Chapter 36

Alaska POV

Beta Bailey is now in charge of my wedding and all the plans. After being checked out by Doctor James, everything with me and the baby is fine. I am healthy, and so is the baby. Beta Bailey and Alpha Kai did not want me to stress out over the wedding, so Beta Bailey took over wedding planning for me. Besides, she knows more about the pack traditions than I do.

Between the Luna ceremony, getting to know my duties within the pack, and finding out that I am having a baby, it has been a lot to take in, but I am managing with all of it. I honestly could not do it without Beta Bailey. She has become like a sister to me. She was honest with me about her past with my mate, and I know there is nothing between them now.

Finn is awake and moving around. Doctor James seems to think he will make a full recovery. I still worry that I am carrying his child. It weighs on my mind a lot. I am unsure how I feel about that or how Alpha Kai feels about it. Alpha Kai says no matter what, this is his child. In the end, I am afraid that Alpha Kai will reject me and leave me if this child is Finn's.

The door to the bedroom creaks open. I look up from the book I am reading to see Beta Bailey. She seems happier than usual. "What is it?" I ask her.

Beta Bailey bounces into the bedroom. "Well, I think I finally finalized all of the wedding plans and got every RSVP marked, so the last thing we need to do is buy a dress. We have two weeks before your wedding and no dress," Beta Bailey says.

She bites the bottom of her lip. There is something else that she is not telling me. She reaches for my hand. "What is it?" I ask her.

"It is Finn. You should go see him," Beta Bailey says.

Tears begin to stream down my face, and I feel as if my heart is shattering into a million pieces. "Will you take me to see him?" I ask her.

Beta Bailey shakes her head. "Yes, it would be my pleasure to take you," she says.

I put my book back on the side table and slip into my shoes. I take a quick look in the mirror before going out the bedroom door, following Beta Bailey. My face is puffy. Probably from crying. I cry a lot worrying these days. I should be happy planning my wedding, but I worry constantly. I worry about Alpha Kai, the baby, Finn, and my life as Luna. Some days I think I am making the wrong decision.

"We can go dress shopping after seeing Finn," Beta Bailey says. Obviously, whatever is going on with Finn is not too bad if she plans to take me shopping after we see him.

We pull into the pack hospital. I get out of the truck. "I will wait here," Beta Bailey says. I find this odd, but I smile as I close the truck door. I walk slowly toward the hospital. My mind and thoughts are all over the place, thinking about Finn, Alpha Kai, and the bay. I stop for a moment, remembering that Alpha Kai can hear my thoughts. Oddly, I can forget that. Alpha Kai knows I am stressed, and I am sure he knows why.

I go into the hospital and walk down to Finn's room. It seems like he has been here forever. I knock on the door and wait for a moment. There is chatter inside. It is Alpha Kai and Finn talking. I push the door open and stand in the doorway. I wonder what they are talking about, maybe the baby or me.

Alpha Kai walks over to me. He leans in and kisses my cheek, the scruff from his beard sends the sweetness tingle through my body, and I feel like everything will be okay between us. "I love you," Alpha Kai says.

"I love you too," I say. Alpha Kai leaves me alone with Finn. Now, I am terrified.

I walk over and sit down in the chair beside Finn's bed. "You look better," I say to Finn.

Finn moves around a little in the bed. "Have you talked to Doctor James about the baby?" Finn asks. I have a feeling he and Alpha Kai already know what I am so worried about, but I just sit here and smile. I feel like I am melting into the chair.

"No, I have not. I am afraid the baby is not Alpha Kai's, but you already know that I worry about this. I am afraid he will call off the wedding or cheat on me and use this as an excuse. I am afraid he will hate me," I say. I ramble on and on, crying and making a mess of my words and thoughts. I stop realizing that I am making zero sense.

"He loves you, Alaska. I know he loves you. Alpha Kai and I decided that the baby is his no matter what. I want that, and so does he. There will be no questions. I do not want that child to be in danger. The Larringer wolves may be dead, but someone would come looking for an heir to the Larringer pack. I do not want that for your baby," Finn says.

I reach out and take Finn's hand. "What about what you want? What if this is your child?" I ask him.

