Chapter 35: A hurtful goodbye

Nala's P.O.V

I love alpha Anton; I just didn't feel like I would be making the right decision in becoming his Luna right now. I needed some time to think before I act.

I remained to lay naked between his sheet waiting on him to return. I couldn't wait anymore longer and so I had no choice but to leave to check on Dr. Charles. I wore one of his large blue shirts and shorts of his. They were big but I wore them the best I could. I fixed my hair which was a mess and exited his room straight into his office for my slippers. I found them and placed them on, soon I paused staring at his window that was broken and around his office that was a complete mess by our actions. I exited his office quickly going downstairs while I hope none of his maids will see me. Gladly, no one did but when I exit the house I met upon Izabella. She stared at me, I held my head straight and went back to Dr. Charles's home hastily. As I did, I hoped along the road that I could somehow see Anton and beg him to give me time to think. I hated the mood he left in. It hurts badly. It hurts seeing him being so upset, especially that I am the cause of it. I arrived at Dr. Charles's home. I met upon Dr. Charles coming from downstairs as I locked the door behind me.

Seeing Dr. Charles, I suddenly remembered I forgot the bread I bought. I left it at Alpha Anton's house. I felt so embarrassed now.

"I'm sorry, I forgot the bread," I apologize to Dr. Charles.

He nodded and examined me from head to foot, knowing that's not the clothes I left the house in.

I hurriedly began to run upstairs passing him.

"Nala," Dr. Charles stopped me.

I turned to face him.

"You can leave now if you want to, I feel fine and right now I have a patient who should be coming to me soon," he told me.

I nodded and I ran upstairs for my suitcase not bothering to change. Dr. Charles seemed to have an idea of what was going on with me. I was happy he did. I too wanted to leave now. I needed to go home and think about what I did.

I pulled my suitcase downstairs ready to say my goodbyes to Dr. Charles. He touched my hand reaching out to me and assisted me with transportation. A friend of his. I was soon within the truck on my way back to Roxburghe. I stared through the window sadly, hating what was happening. Alpha Anton and I were having a great time and look what I made it turn into. I hated myself.

When I return to Roxburghe it was evening. Dr. Annie and Blair have left work already. I entered the room and went upstairs. I placed my suitcase aside and lay down crying as I touch the clothes of the man, I was in, to who I gave my virginity. I remained within the same position until within a few minutes I heard a footstep outside my room. I jumped up and ran to open the door.

"Anton," I called with tears in my eyes thinking it was him.

I was soon surprised that it was Doctor Annie. I wipe away my tears right away and hurriedly went to lay down on my bed turning my back to her, not wanting her to see me like this.

"Nala, why are you crying and why did you return so quick?' Dr. Annie inquired me worried.

"Dr. Charles is okay and informs me that I could go home," I answered her second question only.

"Okay, then why are you crying then?" she again inquired me as she sat behind me and touched my back. Again, I didn't answer her I just remained sobbing and eager for her to leave.

"Why are you in these male clothes and did your ex hurt you?"

"He didn't hurt me just please give me some space," I begged her.

Dr. Annie pulled me from the bed right away. I sat up.

"Please don't tell me you had sex with him Nala?" she said worriedly.

I lowered my head sadly.

"Oh no!" Dr. Annie said shockingly.

"Nala why did you do something so stupid like that after what he did to you," she complained.

"I still love him," I told her the truth.

Dr. Annie grabbed me by the collar and stared me in the eyes angrily.

"I thought so the same and foolishly took my ex and again he hurt me!" she shouted angrily at me. "What you did is a mistake, you need to forget him and move on."

I cried hard at what she had said.

"You didn't make him cum inside of you!" she again shouted at me as she unhands me.

"I forgot about it," I cried to her.

"You’re a stupid wolf!" she shouted. "What if he gets you pregnant now, do you want to raise a child in an abusive home."

Dr. Annie ran from the room leaving me. At that moment I started to think that what I did was wrong. The moment I shared with Alpha Anton should never have happened. I began to curse myself, agreeing that Dr. Annie was saying the right thing.

My bedroom door opened quickly and there I saw Dr. Annie with a tiny clear white cup in her hand.

"When did you have sex with him?" she inquired angrily as she approached me.

"Not too long ago, that's why I left," I answered her.

"This will be good to wash his sperms from out of you before it goes to your egg," she told me as she gave me the cloudy white liquid to drink. I took it from her right away. I came off the bed and went into the bathroom. After a few minutes, I returned with the empty cup.

Dr. Annie took it from me, and we both sat on the side of the bed.

"Your new life is here within this new land and not with him," Dr. Annie told me.

I nodded and wiped away my tears.

"You can have a new start with Kyle but make sure he doesn't know what you did just keep it a secret from him."

I again nodded.

Dr. Annie hugged me. My bedroom door quickly opened. My head went from her shoulder right away and there I saw Alpha Anton shirtless and only within his sweatpants, I recollected him putting on. His bare chest filled my head with the moment we shared, remembering how I enjoyed touching his muscular body and seeing his tattoos.

"What the hell are you doing inside my room?" Dr. Annie inquired him angrily.

Alpha Anton glanced at her and she quickly cling to me afraid of him.

"I'll talk to him," I told Dr. Annie.

As I was about to leave the room with Alpha Anton. Dr. Annie stopped me not wanting me to leave. I did and turned to look at her.

"You know what to do," she told me.

"You should leave Anton," I turned to him and said to him sadly. "What we did was a mistake, and I will never be your Luna, I want to spend my life here with Kyle instead of you."

"Nala, don't do this now I can't take it anymore," Alpha Anton said very upsettingly to me. "I came here for you, and I can't bear to be treated like this anymore."

"Leave please," I said to him softly as I lowered my head.

I could feel him still standing at me.

"I'm done with this, please don't try to show up at my house for you don't know what you want and stay away from Izabella," Alpha Anton said angrily to me as he went off.

I fell to the ground crying as he did.

"You did the right thing," Dr. Annie told me. "You'll forget him soon since he won't be bothering you."

"Sending you back to his land was a mistake," she said as she hugged me.

I hugged her crying my eyes out.