So much hurt

Jacob's POV
I saw the way she took graceful strides towards me, her lips curved to a smile, her hips swayed easily to the rythm of her steps, I felt so overwhelmed with emotions, the only thing I wanted at that moment was to engulfed her in a tight hug and show her how much she meant to me, I can't stop admiring her features because of her natural beauty.
I noticed the glistening tears, which was quite evident in her eyes which clearly illustrates that she was in so much pain, she has her lips curved to a smile and without a care in the world, she came closer to me and she managed to bring her lips closer to mine, I can't have enough of her.
" I thought I ..I" she broke down in tears, I used my free hand before I wiped her tears, she was having that expression that shows she was very sad, I hate to see her in this mood.
"Don't cry, I'm here for you okey" I comforted her, she smiled to my comment before I brought her lips closer to mine. I kissed her gently, the kiss was Simple yet good at the same time, there was that electrifying I can never deny.
" You look beautiful" I commented, she wiped her tears while sniffling, I found myself so engrossed while looking at her.
After two days, we eventually went back home, to the house that I have come to miss so badly, I can't bare the thought of anything happening to my wife, I tried as much as possible to keep a calm expression, Before I managed to go closer to her and hugged her one more time, from behind, she chuckled, it was clear enough even from her expression that she was happy with my actions.
She then look at me, before she ruffled my hair, while smiling, I don't want this moment to stop, I just want to continue loving and showing her how much she meant to me.
"I love you so much" I confess again, but she didn't say a word, but rather she was silent.
" Please, can I ask for a favour"
"Yes, even if you ask for the queen of England, I'll be ready to give to you at your beg and call"I said to her while exaggerating the whole ordeal, she immediately put her index finger on my lips, trying to stop me from talking further. But while looking at her everyday, I have come to love and understand her that I'm finding it difficult to let go of her anytime soon.
"Please, don't love me too deeply, because after the six months contract I'll be leaving you" she said confidently, her words pierced so deeply into my being.
I immediately let go of her, I thought she might have changed her mind about leaving me, I was already thinking of cancelling the contract, but why is she doing this to me.
I left without uttering a word, because I was feeling nothing but immense pain and I wanted to be out of her presence so I can think for a while.
"But you were the one who had told me , we would get a divorce after six months" she yelled.
I know I said so, but it was me trying to get enough time to win her over, I never knew that she would eventually leave me, I cried inwardly, my fist clenched, but I couldn't utter a word, while she was trying to stop me.
" I'm sorry ".
"Just go, I need to think" I yelled at her, I know I'm getting paranoid over the things I said myself, but I can't help it, because I love her so much and I don't want anything to come in between us, I tried as much to keep a calm expression, before I went further towards the door. she kept quiet, I thought she was going to stop me, but she didn't, but rather she let me go, which made me even more angry with myself for falling so deeply for her to the extent I'm finding it so difficult to let her go, I tried as much as possible to keep calm but it was just too difficult for me.
I then went towards my car and I started the engine before I drove towards a nearby bar, I hate to act this way, but I'm so frustrated that I can never have her no matter how hard I try or no matter how hard I try to make amendments. I think it's high time I need to let go before things get too deeper and the feelings too stronger. I took a deep breath, while trying to get my shits together and that's when I noticed a young lady who was dancing in the crowd.
The blaring noice, the blaring music, the loud sound of victory evaporates the building, but I just want to get drunk in my problems and forget about everything, I hate the fact that all these is happening to me, but there is nothing I can do about it, I can't force her on me, it's high time I let her go.
"Hello handsome, did you care for a dance" one of the girl said, there was an evident smile on her face, the smile that makes me remember of Josephine, the thought alone was so overwhelming, that I just want to be close with her.
Without thinking twice I roughly pulled her close to me, there was a husky moan that escape her lips.
"I like the way you act so rough with women" she commented. I shook my head violently, I came to realize that it was the evidence of alcohol that was taking a toll on me, I tried to understand who was bold enough to like my predatory grip.
"Mmm you are so sexy" she commented, Before she brought her lips closer to mine, while attempting to kiss me, I stopped her from coming any closer, because I don't want her to achieve her aims, I thought for a while, before I tried to be out of the bar. Only for me to noticed some girls in tight mini skirt, tried to rip me naked, and no one bothered.