Chapter 52

**Cole**

I cannot find her. Where is she? I receive a mind link, it is from Byron, “He just wanted to let you know Winter went out. She said she would be back by Saturday morning.” Well at least I know she is not home anymore.

I really fucked this up. I let my mate run off when there is a psychopath gaining numbers out there. I am absolutely horrible. I let my own insecurities jeopardize my relationship with Winter. I mean I love her. Holy Goddess I love her.

I took me this long to finally realize it. I love Winter. And now I have run off the person who means the most to me. I need to get her back I need to tell her I am sorry for pushing her away. I need to explain my actions she needs to know how I feel.

Maybe I should go after her. I think about it for a while. No, I think she probably needs her space. When she gets back. I will tell her I love her and let her know why I have been pushing her away. In the meantime, I can work with the council to better security. This way when Gerrard attacks we are ready for him.

I head up to bed. I have my dinner brought up. I end up crashing early. I think the stress of everything is catching up to me. When I wake up, I feel like I have not slept at all. Even though I haven't been sleeping in the same bed as Winter, I am still in the same room. Who knew that just not having her in the same room would affect me so much?

I miss her and so does my sleep schedule. I head to the office and just throw myself into my work. I call a meeting of the council to discuss strategies for Gerrard's attack. We have no idea if it will be soon or later but either way, I think we need to start preparing.

We toss around a bunch of ideas. But we agree to increase the training schedules and up border control. Also, I inform them of Winters plan to teach the females how to fight. I know James is not pleased with this.

He even says as much. “What do you mean? You are going to let her do this? I don’t want my mate out there fighting. What if something happens to Sasha, we have the girls to think about. If something happened, they would be without their mother.”

I look at him and respond. “Well, you fight, if something happened to you the girls would be without a father. Also, I am not going to throw the she wolfs on the front line. If they are taught to fight, then they will be safe. They can protect themselves have you thought about that?”

James I can see is mauling over what I have just said. He must have agreed because he did not say anything. Either that or he is keeping his opinion to himself seeing as I am not going to be changing my mind soon.

I really think Winter is on to something. I think having the females in the pack work on training, learning to fight is going to be great for the Red Dawn Pack. Not to mention we will be much more protected if all members know how to fight.

I am wondering if Winter has any more ideas on how to make the pack stronger. I know she wants to get more pack runs and hunts in. Also, she is trying to focus on making all members comfortable with shifting.

I know she has brought it to my attention that most of the females do not shift. I know she wants that to change. I do not think that she knows just how inspiring she is to me. Most Lunas, including my mother do not try to truly change the pack for the better.

I mean sure they support the Alpha and help when they can. However, their duties usually revolve around setting up parties. And having lunch ins. Maybe visiting the new mothers but not a whole lot more than that. This is where Winter is different.

She takes her role as Luna so important that she goes out of her way to make the pack better. Not just being kind to the members of the pack but making them stronger. She wants them to be strong for generations.

Honestly, she was born to fill the role of Luna. I could see why The Moon Goddess chose her to be my mate. The things she has suggested where not things I would have thought of. To me Winter is way more cut out to lead than I am.

I always thought I had to just keep things running the way they always have. I never sought to make any major changes. My father was a great Alpha, so I figured I should just keep up what he made. You know I just has the idea to keep things running smoothly.

I mean I have made more alliances than my father did. So that I guess has been the major achievement I have made while Alpha. I mean I have had to fight off a few packs in the beginning when I took up the mantel as Alpha.

But that is as expected. Everyone always wants to test the new young Alpha so. But I do not think defending the pack or making more alliances is really something big. Winter has definitely been a blessing by the Goddess to our pack.

I plan to listen to her ideas. Try to implement them the best I can. Who knows maybe with her in leadership we will be able to be as strong as her home pack, The Moon Stone pack? Maybe we can be blessed like her pack was.

I just hope she will accept my apology and we can get back on track. I will for sure let her know I love her and that I value her and everything she does. Not just for me but the pack. She needs to know she is the best thing that has happened to me and my Pack.