Chapter 36: Not feeling well.

**Nala’s P.O.V
**

I haven’t left my room since I’ve once more pushed away my one true mate, Alpha Anton Bates. Throughout the day I curled up in bed staring through my bedroom window sadly and crying whenever I could.
My bedroom door opened. I didn’t turn around knowing it was Dr. Annie. She didn’t bother to go over to her boyfriend’s house, instead, she chooses to stay here with me, knowing I was in desperate need of her emotional support right now.
She walked over to the bed and sat down. My body shook as she did, and I felt the bed slowly sink by her body weight.

“Nala, you need to get out of those clothes now and take a bath, your body is stink of sex,” Dr. Annie told me as he rested one of her hands onto my shoulder.

I didn’t answer her I just remained to stare through the window, sadly.
“You also need to get something to eat.”
“Nala,” Dr. Annie called me irritated that I was not responding to her.
Still, I didn’t answer her.
“If you continue to be like this, trying to be withdrawn, you’ll never get over him and ruin your inner self,” Dr. Annie warned me.
She sighed bothered by my unresponsive behaviour.
“Get up and wash out your crotch and come downstair for your dinner,” Dr. Annie told me as she shook my shoulder and came off the bed. She opened my bedroom door standing for a while and soon she left.

I exhaled heavily and soon I began to cry remembering the hurtful words Alpha Anton said to me. All my life I’ve never thought he would eventually be fed up with me, what he said shocked me that I still couldn’t believe. Somehow, I hoped that he didn’t mean it. It was stupid of me thinking so anyway. Of how heartbroken he was, he’ll never fight for me again. I saw it within his bright blue eyes. He truly did give up on me. I held my pillow sobbing my heart out. I held the pillow tighter as my mind flashes back, recollecting the wonderful moment we shared at his home and how strongly arouse I was for him as much as he was for me. He was starving for me and was just as hurt as me after our terrible past. Him trying to heal within this land and I looking for a new start, Alpha Anton had been going through a hard time within his land all because of his lying evil father. I should have stayed there trying to heal each other hearts.

“He did the right thing turning his back on me,” I sobbed sadly.

Alpha Anton needed somehow who will always be by his side, not a she-wolf like me who runs away from an issue thinking it’s better resolved that way. He also needs a strong she-wolf to stand by his side. I’m sure Izabella would be that wolf for him if he ever chooses her. I slowly turned onto my back crying out loud, by that last thought. It was so painful.

“Nala!” I heard Dr. Annie call loudly as she ran upstairs and opened my door quickly, entering my room.

“I don’t want Izabella to have him,” I cried to her. “I love him,” I cried even more.

Dr. Annie hurriedly came over to my bed and grabbed me hugging me. I rested my head against her chest.

“I want to leave now, I don’t want to stay here anymore,” I sobbed to her.

"Shh….,” Dr. Annie said softly. “Everything will be okay.” “I once felt the same way as you, it hurts yes, but I promise you, time will heal, that’s the only thing that can help you right now, time.”

I wrapped my hand around her tightly, by what she had said.

“You made the right decision turning him down, you have no idea how proud I am of you, Nala, that I wish I was as wise as you when I was young but no, I made my heart stupidly made my decision and it gave me a scar that can never heal.”

I stopped crying by what she had said, and I raised my head to her, staring into her eyes. She returned my stare while she slowly rocked me in her arms.

“I hope you don’t think of me one day, badly, for pushing you to turn him down whether you regret the decision,” Dr. Annie told me sadly with tears in her eyes. “I just don’t want you to make the same decision I did.”

“I once told you I’ve been through a horrible relationship with my mate and ended up being badly hurt but what I didn’t told you was after taking him back thinking things will be better for us, he didn’t, I ended up having a miscarriage. He damaged be so badly I could never have a pup.”

Dr. Annie cried.

My eyes widen sadden by her past.

“I’m sorry,” I said softly to her.

She nodded and wiped away her tears.

She slowly moved away from me and went to the door, opening it. I watched her sadly as she did, while I hated that I had awakened her painful past with my problem. It seemed like I was born to make everyone within my life miserable. I cursed myself inside as I lowered my head.

“Nala,” Dr. Annie called me.

I raised my head staring at her.

