Chapter 18

Alaska POV

"Where the fuck is FINN?" I growl at Alpha.

"He is in the pack jail," Alpha says. His words are sharp. I look around and realize I growled at him in front of everyone. Every wolf that volunteered to protect me is now looking at me like I fucked up. I guess I did fuck up.

"I am sorry for my tone, Alpha. I am worried and scared. I want to know what Finn has to say and what happened to my parents, that is all," I say, humbling my tone and looking at the ground.

I can feel the mood change almost immediately. The wolves are loyal to Alpha Kai, as they should be, and I will have to watch my tone and my actions if I am to be with him as his Luna. I must remember that I cannot talk to the Alpha in certain ways.

Alpha Kai pulls me close to him, and he kisses my forehead. "I know, and I do not want Finn to upset you any more than you already are, but if you want to go with me to speak with him, then I will take you," Alpha Kai says.

I look around at the wolves. I feel like they are waiting on me to do something. "If it is okay with you, Alpha. I have some questions for Finn, but only if you approve," I say, again lowering my eyes and humbling myself. I was wrong, and I have to make it right. I cannot act out toward Alpha Kai, not even in my anger.

"Come with us, Alaska," Alpha Kai says. He takes my hand and leads me along the path to where the SUVs are parked.

"We could run," I say, smiling.

"I would prefer to keep you safe until we know exactly what we are dealing with," Alpha Kai says.

I nod my head in reluctant agreement. I enjoy my night runs, and I have a feeling that I will stop for a while. Shifting into my wolf and running through the woods, feeling the dirt in my paws, is the only enjoyment I have known for a long time, but my safety is important, and I do have Alpha Kai to keep my company now.

Henry opens the door to the black SUV. I get in, and then Alpha Kai gets inside the truck with me. Henry gets in on the other side. Jay Jay and Arnie get in the front of the truck. I feel sandwiched between them and weirdly safe. "Everything will be okay," Alpha Kai reminds me. I look up at him, and I know that he is trying to comfort me but from what I do not know. I have a feeling Finn will tell me some things that will hurt me.

"I know," I say. The truth is I do not know. Honestly, I am unsure if things will be okay for a while. The Larringer wolves want me, and they will not stop until they have me or they are dead. Why would Alpha Kai want me when I am so much trouble.

"Because we are mates," Alpha Kai answers me.

"I did not speak that out loud," I whisper. Alpha Kai leans over and kisses my cheek.

"If you quiet your mind, you can hear what I am thinking," Alpha Kai says. I am not sure I want to hear what he is thinking, and I am not sure I want him inside my head, either. The mate bond is weird.

"I am not sure I like that you can hear my thoughts," I say.

Alpha Kai smiles, and I feel normal for a moment. My mind begins to dive deeper, and my thoughts go to my life over the last few years. I have lived as a prisoner. Maybe I should not think of my times with Finn that way. Finn has always been kind to me. He expected me to act like his wife even though we had never married. Maybe he was as trapped as I was in this mess. Finn is not his father.

I look up at Alpha Kai and realize he knows I am thinking of Finn. I do not love Finn, and I never did, but we had our moments, and he was kind to me. "You should not keep him in jail. He is not his father," I say.

Beta Henry takes a deep breath and looks out the window. "I am not sure if you should be involved with Finn or what I do with him, Alaska," Alpha Kai growls. I have touched a nerve, so I back off.

I remain quiet and try not to think about anything as we ride. I look at the moon and the deer in the fields as we drive past them. Keep your mind blank; I keep telling myself. Alpha Kai reaches down and takes my hand. "It is okay, Alaska," Alpha Kai says.

I do not feel okay. I feel overwhelmed and don't know how to act or react. Just when I think I cannot lose my shit anymore, we pull into the pack jail, and Finn is on his knees waiting for Alpha. He is tied, bound, and gagged. Alpha plans to kill him, and for what? He did nothing wrong.

"Let me out of this fucking truck!" I demand.

I begin to try to crawl over Alpha and then over Henry. They will not let me out. "Alaska calm down," Alpha Kai says. The other wolves get out of the truck. Each of them stands at a door, so I cannot escape.

"Let me out; this is unfair. He did nothing wrong," I scream.

Alpha Kai grabs me and holds me in a bear hug close to him. I cannot move. "Listen to me. Finn came here to take you back to his father. The Larringer Alpha no longer wants Finn to breed with you. He wants you for himself. He wants you to repay the debt and then do whatever he wants to you. I will not let that happen," Alpha Kai says.

I pull away from Alpha Kai. I sit back in the seat. I wipe the tears from my puffy face. I have cried enough today. "Finn would never hurt me. He needs your help, Alpha," I say.

Alpha Kai breathes in deeply and then lets out a mighty growl. "Finn should die, but I will leave it up to you. What do you want me to do with Finn?" Alpha KAi asks me.

I raise my eyebrow and am in complete shock. I cannot believe Alpha is allowing me to decide Finn's fate. "He will not bother us. He has always been kind to me. Help me. I promise you he is not his father," Alaska says.

"Damn Alaska," Alpha Kai says. He gets out of the SUV and slams the door behind him.

"Do not let her out of the truck!" Alpha KAI growls. He goes straight to Finn. I am shaking as he gets closer to him. Alpha Kai looks back at me and then at Finn. Please do not kill him. I hope he can hear me.