Chapter 69

Mihai made me see a doctor the second we got back to the mansion, but as i had told him numerous times, i had already healed and there was no need to worry. He didn’t buy it though, just because my body has healed doesn’t mean my mind has followed, and he is right about that.
I just had to kill my brother, like of course i am not fucking ok. I mean, who the hell does that? I stabbed him.
I know that i technically had no choice but to do it, but that doesn’t make the guilt weigh any lighter. What i have done is pressing down on my chest so hard that i can barely breathe, let alone function.
Luthor is demanding to see me, but i refused. I don’t want to see him, or Dren, or anyone else. I just want to be left alone for a while.
At least until i stop crying like a baby.
I growl when the bedroom door opens, throwing a lamp at whoever is about to enter, but to my surprise it is Mihai, and not another maid trying to get me out of the room. Honestly, they are more hassle than they are worth.
“What?” i sigh, curling back up on the couch as he stares at me.
He walks forward and chooses the seat opposite me, his voice soft, “You need to get out of this room Mae, it’s been three days.” he says. “You can’t hide in here forever, you need blood.”
“I don’t want it.” I say, crossing my arms.
Yeah, i am acting like a child, but i don’t care. I do not want to leave this room. I don’t want anyone to see me like this.
I don’t want them to know how broken i feel inside.
“Look, i imagine that what you did was hard, but-”
“Don’t.” I growl, “Don’t tell me that you understand, because you don’t. No one does.”
He sighs, rubbing the back of his neck, “Maybe you are right, maybe i don’t understand. But you can’ hide away forever, love.” He says rather coldly, “It won’t change what happened.”
“I know that.” I snap, trying to calm my rising anxiety. “But i can’t face anyone right now.”
“Then don’t.” He says, “I’ll keep everyone away from you, but you have to promise to eat something and drink some blood. You are making yourself weak, and if they attack again, you’ll die.”
Maybe that is what i deserve, i don’t say it out loud though. I don’t need to; Mihai can read me like a book.
Eventually, i nod my head, “I’ll eat, if you give me two more days to process my feelings.”
Mihai bobs his head, and then smiles, “See, now we are getting somewhere.”
I throw a small square pillow at his head, “Don’t get cocky.” I joke.
His eyes darken three shades of black, and i gasp when i see the lust behind them, and whilst my mind is broken, i can’t bring myself to refuse. I want it. I want it so bad my entire body burns with need.
Mihai rips me from the sofa and throws me over his shoulder, taking us both into the bathroom as he slaps my ass.
He tears the clothes from my body as i giggle with nervous excitement, my heart beating against my chest as though it could break through at any moment.
I stand there, naked, and he stares at me like i am the most perfect thing he has ever seen in all his years on earth.
I love it. I love the way that he devours me with his eyes. It makes me feel special. Loved.
Mihai turns on the shower, steam filling the room as he slowly takes off his own clothes, giving me the best view of his growing cock, and it is magnificent. As always.
His sock throbs and tenses when i wrap my hand around it, slowly stroking up and down the length. He groans, throwing his head back in bliss and i slowly get own onto my knees, gliding my tongue over the sensitive tip.
A small amount of precum drips onto my tongue and i shudder at the taste, it’s salty, but it is also sweet. I smile up at Mihai as he looks down at me, and then slowly, he lowers my head, hinting that i should take his cock in my mouth, and that is exactly what i do.
I push his dick as far down my throat as i can, gagging when i go a little too far, but Mihai doesn’t seem to mind, he massages my jaw to make it easier for me and he hums in pleasure. So, i must be doing something right.
I don’t have much experience, but my Nati never seems to mind, in fact, i think he likes that he gets to teach me.
I pull back and his dick pops out of my mouth, a smile on my lips as he helps me to stand and walks me into the shower.
“It’s my turn.” He says with a smirk.
I smile again, but my insides clench in apprehension, i know exactly what he can do with that tongue of his, and I'm not sure my body can handle it without becoming a puddle on the floor.
We haven’t done it in so long i have almost forgotten what it feels like to be cared for in this way, almost.
Mihai gets down onto his knees in front of me and spreads my legs, lifting one of them onto his shoulder as he inhales sharply, “You smell delicious, should i have a taste?” he says softly.
I quickly nod my head, my hands wrapping around the long ends of his hair as he lowers his head, flicking his tongue over my clitoris. I growl in pleasure, pushing his head further down.
I want to feel him, i want to feel everything. Anything other than the aching in my chest.
He flicks his tongue again, and then he sucks and licks in a pattern that sends my mind spiralling towards space, my body becoming more and more sensitive to him with each movement of his mouth.
He moans against my clit, his beard slightly tickling as i groan and scream out my frustration, i need to cum, i need it right now.
“Make me orgasm.” i demand, tightening my hands in his hair.
Mihai laughs, but then he does exactly what i demanded of him, he makes me orgasm so hard that the world spins a little faster and my body feels a little lighter.
I collapse to the floor, right into Mihai’s arms, and he cradles me against him, gently rocking me from side to side.
“He was my brother, Mihai.” I whisper as i close my eyes, “And i loved him, even if he didn’t love me in the end.”
He rocks me again, washing my body as i lay against him with my eyes closed, and sooner than i think, though i am not exactly sure when, i fall asleep in his arms.
It is where i feel most safe.
But i still welcome the silence of sleep, and the darkness that comes with it.