PAINFUL HEART

I have never been this humiliated in my life. "What did Leo take me for when he kissed me?" I asked myself, feeling so used and dumped like trash. My eyes had become moist and tears threatened to drop while I tried to resist, because some maid passing by were looking, while others were gossiping. I was boiling in anger, clueless on how to react to this embarrassing action of Leo. My hand tightened into a fist and I felt like opening the door and going over to hit him all over his body until blood began to gush out badly, but I couldn't because it will be the opposite at the end. I stood at a spot, looking dumbstruck and confused on what to do. " I hate you! Leo" I screamed before using my leg to hit the door and ran away leaving the mop and bucket by his door. While I rushed down the stairs, the tears I had been holding back began to drop on my hot red cheeks in full force as I tried wiping them continuously. On getting to my room, it was lock which made me wonder who had locked it since Renata wasn't here anymore. Other workers and maid who were around stared at me continuously, making it so obvious that they were saying nasty things about me. "I heard she seduced the master, what a cheap thing" I heard a girl who passed say to a woman in her early forties, she turned and looked disgustingly at me. Others passed and said one thing or the other that pleases them. "Why can't you all mind your business and stop staring at me! Why can you just stop gossiping! " I was so angry and didn't know when I shouted at them.
Like it wasn't enough, they began to talk about how rude I was and how I deserve the way Leo treated me. I couldn't bear to stand there and listen to their useless talks any longer, I ran out of the hallway. Few minutes later, I found myself outside walking around the compound slowly, I had a blithe idea on where I was headed but I just kept on walking. I saw a small building, it looked more like a workshop than a house and I walked over to it and sat at the front, wrapping my arms around myself. Fresh tears began to drop again and I remembered how our lives were so perfect when dad was alive, I and Jenny attended good schools, we had anything we wanted. Mum wasn't working because dad warned her not to, promising to provide everything we needed. "The daughter of a rich man is now a poor miserable maid, who got humiliated by a bastard" I said in anger as the memories flashed through my head."I hate you Leo!" I screamed loudly before picking a stone and throwing on an innocent bird, but the bird was lucky to fly away before the stone was able to get to it. "Just when I thought, I thought, oh no what was I thinking? What have I done? "I asked myself allowed and kept on insulting Leo.
Two hours passed and I was still there, although I wasn't crying anymore but the pain was still there in my heart. It was getting dark and cold but I sat there with blithe of any possible danger around me. I began to feel cold, but for some reason I wasn't able to stand, talk more of going to the mansion. By the time I was calm, everywhere was already dark and all I heard were flapping from the tress around which were caused by the wind. The moment I finally stood up to leave, I felt so dizzy with a terrible headache which prevented me from standing nor walking any further. My eyes were on fire, the pain I was feeling was terrible so I decided to close it for a while lying on the floor.
An alarm I heard woke me up, I stretched on the soft bed comfortably, the blanket covering my body made me feel so warm and I smiled by the good sleep I had. I rose up and my head was still hurting a little, I rubbed my eyes with the back of my hand slowly as memories of yesterday rushed in my head. "I remember closing my eyes at the front of that small house and now I was, I was in Leo's room? " I shouted and jumped down from the bed, rushing hurriedly to the door. I looked at the clock, it was past five in the morning, a sigh of relief breathe through my lips " It isn't late to prepare for school" I said aloud, while I turned the door knob, it was locked. I turned back and saw Leo sleeping on one of the couch, I ran to ask him for the key but when I got there the key was luckily beside him. I stretched out my hand slowly to grab the key without waking him up. I succeeded in taking the key and was about to leave when Leo's suddenly grabbed my left hand and I tried to free myself from him immediately, but he pulled me closer to him, making me fall on his body. "This is another of his tricks to humiliate me, I wasn't going to allow him this time" I thought while looking at him in anger but his eyes were still closed so he didn't notice.
I tried to stand up again, but this time his right hand wrapped around my waist tightly, I froze at what Leo was doing. I continuously tried pulling out his hands, but they were too tight. "What is the meaning of all this Leo? This is another of your tricks to humiliate me so let go of me now that I am still asking nicely" I said to him, already getting angry and thought of biting him. Leo opened his eyes slowly and our eyes met, but this time I didn't remove my even for a second. " Your heard me, let me go. I need to prepare for school mister" I said to him, not knowing where the courage to react like this was coming from, but I loved every bit of it. Leo didn't say anything, neither did he let go, instead he just kept on looking at me. After much effort to free myself but failed, the only option left was to bite Leo. lowered my lip to bite him on his neck but he was quick to notice and turned my head away from his neck, making me to rest my head on his broad shoulder instead. Like it wasn't enough, he wrapped his left arm around my neck. "Now this is worst, what the hell do you want? " I asked him, but didn't get any reply. My both hands were free but It was still useless because his hand was still tightly on my waist and now on my neck too. "Let me go, I didn't sign up for all this shit. What's all this for?" Leo hadn't reply to any of my questions, for a moment I felt just staying there without resisting and just enjoy the slight cuddle but when I remembered yesterday event, I continued struggling to free myself. He unexpectedly let go of me and I rose up immediately to leave, heading to the door hurriedly when I heard him say "If anything happens to me today, come into my room and pick your diary. My guard would tell you where to find it, make sure you do so" I became scared at what I just heard, wondering what he meant by if anything happens to him, I should come and take my diary. "What is going to happen to him?" I thought. In as much as I wanted to go back and ask him questions, the pain dwelling in my heart restrained me from doing so. " Why do I care if anything happens to you? You have no idea on how much I hate you. Keep my diary I don't care" I said these unintended words to Leo and left his room. I heard him calling my name but I didn't answer. When I finally got to my room, the door was open this time around and I entered only to see someone sleeping on Renata's bed. I froze, thinking it was Renata. " Oh no, she has been released. I'm doomed once again" I cried in my thoughts while I began to prepare for school. I was just coming out from the bathroom and noticed that the person was already awake and was sitting on the bed. "Oh my, thank goodness" I whispered immediately the person turned to look at me, it wasn't Renata, it seemed like she was a new maid.