Chapter 30

Alaska POV

I pace the floors and wait impatiently for Alpha Kai to return to me. Beta Bailey keeps trying to comfort me. I know he is fine, but I need to see him. I need to see it with my eyes. I can feel him and hear his voice, but it is not enough.

I hear a door slam. It must be the wolves back from the battle. I look at the window and see black SUVs and wolves running alongside the ones in the back. I see Paul and Henry opening the back door to one of the SUVs. That must be the door I heard slam shut.

"Alaska," Alpha Kai calls out to me. He rushes toward Paul and stops them from getting whatever or whoever is in the back of the SUV out. The two men obey Alpha Kai.

Alpha Kai rushes toward me as I run toward him. I wrap my arms around him. The tears begin to flow as I release the heartache, pain, and all the worry.

"It is over. The Larringer wolves are all dead," Alpha Kai says.

I take a deep breath. The first thought that goes to my head is Finn. Did Alpha Kai kill Finn too? Finn is a Larringer wolf, and he was there when Alpha Kai started slaughtering the wolves that wanted to kill me, but they wanted to kill him too. The entire pack turned on Finn.

"I was worried about you," I say as Alpha Kai holds me tightly.

My eyes are closed as I enjoy his embrace, not thinking about Finn for a moment. I can give this moment to Alpha Kai and ask him about Finn later. "FINN!" I scream out as I open my eyes and see him in the back of the black SUV. Finn's body is what Alpha Kai is hiding from me.

I try to run toward the truck, but Alpha Kai grabs me by the wrist. "Wait, let the pack doctor look him over first. He is bad, Alaska. I do not think he will make it, but I brought him back because I know he saved your life, and I owe him for that," Alpha Kai says.

I can see the pain on Alpha Kai's face. It is as if he is giving me permission to be there for Finn. I know he wants me with him and not with another man, but I owe him this. I owe Finn a proper goodbye, and I want to take care of him until he is no longer with this world.

"I need to be with him while he is healing or dying, whatever the case may be for him. I owe him that. It does not mean I love you any less or want to be with you any less, Alpha Kai. Please allow me to care for him," I say. I look down and back up at Alpha Kai. He gives me a half smile and pulls me close to him.

"I cannot deny you anything. Take care of him, be with him and do what you need to do," Alpha Kai says. I know this is painful for Kai.

Henry and Paul bring Finn into the pack house. The pack doctor is approaching as I enter the house. By the time I am in the room with Finn, the pack doctor is on my heels.

"This is not something a lady should see, dear Alaska," Doctor James says.

I sit down beside Finn. His eyes are closed. He has puncture wounds covering most of his body. I fight back the tears and reach for his hand. His hand is a bloody mess, and when I take his hand into mine, Finn opens his eyes and screams. The scream only lasts for a few seconds before his eyes close, and he is out again.

"His body is in shock. He has lost a lot of blood. I can give him something for pain, something to keep him sedated, start some IV fluids, and clean the wounds, but I cannot make any promises," Doctor James says.

I step away from Finn while Doctor James goes to work on him. A pack nurse eventually shows up to help him. She does not really talk to anyone except Doctor James and a quick hello to Alpha Kai. The little pack nurse, who finally introduces herself as Leeanna, cleans all of Finn's wounds and puts clean loose clothing on him. I cannot do anything except watch all of this and hope for the best. I do not want Finn to do. I want him to live and how the option for a family and love someday.

Alpha Kai steps behind me. He puts his arms around me. "Go take a break, and I will stay with him until you get back," Kai says. I nod my head no. I am not leaving until Doctor James has Finn completed sedated and comfortable, then, I will take a break.

"Alaska," Finn whispers. He does not open his eyes or move anything other than his lips. He says my name again and then goes quiet.

"He is not aware of anything right now. He has lost so much blood and trauma that he has no idea what planet he is on right now," Doctor James tells me. I think he is trying to comfort me, but it is a terrifying thought. I nod my head but remain quiet.

After forty minutes, everyone leaves the room. I remain with Finn. Alpha Kai goes to get me some water and then sits with me. He places his hand on my knee, but I cannot even look at him. "I feel like all the death is my fault," I finally say.

"It is not your fault; now get that out of your head. Alaska, all of this is no one's fault except those damn Larringer wolves, who are now dead. I know you want Finn to pull through, and I hope he does, but if he does not, I do not want you blaming yourself for any of this," Alpha Kai says.

I want to believe he is right, but I feel so guilty. What am I guilty of exactly? I fell in love with my mate, which was not in the plan for anyone, not me or Alpha Kai.

Alpha Kai leans over and kisses my cheek. " You need to eat. I will have one of the she-wolves cook something for you. I will give you space and time to say what you need to say to Finn," Alpha Kai says.

Alpha Kai kisses my forehead as he gets up and leaves the room. I can feel him watching me, and then he is gone. He is too good for me. Who would have thought the playboy Alpha could love me and make me feel this way?

I look to see Doctor James coming back into the room. "I need to take some blood, and then I will be out of your hair until the morning," he says.

I lean back in the chair. I feel dizzy and strange. Kai is right; I need to eat something. I look up at Doctor James. "Alaska, are you okay? You are as pale as a ghost," he says.

"I am fine," I say. I stand up and quickly go to the floor. Everything fades to black. I am so cold.