Finn shakes his head. "The baby is safer with you and Alpha Kai. No matter what, I never want to know the truth. Raise this baby and be happy. Alaska, I promise never to interfere with you and the baby. When I heal, I am leaving the pack and going north," Finn says.

I have known Finn for a long time and see the pain this is causing him. He has lost everything: his wife, family, pack, and now his child. Finn deserves happiness.

"Thank you Finn for everything. You saved my life, and now I want to help you," I say. My first thought is to help him find a pack in the north where he will be happy, and my second thought is to play matchmaker, but I decide I should stay out of his love life and only help him find a pack in the north for him.

"Alpha Kai is helping me find a pack in the north where I will be unknown. I thought about changing my name," Finn says.

I am happy Alpha Kai is helping him. I let go of Finn's hand and get up. "You should change your name and your story. You can start over and have a life. You are not your family. You deserve happiness, Finn," I say.

I start toward the door. "You deserve to be happy too. Let go of the mistake he made. I do not think you have to worry about him ever hurting you again. The pain he caused you is killing him," Finn says.

I open the door to see Alpha Kai standing in the hallway, waiting for me. I have not let him touch me since I come home from the hospital. I know I love him and want to be his wife, but every time he touches me, all I can think about is him fucking Kim. I have to let that go and forgive him.

I rush into his arms and bury my head in his chest. "I love you," I say. Alpha Kai wraps his arms around me, holding me tightly.

"Do you forgive me now?" Alpha Kai asks me. He pulls away from me and touches my chin, tilting my face up to him. The tears are streaming down my face, but I am not hurting. I am relieved, finally. I feel like I can let go of everything and just be his.

"I want you to take me home," I say to him.

"Okay," Alpha Kai says. He takes my hand and walks me out of the hospital to his truck. My heart feels whole and free. I can feel his love stronger than ever. This is what I want from life. I want him and only him.

Alpha Kai opens the truck door, and I hop inside. He goes around to the other side and gets into the truck. "I want you to take me home and fuck my brains out," I say.

Alpha Kai smiles. "I can do that," he says.

I lean my head over onto his shoulder. I run my hand over his chest. I want to touch him, feel him and let him feel all the love that I feel for him right now. "I knew you loved me, but I had no idea how much. I forgive everything and only want us to be happy," I say.

Alpha Kai pulls the truck over into a small field. "I do not want to wait until I get home. I want you now," Alpha Kai says.


Alpha Kai takes my mouth. His hand runs under my sundress and takes possession of my pussy. His hand cupping and holding my pussy. He grabs me and pulls me to him. It has been weeks since I allowed him to touch me. There is so much built up between us, and he is about to give me every inch of him.

Our moans and labored breathing feel the truck as his hand slides into my panties. His kiss is hard and passionate, as one hand penetrates me, and the other holds me in place for him to do with me as he wants. I am his and only his now.

I kiss his chin and then his neck. "I want to suck your cock," I say as I kiss down his chest. I reach his buckle and release his mighty beast. His cock springs from his pants hard and ready to be sucked.

"Be a good girl and suck," Alpha Kai says.

I take him into my throat. I turn my body so I can take him all the way into my throat. His fingers continue to penetrate my pussy, faster and harder, as I suck him deeper. I want him. I feel like my pussy is about to explode, wanting him inside me.

I never get the chance to ask. He opens the door to the truck and moves around to the passenger side. He pulls me to the passenger side and positions me, leaning over the side with my pussy ready to be fucked. He holds my hips as his cock penetrates me. I moan loudly as I take his cock inside me. It has been too long.

He fucks me hard, relentlessly. As if I have deprived him of my pussy, and now he is making up for every night I made him wait or stroke his cock. I do not care what he does to me or my pussy. I want him. I want all of him. I want to please him and I want him to please me.

His hand lands firmly on my ass, a good smack to remind me that I belong to him. "Fuck me, Alpha," I moan.

I grip the truck's seats as he pounds into me from behind. His hard breathing and hard strokes make my body shiver more and more. I begin to moan louder. I feel my pussy begin to pulsate against his hard cock as I start to cum. I moan and scream as I cum on his cock. He shoves his cock hard into me and cum with me. I lay flat on the truck seat and let him fill me with his hot juice.

I feel his lips kiss up my back. He reaches my ear. "I love you, Alaska," Alpha Kai says.