Chater 43: Egan confesses

Tick ​​time elapsed. Eyes still looking at eyes, heart still beating in harmony. In the quiet space, suddenly an outburst of Vera's behavior turned the peace upside down. Remembering that night, that fateful and unforgettable night, suddenly Vera could not contain her regret, so tears fell.
The corners of Vera's eyes quickly filled with a lot of water. Egan was confused and asked:
"Vera!" Just one call in Egan's pitiful voice was enough to make the tears overflow. Although the words were simple, they had a great impact on Vera's heart.
Without saying a word in response, Vera left everything, letting emotions take over as she sobbed like a baby. Feeling at this moment Vera is very fragile, fragile, just a light touch she will break.
From confusion, Egan turned to bewilderment, confusion now even more panic.
"How are you?" Egan asked worriedly. He couldn't bear to see Vera put on a hurt face again: "Why are you crying? Tell me, did I make you cry?"
Vera shook her head to deny Egan's prediction.
"Then why?" Egan asked, confused: "Don't make me worry, say anything, I will listen."
"I thought I was going to die." Vera choked, in tears, she lamented: "But in the end, I still have to live."
What? Is that why Vera cried? It's really unacceptable. Egan raised an annoyed eyebrow at Vera's unspeakable words. How could she say that? Did Vera know she was looking down on her life, condemning it, even throwing it away as a great mortal sin?
Oh poor Vera, what terrible thing could have caused her to have such a wrong, heart-wrenching thought? Egan believes that he will soon find out and solve it completely so that Vera can no longer return to the girl she used to be. There will be no more gloomy, hurt Vera. Egan will turn Vera into a strong, optimistic, loving life. It's not true that Egan wants to be Vera's vocabulary. He will accompany Vera, bringing her happy experiences. The wonderful things that Vera did not receive before, Egan will bring to Vera. Egan is even willing to dedicate her life so that Vera is no longer the Vera of yesterday. Egan believes his love is great enough to make all his desires come true. As long as Vera doesn't refuse, Egan can definitely do it.
"Vera, listen to me..." Egan wanted to explain to Vera that she was wrong, she shouldn't have strayed like that. Egan is trying to be Vera's guide. Egan is always ready to take on that noble task, Not only now but also in the future. It could be forever if he gets the grace of the above. However, Egan's words failed to attract Vera's attention. That's why Vera interrupted while Egan spoke.
"You said to see." Vera continued her ramblings, which made absolutely no sense, which even displeased Egan: "Why won't God accept my pleas. I have time and again wished that I had. to die. Why does he like to torment me like that? Does he like to laugh at my pain?"
Egan is frustrated, he can't listen to Vera's chatter anymore, he has to intervene before Vera goes too far. She's being too pessimistic and Egan doesn't like Vera that way.
"Of course, you have to live. Live Not for anyone else but for yourself. My fate isn't over yet so I can't stop. So stop talking nonsense."
Egan scolded loudly, causing Vera who was crying to stop suddenly. She used her blurry eyes to stare at Egan.
"You should feel happy about that." Egan adjusted his breathing, lowered his voice, tried to convince Vera, to let her think about the positive: "You still have a future ahead of you, why think about pessimism?"
"Why scold me?" Vera retorted: "I want to die. Who are you? Is there any right to stop me? No one is allowed to meddle in my affairs."
Vera said that and Egan felt sad. Right, he's nobody, he shouldn't have the right to interfere in Vera's life and decisions. However, that was before when the two did not know each other, Egan would probably ignore Vera and even satisfy her if Vera really wanted to end her pathetic life. But now it's different, since knowing Vera, Egan has promised himself that he won't let Vera suffer unnecessary hurt anymore. Egan gives himself the responsibility to protect and protect Vera.
"I'm right." After thinking for a minute, Egan spoke up: "I have no right, and no one has any right to interfere in your decision. But Vera, that was a thing of the past. And now, I don't allow it. I do not allow you to act or think about foolish things. I do not allow you to think about death, or intend to take your own life. I also do not encourage you to think about negative, pessimistic things. I want you to live a happy, optimistic life."
"What? Who do you think you are?" Vera stubbornly didn't want to hear Egan say any more redundant things. Actually, she didn't know how to deal with Egan. Is he not a stranger to her? Suddenly Egan appeared and demanded to interfere in her life. It sounds so intense, it's hard to accept.
Faced with Vera's still negative reaction, Egan decides to tell her directly about his feelings.
"Because if you die, I don't know who to care for and love. I'm the one who will be by your side from now on." Egan's voice was serious, emphatic. His gaze was steady when he made such a bold statement. There was no joking, no lie existing in Egan right now.
"Huh?" Vera exclaimed in shock, she couldn't believe what she just heard: "What did you say?"
"You're alive because I can protect you." Egan returned in a soft voice, repeating his oath once more: "So Vera, you don't have to be afraid or worry. The word has me. Are you willing to accept me? Are they not?"