“You did the right thing drinking the cleanser,” she told me. “Getting pregnant would not be a good thing for you right now.”
I nodded.
She closed the door. I got up and went to close my bedroom window seeing it was dark outside. I paused staring at the moon before pulling the curtain as my mind went on the cleanser Dr. Annie gave me. I stared at the moon sadly knowing I didn’t drink it. I threw it into the toilet and flushed it. Running to get some more would be a waste of time. My egg is probably fertile now or not. I just hoped I did the right decision not taking it.
Alpha Anton is nothing like her abusive mate. He would never hurt me physically and his baby, knowing we were made for each other.
“Moon goddess,” I said softly looking at the moon. “I don’t know if I did the right thing but let me be with his pup if we belong together.”
I stared at the moon few more minutes and soon I pulled my curtain and went to take a shower, washing away Anton and I discharge of our special moment. I didn’t feel hungry and so I went off to sleep, trying to give my mind some peace.
It was a new day. I got up early and started to get myself ready for work. I was nowhere in the mood for work, but I had to go. I too had to be strong.
I heard a knock on the door as I searched for a pair of clothes.
“Come in,” I answered as I turned to face the door.
The door opened.
“I’m giving you two days off from work,” Dr. Annie told me.
“Thank you, but you don’t have to,” I said to her.
“Please Nala just take it, also I think your mind is not ready to start your training again.”
“Okay,” I answered her as I nodded.
“Good, breakfast is downstair when you’re ready.”
I again nodded. As Dr. Annie left, I closed my closet and went into bed. I felt quite relieved that I didn’t have to go to work today. I just wanted to be alone.
Before Dr. Annie left off for work, she said her goodbyes and informed me she’ll try to come home early to check on me. I nodded.
I didn’t want to starve my body any longer. I went downstairs and helped myself to the breakfast, Dr. Annie had prepared for me. Oats. I barely ate half of it. I drank some orange juice and went back upstairs laying down. My hand slowly played along with the sheet as I did, and my mind went back to what had happened at Burnesfield. I turned onto my side quickly and fixed my head onto my pillow wanting to remember the wonderful moment Alpha Anton and I shared. He devirginized me in the best possible way he could. I touched my lips remembering his kiss, his hard muscular tattoo body against my naked body, and him slowly thrusting every inch of his cock slowly inside of me until he started pounding me hard. I instantly became wet, and I sat up wanting to get rid of the thought. It was pointless thinking about our sexual moment right now. Alpha Anton gave up on me. He’ll never take me back even if I return to him nor did I want to bother him. I didn’t want to give him hope and yet again discourage him. As Dr. Annie had said only time can help me. It will be so for him as well. All I had to do now was to forget him.
I lowered my head staring at my belly recollecting what I didn’t do. My hand ran across my belly hoping and praying to the moon goddess that being pregnant for him is her telling me to take him back. I just hope Alpha Anton will be a part of my life if I am and that it won’t be late.
I lay back down staring through my glass window at the tree and the beauty of the outside. I heard the door knock downstairs. I sat up wondering who it was. I know for sure it wasn’t Dr. Annie, she would never have knocked. I heard the door again knock. I immediately exit my room and went downstairs. The person outside was still knocking on the door. I paused staring at the door. What if it’s Anton, I thought, quickly I opened the door. I was soon surprised it was Kyle. He grabbed me and kissed me as he saw me. I didn’t kiss him back. His kiss was like one of favourite meals not prepared well. I just allowed him to kiss me while I eagerly waited for him to get his distasteful lips off me. Finally, he did, and he just stood before me smiling. I gave him a fake smile hiding my sadness.
Kyles was attired in a blue shirt that allowed me to remember Alpha Anton's blue eyes and a black pants with shoes that match his shirt. His blonde hair and his hazel eyes shone brightly in the sunlight.
Kyle allowed himself in and locked the door.
“I’m so happy you’re back home,” he told me.
I gave him another fake smile and stood still wishing he could just leave now. I wasn’t in any mood to see him. The moment Alpha Anton and I shared wiped every thought of him from my mind. I never once thought about him after I got back and even our date.
“Yes, I got back yesterday,” I told him.
His hand went around my waist, and he brings my body to his. I stared into his face and at his lips seeing his lip was perfectly fine now.
“Dr. Annie told me you’re here and not feeling well and so I ran to check on you,” he told me.
I nodded and felt disappointed at what Dr. Annie did. I wish she didn’t send him here now after what had between me and the alpha. I know she wanted me to forget Anton but what she did was just wrong. Wanting to use Kyle to make me forget the alpha.
“I’m still not feeling well,” I told him as I pulled his hand from around my waist hating his touch. His touch was nothing like Alpha Anton’s. The wonderful moment alpha Anton and I shared, he touched me so good it will be hard for me to forget it. I hated Kyle's hands around me.
