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Jason POV

"Give me one,'' Cameron said.

Punch

"Give me two.''

Punch punch

''Give me three.''

Punch punch bam

''Jesus... fuck... ow, dude you didn't have to do that,'' he said, shaking off his hand and taking off the boxer glove. I was in the gym after Violet left me. On top of that, I have been drinking since I've gotten the news that my grandmother passed away.

I'm stupid, I know.

I can't control myself sometimes. For fuck's sake, I was doing so well with her and I let that slipped away from my hands. I need to be a better man than I am, not only for my future child but for my love Violet.

Cameron was able to get me out of the house for the past few days and has helped me coping my emotions with boxing. Not going to lie, I find boxing to be a great way to release stress and reduce my anger that I've consumed in since I've gotten the news.

''Sorry, man,'' I took off my boxing gloves and sat down on the floor. Cameron came over to me with a water bottle and towel, then sits down on the floor with me.

''It's cool, what's up with you? I thought you and Violet were good."

''Yeah I was drinking and--''

''-- Come on don't do this to yourself," he cut me off.

''I feel like I've lost the most important person who valued me to be a good man and now she doesn't want to deal with me.''

''That's not true. Look, Jay, you're like a brother to me and that last thing that I need right now is that you lose yourself. I can't and won't let that happen to you.''

My sadness is a hollowness. I can't tell you what's worse. Sometimes my hollowness is a shell, holding in a thousand oceans of tears. Sometimes I am somebody, somebody in pain and sadness. But sometimes I feel like a nobody, and I don't seem to feel. I don't seem to exist at all.

I sat there, as I felt my heart cracking like glass, spreading its pieces throughout my body. Tears streaming down my cheeks, falling to the ground like raindrops. My heart slowed as I realized how much I've miss Violet, nonna, and my parents.

''Tell me what's on your mind?'' Cameron said to me.

I took a depth breath and said. ''Everything. With Nonna's passing, Violet, it just brings me back to my parents. My mom with breast cancer then my dad's car accident, it's all too much sometimes. It made become so vile, I never take anything seriously not until I found Violet.

It was like yesterday when she walked into the Vella Empire building, she was wearing a black dress, her hair was down and she wore her reading glasses. I thought to myself self '' my god, she's beautiful.''

And the more I got to know her, the more I fell in love with her, and I don't want to lose her, because, without her, I feel incomplete. I would feel like my life isn't going to be the same and I'm gonna slip being back to the dark side of me.''

Cameron sighed and he placed his hand on my back. ''Go after her, tell her that.''

''What if--''

''No, don't doubt yourself. You love her right?''

I nodded.

''Go find her at Aubree's, contact her, tell her from the heart. I'm sure she'll feel the same way. I know it hasn't been easy for the two of you. Plus, I like seeing you happy when you're with Violet.''

"Really?"

''Of course."

We both chuckled at the same time. He stretches his hand out to me; we both got off from the mat and did our handshake.

''Thanks, man, you're the best,'' I said.

''You know I always got you.''

''Are you hungry? I could use a Sub.''

He laughed. ''Same, I know a good place. Follow me?''

''Sure.''

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It was late in the afternoon when I arrived at my place from having lunch with Cameron. I felt so good, venting to him about the grief and my relationship with Violet.

He was right. If I need her back, I need to fight for her and tell her everything. I don't want to lose her or lose the chance to be with my future child.

Before I came to my home, I did a quick stop by to a floral shop and got a bouquet of pink roses with a stuffed elephant.

A doorbell ring from afar and I went downstairs to the front door to see who it was. I opened it as slowly as I can and saw Violet standing there right in front of me. Finally the day I've dreading is here.

My heart twisted and sunk with nerves as I stood in front of Violet.

''Violet?'' I questioned.

''Jason."