Motives from New ashes

Its been two days since my wake and I was getting better after my short vent, the shere look of this house reminds me of her and though it saddened me I had to stand strong, I had to remain the man she left me to be in the house. Evander started going to school again and I wasn’t really feeling better so I decided to still extend my stay home, he shared with me notes and knowledge of the classes and I had to document them for my own good but mostly because he kept giving me a headache over it.
Ever since the day I woke up and the nurse came to treat me, She has been coming around every day for the past 3 days, In two days time was the party I was invited to, in two days time was the time I plan to get revenge for everything that has happened.
Don Luciano, was not just the name of my father anymore by the name of the one who killed my mother, the one who destroyed everything in which I held close to myself because of his selfishness, he was my adversary.

Evander talked to me yesterday, he saw my behavioral patterns and decided to ask me some questions.
“So, how are you feeling” He said, it was late in the evening.
“I don’t really understand the state of your question.” I said back to him playing my Nintendo which was once played by my mother.
“Though you’ve woken up and you showed signs of returning back to your normal habits, you have really not smiled, though you show expressions, you have not showed any complicated expression than this bland expression, I mean I can tell that it is filled with hate and sometimes confusion but I don’t know what to actually say.” He said, looking at the table while talking because he could not face me.
“So I don’t get, you want me to smile or something?” I said to him, out of confusion.
“I mean, no but, I mean look, you didn't even show any expression by even saying, ‘I don’t get you expect me to smile?’ You showed nothing at all.” He said as he tried to explain, actually looking at me now.
“Look, I know shit has happened for the past few weeks, I know that it has been hard, I have seen you break down and it really was not the best for me to see but all I can see is, I guess you’ll be OK at the end, that is what I want to let you know.” He said to me.
“Well OK, things will be better, I guess that’s a good thing, any who I’m going to the party, the one my dad invited me to” I said to him.
“Bro, let's leave the party, I mean I know you want to get revenge but you don’t have gangs, you don't have any plan or anything, you might get yourself killed or something so even though you’ll choose to be stupid, I will….” He was saying when I cut him off.
“I will go even though you don’t give support of it, I don’t care what your opinion is, I will kill Don Luciano and everybody will watch me do it, if I die at the end, it’s all right to me as long as he dies too.” I said to him.

“You did not let me finish. Hold on do you think I’m not angry? Do you think I don’t hate what happened? Bro I have a mother that is not really my mother, she raised me all my life but she hates me with every vein she has in her body, every heart beat, but your mom, she treated me like a son, she fed me till eventually she invited me to start living with you and you think I don’t want to do something?” He said as his voice carried all the anger that brewed in him.
“I understand.” I said as my face hardened even more because of his slight change of tone, I hate anyone shouting on me but I got where he came from.
“I was going to say, I’ll be coming with you, I was going to say I will be there and be your backup in case things go sideways.” He said…
I have had no emotions for days but the words he said, torched my heart even though it was for moment before the emotion went blank again.
“You really have, always stood by me, do I have a brother from that man you are my brother from the universe.” I said letting out a slight smile.
“Ohh yeah, so umm, what's with you and the nurse?” He said Looking back to me after sitting on the couch for a while.

“hmm,hmm.” I said letting out a smirk.
“ohhhhh, I see, so something is up huh.” He said as he smiled broadly.
“I don’t know what you are talking about, she just comes to treat me and all.” I said to him.
“okay, okay.” He jest fully said nodding his head and facing forward.
“I don’t really care about her, if she gets in an entanglement with me, she will be in danger.” I said to him as my smirk disappeared.
“Well that’s for sure” he said as his smile reduced.
“At least tell her what’s up and tell her to stay away but if she doesn’t listen then, her fault.” He said tucking his head in and raising his shoulder up to show it doesn’t concern him.
“alright.” I said to him.

The next day was upon us and after washing the dishes, I sat down and started playing Nintendo again.
Then.
“knock, knock.” Me thinking it was Evander, I sprung up to open the door without accessing the time to know exactly if he was the one.
“Oh Hello.”
Sigh, its her again….

“Uhhh, you know I’m alright now right?” I told the nurse and she said.
“yeah but I still wanted to come check up on you I was passing by so I decided to.” She said as I guarded the door I opened half way leaning to the side.
“alright.” I said letting her in, it was 12:02, I should have checked the time before going to open the door.
Though I was not so happy to see her, I couldn’t help but notice she just got her hair done.
“So, have you eaten?” she asked me.
“Yeah, I had something earlier.” I said going back to my chair to play Nintendo.
“oh okay.” She said, whilst walking up to me to do a check up.
“I said I’m fine.” Yeah, yeah, just let me check your pulse.
She said to me buy she ended up checking everything down to my teeth.
“okay, now you are done, should I help you out.” I said getting kinda annoyed because of the unnecessary checkup.
“Wow, you really don’t like me around.” She said as her face mellowed down a little.

“It’s not like I hate you or anything, the check up especially this one was kind of annoying.” I said to her and the paid attention back to my game.
“oh, its alright ill stop them…..next week.” She said moving side to side, with a slight smile as she slightly raised her eyebrows as she looked at me.
“hmmm" I silently chuckled.
“okay for real.” I said dropping my controller and standing up, why are you always here?
“Uhhhh, well for the checku…” she was going to say when I cut her short.
“That’s bullshit and you and I know, you and I know that that is rubbish, what is your agenda,? you have one, I feel it.” I said to her walking to her chair but as I got closer she got up and walked closer to the wall facing my chair In front and hers at the side.
“Oh, what you are scared?” I said walking towards her slowly as my face carried no detailed expression but my voice carried a tone if authority.
“you are scaring me.” She said to me as she got to the wall, the wall the TV was mounted.

Her back already resting on it. I got closer and closer and then I cornered her at the wall, my hand on the wall by her side, my right hand higher than the left, there was no escape.
I honestly thought I was doing this to scare her but then I soon realized that wasn’t the case at all.

“I always come here for you.” She said as her face tensed up differently.
“I always have wanted to….” She was saying as her voice lowerd down until I couldn’t hear a thing.
“You’ve always wanted to?” I said bringing my head closer to her to hear her murmur but then.

“…..” she moved swifly, bringing her head forward joining her lips with mine in an instant.
“Hhhhhh" I breathed out as I moved back in shock, my eyes brows came together as I squinted my eyes in more suspicion.
“what was that, I said to her." As she looked at me with a smile. I know I was shocked but I am not angry. My heart racing, my head spinning, my whole temperature was rising.
“I came here for you, to have you, I want you, I saw you at the hospital, I have always seen you, I have always watched you.” She said walking forward with a smirk as her eyes rested.
“Huh?" I asked as I moved back not seeing where I was going.
“sabastian, I love you, I swear I do.” She said as she but her lips at the end and held her left breast.
“What are….” I was saying when I hit the side of the chair falling down backwards.
“shit.” I said now realizing that me on the couch gives her more leverage to catch me but I was too late.
She took advantage of the moment and immediate softly jumped on me.
“wait, what are you.” I was saying trying to shake her off but then she once again kissed me and this time it lasted for some time.
I was feeling hot, my heart was beating overtime, I know what this was but this was my first time and most of all my Dick violently arose.