Better side of him

Jacob's POV.
I felt my cheeks turned crimson red, when I noticed he was close to me, I tried my best to keep a calm expression, before I stood up and I cupped her cheeks, making her look at me in the eyes, she was so beautiful, and I can't deny it,I took a deep breath, while trying to keep a calm expression.
I abruptly kissed her lips with no restraints, after we broke from the kiss, a smile sprawled on her lips while trying to keep a calm expression, the only thing that I wanted at this moment was to have her lips to my claims. But I had to restrained myself from doing so.
" We don't have much time left and I want to use the remaining months to make it up to you, I'm not trying to make you fall for me or anything, and if I don't make it up to you, then I'll live my life in regrets" I said to her, she managed to curved her lips to a smile before she went towards the direction of the garden.
I followed her, she was silent , almost in deep in thoughts as she darts her eyes towards a different directions of the garden.
" Whenever I see this garden it reminds me so much of our youthful age, and if you want to make up for what you did to me back when we were still young, I'll give you that opportunity after that I'll eventually leave the marriage" she said, despite the fact her words hurt me so deep, there is nothing I can do, so I just have to admit that I want more than she knew it, I want to eventually make her the mother of my children. I don't know why I was never able to love another woman the way I loved her, my heart bleeds just from the thought that she would be leaving me, anytime soon.
"Okay, I'll like to take you to the zoo" I started, while attempting to divert my attention and enjoy this moment, while I attempted to mask my sad expression with a smile etched on my face, I took a deep breath, while trying to mask my hurt , the only thing I wanted at this moment was to be close to her.
"The zoo!"she exclaimed gently, before a smile managed to sprawl on her lips, she then went ahead and rushed towards the room, where she went to get herself ready..
I also went to the guest room and had a nice shower there and I also got ready by wearing a casual clothes of tight jeans with a white shirt.
I went outside, while waiting for her , after sometime, she came out from the room, I heard clicking sound of footsteps, I turned towards the direction of the footsteps, I was astounded when I noticed the way she dressed, her clothes was casual yet ethereal at the same time, I couldn't take my eyes off her, she was so beautiful and I wondered how I'll be able to cope, I found myself so Immense to the moment that I didn't bother about the time.
"Are you done looking" she asked while chuckling, I tried to compose myself, before I walked up to her and brought her hands close to me, she was looking at me so Intently without a care in the world.
"I'm grateful for accepting my proposal to go with me,but I'll love to be the one take you this time " I said before I swiftly took her in my abled arms and I started walking with her, she had her lips curved to a smile, she was already chuckling with the turn of events.
I gently placed her on the car sit, I noticed her cheeks was all flushed, that she was finding difficulties to look at me, and that managed to bring a satisfied smile on my cheeks.
" Thank you for loving me " she appreciated, which kinda shocked me.
"I know you might be confused why I had said that, but can I be honest with you?" She asked, I nodded, she then came closer to me and said.
"It's because no man has ever done what you are doing to me, there are many times where poeple would want to take advantage of me, but no has ever regretted the way you did.." she pursed before she continued.
" For that reason I'm grateful, but I'm finding difficulties to love you back " she added, I thought for a while, and I came to realize that I have feelings , I never bothered to know the real her , because I was just so engulfed in my world of fantasies.
" I'm sorry for what I did back then and I know that saying sorry wouldn't be enough " I said, which made her plastered a smile on her face..
"We have already signed the contract that is in six months we would all depart to our deferent ways right?" She asked, I nodded, which made her plaster a smile on her face, the thought of everything, was just so overwhelming to me, I tried my best to compose myself before I managed to go closer to her.
I attempted to kiss her,I thought she was going to push me or at least slap me, but none of that happened, rather she brought her lips even closer, I immediately retracted.
"I'm sorry, I should be thinking of how to compensate of what I did, I was so Lost in your beauty" I said with my cheeks already flushed, she plastered a smile on her cheeks, before she came closer to me and made it evident with her actions that I'm permitted to claim her lips.
I didn't hesitate to do that, her Lips was soft and sweet at the same time, I was so immense in the moment that I don't want to stop,I want to continue feeling this moment without a caring about anything else in the world, I brought her lips closer and I dived deeper.
After we broke from the kiss, our cheeks was all flushed, my heart was beating so erratically before I blurted those words without thinking.
"I love you so much Josephine"