Ferrara Trouble

Every man has what he or she regrets, for me I regret ever meeting up with my dad, I regret signing a deal with him in the car and so many other subtle things in which I probably can’t remember.
I have built a new comfortable family over here and that has given me hope, I hope that I can actually amount to something, so it’s about time for me to go home.

I have missed my brother and I wish to reunite with him, I wish to be there for him because I know right now, He will probably not be in the right place upstairs, he will be so worried.

“I’m very sure for the past few days you guys have noticed a change in my character and you have seen that I have shown a lack of interest to some things in which we have disciplined ourselves to do, the truth be told I do miss my home. I miss my brother and I wish to go and see him; it may take me a few weeks for me to come back here but I’m not leaving without him and I know he would follow me so I’ll be going but I promise to return.” I said as I shared my truth to the crew.

“Ohh that’s alright, I guess we are coming along then.” Mamba said.
“Yeah, yeah, Yup, uhhhun..” They all replied back agreeing.

I smiled and indeed I wasn’t wrong when I called them my family so since we planned to move three days from now, I decided to tell this to ferrera the next day.
Ferrara has friends so she does not really need to follow or accompany us, she could stay at her friend’s place for some time then later resume here because that’s what they also do too.

So, the next day I went to tell her I’ll be traveling and not just me but everyone else with me.
“Knock..knock.” I knocked at her door.

It was the weekdays so Ferrari would be moving to walk earlier and plus it’s just the second day of the week so she would still be busy from Monday so I approached her room and knocked
“Who the fuck is that?” she asked as I had heavy footsteps.
“Yeah, who the fuck is…oh Hello”
She said as her voice switched from prideful only to sweet and caring.
“Yeah, yo" I replied as her face shifted from disgust to calm and shy.
“Ohh, I’m sorry for how I replied you from the inside I thought it was someone else, no one comes upstairs but for you I guess I’ll make an exception so come in.”she said walking inside.
“Well look I’m about to tell you something little so…” I said and then stood by the door frame.
“Yeah even though I insist you come in..” she said already sat on her bed.

Because of how nice she was I decided to come in and then I shut the door behind me.
“I was going to tell you that I will be traveling to where I came from tin the next 2 days so, yeah that all I was going to say.” I said to her.
“Ohhhh.” She said as her face suddenly switched from happy and calm to sad and lets just say a little angry.
“So you just want me to be alone here, with those new guys I don’t really know.” She said as she wore puppy eyes and a sad face.

At first I was confused but then I understood what she meant and then I said to her.
“Oh well you wont need to be with those guys because they will be coming with me so yeah.. you will have your privacy.” I replied her and then she said.
“Oh I see, an expedition of some sort and in am not invited huh.” She said as she nodded and let out a fake smile.
“Oh no, its not like that, i mean you have work and so on so we assume that you wont be able to come along because of that so….” I was saying trying to back myself up when she then said.
“Nahh, that’s bullshit, you should have asked me first and then i would have given you a reply, if I could come along or not but you all assumed that I will not be available so its alright.” She said as she nodded and rolled her eyes.

“No its not like that.” I said to her when she raised her voice.
“Its like that, you think I don’t know how much you guess hate me, its actually very obvious so don’t even try to defend anyone.” She said, raising her voice at me but I wasn’t having it, no one shouts at me for no fucking reason.
“ you see, this is exactly why we don’t say shit to you because you are always so quick to anger like for fuck sakes no one knows why but we just have agreed its probably because you don’t like us, cause you never like this with your friends.” I said to her as my voice switched from calm to authoritative.
“You know what…” I was about to continue when she said.

“I am sorry, Its not like that, I actually…..Fuck, Fuck, I am so fucking stupid.” She said as she started blaming herself and then she started to hit her head.

At this point I wasn’t able to say much, I was more shocked when I saw tears emerge from her eyes, it made me feel bad so I walked closer to comfort her and all...
“its okay, don’t blame yourself for anything, I guess you just thought of it that way.” I said as I walked to her and patted her head.
“I’m sorry.” She said as she cleaned her eyes with her palm.
“Its okay.” I said as continued to pat her head.

I was more confused than sorry because I haven’t see her like this before, this was new to me so I was subconsciously doing all I was not really knowing what exactly to say.