Chapter 19: A goodbye kiss

***Nala's P.O.V

He was well put together, as always, for an alpha whose heart was as broken as mine. He does always seem to be well attired even though he was dying to get me back. His dark hair that I recollected short and well-trimmed, hung above his shoulder neatly. His strong muscular body was attired in a black top that showcase how buffed and thick his shoulder and chest were and the carving of his six-pack. His shirt which was as dark as his hair complimented his dark blue pant, and his black shoe. My eyes slowly went to my bed and there I saw a lot of beautiful, decorated bags beside him and a large bundle of red roses. I remained to stand at the door surprisingly. Soon I had managed to keep myself calm from another unexpected visit of his and slowly entered my room. I didn't close my bedroom as I did, I pushed the door to my right side, allowing the door to widening. Alpha Anton's bright blue eyes stared at me as I did.

I stood a distance from him and threw my handbag onto my bed. It went over all the things he had brought for me, which looked like clothes and probably some jewelry as well. There was no way I was going to keep those. I didn't want anything from him. Anyways, I was glad to see him now, I was ready to allow him to know that I wasn't angry at him anymore and that he too was as innocent as me and to let him know deeply that there can never be us. I just hope he will understand and stop breaking into Dr. Annie's house.

"Anton," I called his name as I slowly lowered my head, ready to say what I had to say to him.

"I brought you some clothes that would fit you very well," His powerful voice spoke to me but in a very low tone.

My eyes went back to his. He walked over to be. Immediately, I stopped him before he could get too close to me. He stopped, obeying me.

"Please forgive me of all the hurt my father and I put you through," his strong voice which sometimes sounds very sexy, said to me.

"I do," I answered him. "I forgive you Alpha Anton Bates."

He came closer to me, surprised at what I had said. He reached for both of my hands. I allowed him to. I lowered my head staring at his robust hands holding mine. They felt so warm against mine and soft. I gently pulled my hand away from his quickly and place them behind me while I took a step away from him not wanting to be so close to him.

"But I don't want to be with you, I don't want to be your Luna," I told him.

"Nala, please don't do this to me, I love you," Alpha Anton said to me.

"Well, I don’t, and I don't want to be with you after all that happen," I told him.

Within his bright blue eyes, I saw tears of sadness slowly forming.

"I'm not angry at you anymore and I now only blame your father for every bad thing that had happened to me within your land," I told him. "For I now believe that you were as innocent as me."

"Then why won't you accept me as your one true mate then, Nala?” Anton inquired me as he blinked away his tears.

"For I don't love you Anton, I don't feel anything within my heart that wants to accept you as my mate," I answered him.

Alpha Anton turned around immediately and walked over to my window. He stopped and rest both of his hands against the window, deeply hurt at what I had said. I stood behind him that soon felt like minutes, staring at him silently and sadly. I wanted him to understand me and just leave forgetting me. I wanted him to move on with his life as I was doing.

"What can I do to make you love me again, Nala?" Alpha Anton spun around from the window. His sad blue eyes gazed into mine dying for an answer.

"Bring back my mom," I gave him an answer. Something I know that he can never give me. That's the love I had once had for him, gone forever, just like my mom and there was nothing he can do to bring it back.

He lowered his head, and his hand ran through his dark beautiful hair.

"I guess there's no point on coming here anymore since you're persistent and never taking me back," Alpha Anton said as he raised his head.

I nodded and began to play with the tip of the nails of my fingers.

"I should leave now," he told me as he walked over to me to exit the door but instead, he stopped before me, so close that our bodies touched.

"Goodbye Nala and please take care of yourself."

"Goodbye Anton you do the same as well," I told him back.

He nodded.

He stood before me as we both exchanged our goodbyes like he didn't want to leave.

"You should leave now," I told him.

He again nodded. And still, he remained to stand before me. I wanted to step backward away from him, but it seemed my body didn't want to.

"Can I kiss you goodbye?" the mighty Alpha Anton inquired me instead of just taking it.

I remained silently not answering him. His eyes gazed into mine harder by every stare for an answer. I closed my eyes and nodded. It was only a kiss anyways and today was the last I will see him breaking into Dr. Annie's home. As I was about to open my eyes, I felt one of his hands against my right cheek, I remained to close them. His hand felt so warm, soft, and smooth against my right cheek. My heart soon began to beat quickly within my chest as I felt his breath against the tip of my lips. His lips were moving to touch mine. My eyes shut tightly as his mouth collided into mine and kissed me. I gently pushed him away before his lips could caress mine anymore. And I opened my eyes licking my lips. Alpha Anton walked away from me and headed straight downstairs. I watched him as he did and exit my room as he opened the front door and closed the door behind him, not looking back. I stood at the top of the stair and slowly moved my hand to my mouth touching my lips. The kiss he gave me felt very good that I was so frightened of how my body was so relaxed and calm by it that I had to push him away. I didn't want him to feel that deep down I still had a thing for him and discover I had lied. I just want to move on and have a clean start. I didn't want to rub out my horrible past with him and his evil dad, starting onto that same dirty page. I wanted to start fresh and anew.

Sadly, I went over to my bed and cleared off all the things he had bought for me not bothering to investigate the bags. I placed them at the side of the closet. I had planned to give them away, throwing them all in the trash wouldn't feel right doing so. But the bundle of roses, I crushed them concealing them in a bag and later threw them into a bin. I didn't want Dr. Annie to see them and suspected anything.

After taking a long bath and making myself a sandwich for dinner. I lay in my bed and went off to sleep, for another day at work. Training to become a doctor I didn't get any day off for the weekend I had to work half a day. It was okay for me, I had nothing to do after coming home from work nor anything to do if I should be given a day off.

Slowly, I drift off to sleep.