Oh my god, is Egan flirting with Vera? Vera's tears stopped falling from time to time she didn't know. Even Vera fell into a frozen state, breathing very slow and light. Her eyes on Egan didn't blink once. Vera really didn't know what she was going through. Everything is difficult to explain.
Seeing Vera still motionless, bewildered, Egan boldly took a risk, declaring once more.
"Vera, I'll take care of you from now on. Please give me a chance to do that, okay?"
Egan's warm hand touched Vera's cold skin, waking her up. Vera blinked, confused when faced with Egan's expectant gaze. In those eyes was a feeling that Egan never dared to imagine that someone would give her the truth. Yes, that's love. A luxury, high end for Vera.
Vera's next reaction was to pull back when she noticed Egan's hand was on hers.
"Vera." Egan called to her in a friendly tone: "Answer me, are you willing?"
"I... actually... Why... you...?" Vera hesitated, her words frantic because her mind was completely blank right now. Vera didn't know how to use the words correctly. She also didn't know what she wanted to say to Egan. Is it rejection or acceptance? Vera felt extremely confused.
"I love you, Vera." Egan once again made Vera's eyes widen in surprise. She had to stare at Egan again to find out the truth of the statement.
"I fell in love with you at first sight when I met you under the cherry tree." Egan confided: "Do you know Vera? When I knew you were the one to save me, I doubted your kindness."
Egan's sudden confessions of so many things at once took Vera from surprise to surprise, and she even frowned in anger when Egan said he was suspicious of her.
Vera didn't have time to open her mouth to ask about Egan's motives when she thought of her injustice, Egan said right away. He seems to understand what Vera wants from him.
"I'm sorry for doubting you." Egan sincerely apologized, with justification: "But do you know why I'm like this?"
Vera naturally shook her head when asked.
Egan smiled faintly and continued:
"Because before I met you, I really lost faith in others. My life is always wary of lies and deception. All the people around me are not sincere. The pain and loss that he went through taught him to always doubt, always have to verify the authenticity to be allowed to trust others."
"What does that have to do with me?" Vera's question caused Egan to give a small smile. Egan almost forgot Vera was a girl who could be said to be ignorant when it was unclear who he was.
"I've always assumed that everyone who approached me had a purpose, an ulterior motive." Egan's words made Vera frown in displeasure.
"I don't even know you." Vera interrupted with words to defend herself: "How can you attribute such bluff?"
"I know I was wrong to equate you with everyone else. So forgive me!"
Once again Egan's sincerity left Vera feeling helpless. She also didn't want to stress the small matter. After all, everyone has their own way of thinking and opinion. She is no one to interfere, influence or change the minds of others.
"It's nothing serious, anyway."
"Does that mean you'll forgive me?" Egan asked excitedly.
"Yeah!" Seeing Egan Vera's happy face did not want to make the color disappear, so she nodded in agreement.
"Thank you, Vera. I know you're a kind, selfless girl." Egan said, taking a bold hold of Vera's troubled hands. Egan placed a sincere kiss on each side.
Vera was embarrassed by Egan's very emotional gesture, Egan made Vera not know how to respond.
"You don't have to act like that." Vera reminded Egan, who also wanted to ask why Egan changed his mind: "Then what is the reason you changed your mind, without doubting me?"
"After meeting you under the tree, I changed my judgment."
Vera made a doubtful face, and then expressed displeasure at her discovery: "Don't tell me you approached me on purpose that time?"
Vera harshly accused: "You want to probe me."
"You could say so." Egan did not hesitate to admit his intentions at that time: "Actually, I planned not to see you until I was sure who you were, was it sent by my opponent? to trap you or not?"
"So what made you once again go against your plans?" Vera continued the story. She has to do a thorough investigation because she has a right to know the truth.
"At that time I just wanted to go for a walk." Egan said with an expression as if he was reminiscing: "Then I happened to see you. Curiosity was high, I couldn't control the desire to step closer to you. At that time, I wanted to talk to you, that's why I wanted to talk to you. boldly step forward."
"Is that all?" Vera felt that Egan's explanation was too simple: "I thought it took something really convincing to make you change your mind. I've learned that egos are hard to change. ."
"I'm right." Egan admitted to Vera that the ego is difficult to change, sometimes people live and die to preserve, obey the ego, regardless of what they get is all pain.
"So what really changed you?"
Vera tilted her head in anticipation, and Egan couldn't hide a big smile when he saw Vera's simple beauty. She doesn't need makeup to attract Vera's attention. And Egan's heart does not stop moving towards her.
"Because I'm attracted to you." Egan, after breaking his smile, answered very honestly: "Do you know your strength, Vera, you are so attractive to Vera."
Once again Vera was rendered speechless by Egan, she was literally at a loss for words in this situation. Egan indirectly publicized his feelings for Vera. It's really an experience that Vera hasn't experienced yet. Vera never really believed that someone would love her. Since being cheated on by Lani's boyfriend, Vera has also lost faith in love.
Is Egan sincere?
Although Vera didn't answer her, Vera's red face was enough to make Egan smile with satisfaction.