully and could even hear him chuckling.
"S...stay away from m...me, you...bitch,"
I hum. And he chuckles again. Even I can't see him because I'm closing my eyes I know what his gesture looks like. His playful smirk, I know that he was using it now.
"Yeah, I am a real bitch you know," he said and he pushed me aggressively down to the carpet and he immediately goes above me.
I widened my eyes and my heart is pumping so fast.. what is this...gosh.
"M-Maki, d...don't," I said and he gives me a serious look. His eyes are full of lust that keeps me panicking, his hands hold my arms, holding it both it and place to my side, very hard.
"I...M-Maki!" I yelled when he planted a kiss on my neck down to every inch of it, my abdomen hurts so bad!
"M...Maki, hmm, p-please...don't, ahh!"
My arms hurt every time that his nails sinking into my skin and the tightness of his grips. I almost cried at what he was doing. I want to get away, I want to get away from his kisses as long as I can stop myself from returning the kiss.
I don't want to, I really don't want to but my body gives voluntarily,
I don"t know where to turn my head when I feel the sensation.
he even pressed his lips to my neck and gently went down to the bottom of my collar bone. my stomach hurts!
he was so obsessed with kissing me that he let go of my arms causing me to grab his shoulder and pushed him. I thought I can be free now but I felt his grip on my hair cause me to look up.
"Maki! Don't please!"
even though the surroundings were cold I could feel the sweat on my forehead, sweat flowing down my neck,
my whole being trembled when I feel him lift my blouse with his hand, and it was as if his fingers were playing up and down until it reached the button that serves to fasten my skinny jeans, fuck!
"Maki ..." I said sobbing. I'm too nervous. he might go on and rape me,
"You're too good, Cassandra," he whispered
"Fuck you! L...let me o—"
my words were cut short as he tightened his grip on my hair and forcibly opened my mouth once with his hot tongue.
I could feel the lump in his pants that landed on my femininity reason for me to close up and cling to his shoulder.
I can't take it anymore ... I feel like I'm going to give up.
"Maki ... please don't be here ..." I whispered, as I went crazy as he touched my waist, I could feel his playful finger crawling up my zipper and what's more there was his manhood that was already landing on my femininity gently.
"Do you want to continue this in our room?" I heard him asking and all I can do is to node.
"y ... shit, Maki," I groaned when I felt a sticky liquid flows through my panty continuously,