“Can you see me when I’m better,” I told him. “I want to sleep now,” I lied to him. I just wanted him to leave.
Kyle took me up in his arms and I shrieked. “Let me watch you until you fall asleep,” he told me while he began to carry me upstairs.
“No, you don’t have to,” I said to him.
He refused to listen to me.
“Where is your room?” he inquired me.
I showed him being irritated by him. He carried me into my room and place me down. He sat beside me as he did.
“Get some rest now,” he told me as he kissed my forehead.
I closed my eyes wishing I could now, so, he could leave, but I couldn’t fall asleep. I could feel his hot air rushing from his nostril onto my face and I hated it. I opened my eyes and I sat up.
“What is wrong?” Kyle inquired me.
“I don’t feel sleepy anymore,” I told him.
“I understand,” he said as he got closer to kiss me onto my neck.
“I can’t do this anymore,” I jumped off the bed.
“Do what?” Kyle said as he stood still staring at me.
“I don’t want to be with you anymore,” I had to tell him, sadly.
Kyle spins around angrily. I step backward not wanting to be close to him right now.
“Is this because of that alpha at Burnesfield?” he inquired me as he turned to me.
I didn’t answer him I just lowered my head.
“Did something happened between you and him back there, is this the reason why you want to end our relationship?” Kyle again inquired me.
“Answer me!” he soon shouted wanting to know now.
My body jumped frightened by him. He was now scaring me.
“Yes,” I answered quickly.
“I can’t believe I stupidly fell for you,” Kyle complained angrily. “I’ve never had any feelings for any she-wolf until I met you and now look what you’re doing to me!” he shouted.
“Calm down!” I told him terrifyingly, hating the way he was behaving. He was scaring me badly. I now really wanted him to leave.
“Don’t tell me to calm down!” he again yelled at me as he quickly came to close me.
Swiftly, I tried to move away from him. He grabbed me by the hand and pulled me to him. I screamed as he did.
“No, she-wolf as ever leave me, I’m the one who does that,” he said infuriated to me. “I’m the one who always fuck them and turn them down.”
“Let me go and just leave,” I told him as I tried to pull my hand away from him.
“Don’t you there order me to do anything,” he growled and held my hand tighter. “I’m the fucking future alpha of this land and I’m not going to let a low wolf like you speak to me in such way.”
“Please just calm down and let us go over separate ways,” I begged him. “I’ll lie that you were the one who ended our relationship, just please don’t try to create any problem now.”
Kyle laughed and there I saw the true side of him. He wasn’t the good wolf I thought him to be, he was evil. I was happy he showed the type of fucked up person he is.
“Don’t create any problem,” he repeated as he remained to laugh.
“Do you think your stupid alpha mate can do me anything?” he inquired me with great rage as he pulls me to him. My breast slammed into his chest hard, and I screamed.
Kyle grabbed me by my throat and started to choke the hell out of me. I claw at his body while I become breathless wanting him to let me go. My door suddenly opened and there I saw Alpha Anton rush inside. He grabbed Kyle off me. Before Kyle could attack him, he hit him out cold. Kyle fell to the floor unconscious.
“Are you alright?’ Alpha Anton inquired worried as he came over to me.
“Take me away from here now please, I want to go home with you,” I cried to him as he hugged him.
Alpha Anton shifted into his large black wolf and instructed me to sit on his back. I climbed onto him holding him tightly. My face and hand dived into his furry warm wolf. Alpha Anton ran with me so fast I was out of Roxburghe in no time and on his land.
I sat up as we reached while both hands remained to rest against his soft fur body not wanting to fall. He began to walk with me slowly
“Please stop,” I ordered him.
He did.
I got off him and started to take off my clothes, stripping myself naked.
“What are you doing?” Alpha Anton inquired me curiously as he shifted into his wolf form revealing his naked body. We both were naked.
“I want you to mark me now,” I told him as I got close to him wrapping my hands around his neck. Our naked bodies touched.
Alpha Anton stared into my eyes at what I had said.
“Please,” I begged him. “I love you,” I told him for the first.
Alpha Anton kissed me immediately, hard, and passionately. I jumped on him, wrapping my legs around his waist. He remained to kiss me and slowly lowered his body, placing me to lie down on the ground. I remained to wrap my legs around him. I moan as his lips slowly moved to my neck and to breast sucking onto my nipples. He gently parted my legs as he did and slowly insert his penis inside of me. I cried out. His penis thrust inside of me in and out slowly. I held his tight ass and squeezed it loving his dick between me. I moaned and pulled his lips from my breast carrying it to my lips. We kissed and I sucked on his tongue. Alpha Anton started to thrust hard inside of me. I cried out as my ass hit hard against the rough ground. Soon I felt his mouth against my neck sinking his teeth into my neck, marking me. I was now his Luna and every part of me belonged to him. I had no problem with that, I loved him.
“I love you,” Alpha Anton told me as he licked my neck. I hold him tight not wanting to let him go.