Have You Heard about the Party?

Fahmeen's POV:

I try to ignore the pacing he's doing and I sit on the bed, grabbing one of the pillows.
"What's up?"
Rolf sighs and I can see sudden stress in his face. I feel so bad. Did I do this? Why is he feeling so stressed?
I stand and go up to him, wanting to touch him in some sort of way. As I stroke his arm, he looks at me as if he just realised I was there and stops pacing.
"What's wrong baby?" My hands grow firmer, holding onto him. His arm is tense. Green eyes find me and hold me to my place. There's a funny feeling in my stomach, both nervous like he always makes me feel but sickly too.

"I've been thinking about something but I don't know if I should be at all. You need to let me know it's nothing to worry about."
My stomach clenches, some guilt surfacing along with the growing sickness. Rolf now holds me by the arms and my hands drop to the side. I cannot keep looking into his eyes any longer so I stare at his chest instead. I feel guilty and that tells me I'm doing something wrong. He's right.
"I... is this about River?"
"It is."
"Am I doing something wrong?"
This time I look up at him. He seems surprised at my words, Rolf doesn't know what to say for a few seconds and just stares at me. He blinks a few times and then hugs me tight.

I feel confused and vulnerable. And this feeling in my stomach is reaching its peak.
"I'm probably overthinking it. I'm sorry." He whispers. I close my eyes at the soft strokes he does on my back. My mind begins to throw these past few weeks back at me. My father, the incident at the party, River and possibly a pregnancy.
"I wish we could be at our cave right now."
He softly chuckles but it's short.

...

"I came by River's today. You were there with him."
I remember Sandra not letting someone through, was that Rolf?
"Sandra stopped you." My stomach jolts and I have to cover my mouth as I heave. Rolf was confused at my words for a few seconds before his eyes widen in panic. I hope my expression tells him it's nothing serious and I walk over to the bathroom. He follows me and makes sure I find the toilet in time.

"What the hell?" He holds my hair back and rubs my back as my stomach empties itself, my body sweating and slightly trembling.
"I'm sorry I-
He shushes me and continues to help as I'm unable to talk for much longer.
I think this may have confirmed the pregnancy?

...

Fahmeen's POV:

After assuring him it's nothing to worry about, we finally get to sleep. It was a while later, like I said after reassuring him. I wasn't ready to reveal anything. Pregnancy or not I had to think whether we were in the right space or time? Do I wait till it's safer? Would that make him less stressed? Either way it's difficult but keeping it to myself around Rolf seemed like the better idea for now.

...

I wake up to the sound of typing. Rolf is sitting up, still half naked on his laptop. He does look delectable with a man bun and his glasses.
"Morning."
"Oh morning. Did I wake you? I'm sorry."
"No, it's fine. My body decided it was time." I chuckle, and his frown turns into a smile. Now that's what I call a perfect morning.

"You look busy. Sound it too."
He suddenly looks a little nervous, randomly scrolling and typing.
"Yeah, er work emails. Got a lot of catching up to do." He gives me a smile that doesn't quite reach his cheeks but I don't think to look further into it.
"Sounds about right. It's been what- two weeks since we've been here? That's practically a month away from school."

Rolf sighs and closes his laptop.
"The thought of going back there doesn't please me anymore." He pulls the sheets away from my body, revealing my legs. I'm only in a t shirt as last night got warm. His fingers stroke my thigh, the inner thigh.
"What, to teaching or to England?" I laugh, covering his wandering hand with mine. He just holds onto it and continues his exploration. I see his body snaking closer.

Once it's quiet again I look at him and he's watching me. He didn't laugh.
"That was a joke?"

"No?"
"Not funny?"
Those green eyes are dangerous. What is he thinking right now?

"I wanna fuck you."

My eyes widen.
"Wow okay. Um I have yet to brush my teeth so hold that thought and don't think I missed the way you changed the subject! I'll be back."
Before he could grab onto my legs I make my way to the bathroom.

Coming back to the bed I find it empty and made up. The curtains are drawn and he is not there. I pout, disappointed and fiddle with the tie of my bathrobe. My hair was still wet after my shower and I figured it was time to get dressed and see what the plan was for today.

...

"A party."
Angie tells me. Rolf makes coffee and reads the newspaper. I feel like he's avoiding my eyes. I bet its to do with our unfinished conversation.
Looking back at Angie, I ask:
"What party?"
"Just someone I know. Everyone's going. It's pretty big."
"Okay." I brush away the memory of Alex and the last party. Rolf puts down his paper then and his eyes turn to ones of concern.
I smile at him, hoping he'd brush it off as I'm trying to but he stands and walks to me. Fat chance.

Suddenly I'm tearing up seeing him opening his arms for me to come into him.
"It's okay baby. Come here." I hold onto his t shirt and he rocks me gently. Angie mouths I'm sorry but I reassure her and gesture to my belly. Hormones. She doesn't quite believe me and she leaves us alone anyways.
"We don't have to go."
"No no. I don't want to let him spoil anything." I feel adamant not to let that one night ruin anything for me in the future.
"We're going."
"You're sure?"
"You'll be there if I'm not." I sigh. He kisses my forehead.
"Damn straight."

"Oh hey River."
I stand up from picking tomatoes off of the vines in the garden and watch as he enters the gates. Rolf is helping me, holding the basket and he straightens up.
As River approaches us, we have eye contact at first but I shut it down and take the basket from Rolf.
"Hey guys. Have you heard about the party?"
He asks us. Damn this must be some party. Both the guys start a conversation and I try to get busy. Rolf stops midway as I go to walk off and grabs me before kissing me hard. Any thoughts I have disappear as his tongue is doing wonders. I even feel his bulge protruding to against my stomach. The only thing that stops me from moaning is suddenly remembering River.
Oh shit.

I pull away and catch my breath, avoiding River's eyes on me. Rolf is not out of breath, in fact he smiles at me and continues where he left of with River. I on the other hand am incredibly turned on and breathless, so I pick up my basket and head inside.
"Baby, could you grab us some drinks?"
I look back at the two of them and they're just staring at me. Rolf looks hungry, I'm thinking it's not for the drinks as he's been focusing on my tits under this sundress. And the other thing is, that's exactly how River is looking at me right now.
Grabbing two chilled bottles of beer from the fridge, I'm grateful for the coolness against my skin as I'm still blushing. My body is all tingly and warm and I walk back out to the guys. They're laughing about something and when I'm near, they turn to face me. I'm aware my steps make my boobs move a bit and I'm also aware of their gazes. Damn sundress. Damn heat. Damn kiss.

I try my best to appear unaffected and they're sitting on a bench.
"Appreciate this, Fahmeen. I really do." River tells me, taking a bottle. He takes a swig but keeps his eyes on me.
My eyes go to Rolf and his go from my chest, back to my face and he winks. I look down at his almost apparent bulge and smirk, taking the upper hand. He seems a bit taken aback and then he gulps a large amount, almost like a nod to me and I, victorious turn away from the both of them.