He Will Go

"Soon this pack will be on deployment duty. So Lord King Alpha and his many warriors will be leaving to spread out to the regions for hunting and many other purposes. That will make the castle more empty than usual, but because of this situation I will remain here on Lord King Alpha's orders and my own wishes. But what I am worried about is that there will be an attack at such times later on in this castle," said Afrow looking upset.

"Then what makes you so big just because of that? Isn't this castle usually quiet most of the time? It seems to me that every day this caste looks deserted and there are rarely even people passing by except for the servants," I retorted not wanting Afrow to be unsettled.

Afrow denied. "That's what you see. It's said that you don't have the vision that we do. Actually, in certain corners of every castle building, there are officials who are hiding but keeping watch throughout the day. Not only in every corner but the outside and inside of the top and bottom of the top are also guarded by them. So if the deployment is carried out then there will be a vacancy of more than half in this castle, that's what I'm worried about because it concerns your safety and security."

I was pensive. "Then I'd better come with you, so you don't have to bother about me being in this castle."

Afrow denied again. "In fact, such a possibility is the most difficult to do, your condition is not like us who can easily move anywhere, carrying you in this condition will only endanger you and your foetus. Then being in the castle is better but there will be more considerations considering the condition of the castle which will be much more empty than usual."

I also don't know what to think if the option that I have is also unacceptable. What Afrow said is true but I really don't want to trouble anyone here. Even if I'm told to come along for the long journey, I won't complain and refuse, because I hate being used as an excuse to burden someone or a group of people. Hence I won't protest for any decisions they make.

"Alright then. I can only follow your decisions. I can't do much about it anyway, if only I was a werewolf I wouldn't have caused you so much trouble," I replied guiltily.

"Circumstances cannot be changed. But that doesn't mean you've incriminated anyone here, gone are the circumstances that make us all indecisive. My name will do its utmost to protect you and the rest of the people in this castle. Besides, even though there will be many soldiers travelling with Lord King Alpha, Brother does not mean that there will be no guard here at all. There will still be some guards left here to keep the castle from being entered by intruders."

"Alright I understand. You don't have to be that scared. Even I am not that worried. If necessary, I can just move to the hidden room here, right? I'm confident in your strength, so don't burden your own mind," I said.

*****

Since that day, James has become more attentive to me and he is no longer as cold as usual. Don't because it's still new to him that I'm not too used to his attitude.

Still in the midst of the friendliness he showed me I felt that it didn't match with him always being cold to me. Especially when I remembered the moment when she defended Xezedha in front of me even though it was that woman who did me wrong. It again made me feel resentful towards him.

"Didn't I remind you to eat your breakfast?" said James entering my room.

Since morning I still had no appetite for food. And it's probably past noon now, the food delivered by the waiter is still on the table and intact without me eating a single bite. Sometimes I have the desire to eat a lot but sometimes I don't want to eat at all.

"This time I really have no appetite for food. And even if I'm served any food I still don't want to eat it," I said as I continued to stare at the window.

It's been a few days since the incident and everything still feels peaceful and normal. But until now I still haven't found a way to return to my original world, the more I think about it the more ridiculous it seems and there seems to be no way out. It seems that it's also what makes me feel unappetising to eat.

"You seem to be thinking of something to worry about. What are you worried about? Don't think about things that aren't your responsibility. You just need to relax and enjoy your pregnancy until you deliver those babies," James said.

I shook my head softly. "I'm not what you think I am. I was just watching the sky and thinking that the world here is beautiful. Even though you have a similar sky, it's very different from where I come from where I'm so into me and there are only realistic things."

"What do you mean?" asked James. "You say that as if you've lived in a world other than this one."

I chuckled softly, even though I had given him signals like that for him to understand, it was just that every time I told him the truth that I was not the Aluna he knew he still insisted that it was ridiculous. Even though they live in a world that prioritises magical things, and their mistakes have encountered many things in the form of magic, they should be able to admit and understand that and not try to deny it.

Reality is unpredictable. Creatures created on earth always contradict their world. Humans in the midst of a modern world that does not have supernatural powers actually believe in the existence of supernatural powers and things related to it, inversely proportional to the creatures who live in a world full of magical things like this who will not even believe in something if they don't see it firsthand. How contradictory.

"Even if I explain it to you, you won't believe me. I've told you so many times but you just think it's all talk. But that's okay, forget it, oh yeah please get me that roast chicken, I'm getting hungry," I asked to end the argument.