Declaration of Love

"I apologise profusely if my actions were insolent and presumptuous. But I have good intentions to make you happy once you are out of this castle and free from the constraints of Lord Alpha King. I think you are a person who deserves to be happy with the person who loves you," Afrow said suddenly.

"Please don't make me think in circles. And I apologise if my question sounds like a joke, but I didn't mean it that way at all. Did you just make a declaration of love to me?" I asked with a curious look.

Afrow fell silent again, and in a split second I realised that my statement just now seemed like an insult to Afrow. I shouldn't have beaten around the bush and just got straight to the point, everything he said was very loud that he was making a declaration of love to me.

"Gosh, sorry, I didn't mean to tease you or anything like that. I've never received a declaration of love from anyone, so I'm not sure how to respond to your declaration. But as long as you know, you're the type of man I really like and the way you treat a woman really makes me amazed and touched. I will think about your statement again, but from a scale of 1-10 you can put the possibility of my answer raised 7 or 8. So please wait for me," I said not wanting to disappoint Afrow.

The reason you didn't immediately agree to Afrow's declaration of love was because I didn't want to rush into a declaration in the midst of an impossible situation like now. Am I not planning to disappear from this place? I don't want to suddenly live in a beautiful world with someone who is an original inhabitant of this place, because I will only bear a big wound for both him and myself because we will be separated so far that I don't even know how to return to this world when I return to my own world, the world of humans.

It's a shame, even though a man like Afrow is the man I dreamed of and really fits my dream as a person who will make a life companion. A man who is truly kind and gentle to women is a rare thing to find because most men nowadays I meet only prioritise physicality and want sex from women.

"I understand, I will wait for an answer from you until you are able to provide that answer for me. But please don't force yourself to accept my declaration of love just now because I really just want to declare it to you. If you feel that you don't have any feelings for me then it's better not to force yourself, because I know I can't force myself to be someone's type," Afrow said.

I just nodded while smiling at him for a moment then we fell silent until we realised that we had arrived in front of my bedroom. A conversation that ended with a heavy atmosphere, even though I had just felt butterflies fluttering in my stomach, but because I was too wordy the night caused an awkwardness between the two of us.

It wasn't Afrow's fault that he declared his love for me, unlike most people who would blame the person who gave the declaration of love, I instead focused more on myself because I was the one who made the end of the declaration of love feel heavy. In the future I will be more assertive whether I have to reject him or accept his declaration of love.

"Please don't be awkward with me after this. Be the Afrow I know just like when we first met, because I really like your personality and I feel comfortable when I'm around you. The reason I can't say yes or give you a definite answer is because the situation called for doesn't allow me to do that. I'm sorry, Afrow."

I gave him a loyal gaze so that he could read the situation I was feeling right now. I also gave him hope so that she wouldn't just give up on me. After all, I'm just trying to figure out how to get out of this world and it's not like I can just return to my world easily. I might not be able to go back there at all and will stay here forever.

If that were to happen then being Afrow's life partner would be the most beautiful thing and my biggest dream until my old age.

"Alright, I understand. Thank you, Mrs. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to confess my feelings to you. I thought it would end badly, but you're a person with a very kind heart, you're a very generous person," Afrow said.

"I learnt that from you, you should realise that in this castle the only person with a heart as good as yours is you. Good night Afrow, see you tomorrow," I said before I closed the door and went into my room.

The funny thing about him after I said that was that he still had time to wave to me before I closed the door. Like a love-struck teenager going through puberty, he smiled just as happily until I actually closed my bedroom door and went to bed.

After I entered the room and was completely unaccompanied by anyone, I climbed onto the bed with my books, there were quite a lot of them and I was thinking of organising them under the bed. I'm sure the chatty James will think all sorts of things after seeing the pile of books I brought. It was already the beginning of my meeting with him was not a good thing.

Actually I still really wanted to read the book more but the fatigue I felt was enough to make me feel sleepy and want to go to bed. Whereas earlier when I was in the library I still felt very fresh and was confident that I could stay up until morning, but it turned out that my feeling of enthusiasm was only because I was with someone who made me feel comfortable.

I started to doubt myself and started to believe that I had actually started to love Afrow as well. This sounded ridiculous since I had only met him for a short time. Isn't this the kind of love that pubescent teenagers experience? Does a girl like me still deserve to be called experiencing love at first sight? I don't know, I'm too embarrassed to find out.

I arranged my books and pushed them under the bed because I would read them tomorrow morning instead. After I went inside my room and was completely alone, the sleepiness I felt really became intense. If compared to a well-cooked turkey covered in barbeque sauce then sleeping on a soft mattress in the cold weather is much more enjoyable than that meal.

I then climbed onto the bed and covered myself with the blanket. I almost forgot the last time I was able to sleep this peacefully. The human world to be precise, together with my parents, I always slept with a restless heart and a body that was very tired from working so hard. I might not even want to return to the human world and feel like staying here forever.