I was.

“What are you saying?” I said as my eyes opened in surprise.
She looked different, she looked like she had a hidden agenda.
“I have you that’s all I am saying, are you not happy that you have me? Sabastian, I love you, I have always loved you, I know you do too, after all we had a kind of connection on that day, that day when you touched me and held me, that day when you made me yours.” She said as she drove her hand around her body.
“What happened that day was a fluke, a freaking fluke, I…..Fuck is that why you, you know what I am leaving, I don’t have time for all this.” I said I untucked myself and lifted up the sheets.
Then I saw my leg. That was supposed to be my worry from the beginning but I had ignored it because of the gravity of everything.
I was still bandaged and healing but I still needed to leave this place.
So then I tried to move my leg when I noticed I couldn’t.

“why? Cant i?” I was saying when I noticed the straps on my leg, they were at my ankles and they were connected to the frame of the bed.
In the heat of the confusion she stood up and before I could react or even look at her she Stabbed me with a syringe.
I hastingly reached for my back trying to locate it but she was already done with what she needed to do and when I got there to remove the injection, it was already used.
“What did you?” I was asking when I noticed her smile, she smiled widely but this was not a normal smile, she smiled like a maniac. From her face you can tell that she has done something, it was obvious that she had done something but what?

“What the fuck, what did you do?” I raised my voice at her asking.
“I just, I did nothing, I did nothing, I just want you to be relaxed, I need you to be here, don’t move. I want you to be okay so please stay.” She was saying as she started to drag her hair downwards.
What the fuck is she? What is she saying?
“What are you saying” I replied her with my face stunned in shock of whom I am even looking at.
“Ferrara? What did you do.” I asked her as she shrugged and looked side to side,.

Then slowly I started feeling weak, I started to feel like I was floating.
“Please just answer me, what? What did you do?” I asked as I began to get worried mor than angry.
“Just don’t worry I will take care of you, I promise, please, just sleep first.” She said, as she wore a face that I can only describe as Psychotic, she smiled with her eyes fixated on me.
“Oh God.” I said as I became weaker and weaker? My fear grew but my body began to show little signs of response.
“Why did you do this to me?” I asked her as my eyes slowly closed up.
I was back again, I was afraid because once more, I have slipped into the dark.

I can’t even remember the last time I ate, sigh, what the fuck is all of this, my life is a mess, just when I thought I was already getting better, just when I thought I had built something worth protecting then this happens.
It felt like I was in a space where I just existed, I was floating and there was nothing I could do, I couldn’t even move my body.
(sigh.) I guess this is me now, from being valued in my society to becoming the son of a mafia boss, and now I am a toy for a psychotic Woman. What the fuck is this bullshit?

In this space, I couldn’t tell time or anything, all I was in contact with was myself and that was all I had until.
“I hope you wake up today.” I began to hear what was happening outside.
“The doctor said you can wake up anytime, sigh, I hope its just today.” I heard again.
This was my opportunity; this is my opportunity. I have been waiting to at least hear, now I know that I can force myself up.
Alright then here we go, I began to force myself to wake up, I wanted to move again so I focused and then I started to feel the sensation. I was able to feel my hand so like before I focused on my fingers and then it moved. The sensation grew and then I began to move parts of my body, even though it was just flickers.

Then my eyes finally opened.
Finally, finally, I looked to the left and then to the right, I noticed the room I was in had changed.
“did I get moved to a new room or did….” I asked when it came to me, maybe I have been asleep for so long time had past and then the room changed.
I began to notice little things and one was that the room was bigger and then the bed was different. This was a big bed, so big it was able to fit, three people in total, it was a round bed at that plus the frames are circular now and also bigger.
As I sat up I noticed another thing, there were wallpapers around the room in colors of red and peach, it made the room appear darker.
I tried to untuck myself and then I noticed that I was strapped.
“Fucckkk” I said out as I saw it.

What kind of strap is this again? It was connected to the frame of the bed and when I moved it moved in the frame, it was mounted inside the frame of the bed.
It was a black leather strap with a thick elastic rope that was inside the frame, I tried to go closer to examine it but then as I got closer the strap widened, forcefully stretching my arms apart and my legs apart.
“What the fuck, what is this?” I said out as I was on the bed with both my hands and leg stretched out like I was about to be crucified on an x cross.
“Chukum.” Someone was coming in.

So, I looked to the door and then I saw her again.
As she entered the room, she locked the door and then she noticed me.
“Oh, Oh, God, you are awake.” She said as her eyes opened in surprise.
“Oh, oh, uh, sorry.” She said when she brought out her phone and then controlled the strap from there. The strap came back together and now I was able to move. I looked at her and then I said.
“What is the meaning of this?” I asked after being stretched by a machine this psycho has set up.
“Oh well, i brought food, finally I won’t be eating alone today.” She said, completely ignoring my question.
The way this strap was set was convenient for the one in control, it could tighten and restrict your movement while it can also free you up so much you won’t feel like you were held up here, you could stand up but cannot move beyond the bed.
“Why are you ignoring me again, tell me what this is?” I said again as I looked at her as she walked to drop the food.
(Sigh.)
“I brought steak and burgers with coleslaw, and potato so what will you like.” She said ignoring my question again.
“Fucking answer me!!!” I raised my voice
“You shouldn’t really shout when you just woke up after a month.” She said unable to look me in the eyes.
“Are you fucking serious right now, a month, a month, what the heck is your problem, you did this.” I said raising my voice at her as the realization came upon me.
I have been battling life and death because of one uncontrollable bitch, what the actual fuck is this.
“…..” she didn’t answer me.
“For fucks sake, I have been drifting back and forth between unconsciousness and consciousness all because of you, you, you fucking did this and now you made this cage for me.” I shouted at her as she continued to look down.
“What the fuck am I your servant, you are treating me like a servant? What did I do to you to….” I was saying when I noticed, it’s been 4 months before u walked, it’s been 4 months since I had been outside, it’s been 4 months which means….

“My Birthday...” I said looking at her as tears filled my eyes.
“I missed my Birthday all because of you.” I said as I looked at her.
“I’m, I’m so sorry, I, I swear I didn’t mean…..” she was saying when I shouted.
“Shut up!!!!! Just shut the fuck up!! You did all of these things for your gain, you are a monster, you are a freaking demon. I hate you, I fucking hate you.” I said to her as she started to cry.
“I swear I didn’t know, I swear…..I was…..what have I done….I am sorry….I am please just forgive me.” She was saying as she fell to the ground crying.
“Just stop it.” I said to her.
“please, forgive me..” she said as she began to drag her hair, cutting her hair.
“Just stop already.” I shouted at her then she stopped moving.
“ I am sorry I swear I didn’t mean to, I just need you I swear, I am just a mess, I am.” She said in a calm voice as she kept on sniveling in-between.
“Just let me go please, I swear I won’t say anything. I won’t tell anyone I promise….” I said to her to convince her.
“I am sorry, I can’t do that, I just can’t let you go, I know you will run away from me, please don’t I love you, I can’t stand to lose you, I will ……I will die, so please stay, just stay with me please.” She said as she cried seriously. So serious she started to shake.
“Just leave me alone, please, I just want to be alone.” I said to her and then she left the room, leaving the food close to me.
“FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!” I shouted the minute she left the room, It was the realization that I fucked up.