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Josephine POV
When I called, it went through my heart beat erratically under its Rip cage, I immediately ended the call, because I thought of the consequences of my actions. Right now I'm confused I don't know what to do, so I decided to close my door before I went back to my bed and slept off, I took a deep breath while trying to calm myself down, I don't know what to do, but I know for sure that things won't be the same between us after what he did to me today.
I woke up the next morning, ignited by the thought of what transpired today, I squint my eyes to the blaring light of the morning Rays, and my heart palpitates when I did not the face of Jacob, he was kneeling on the ground, while his face was down.
His presence made me scared, and I had to jolt in fear, " what are you doing here?" I asked, evidently shocked by his presence, he stared at the sadness in his expression.
"I came to say sorry, please forgive me" he begged, but I was not buying any of it, so I abruptly went to my wardrobe before I started packing my things.
"You asked me to allow you to ask for my forgiveness, which I did, you made me willing to do anything just to see you survive after that snake bite and this is how you repay me" I cried, tears were evident in my eyes making my vision blurry.
"I'm sorry Josephine, I just don't know what came over me last night, I'm sorry please forgive me" he pleaded, but I was not going to believe him again. When I was done packing my clothes, I rushed outside the house, but he held my hand stopping me from going further.
" Please don't go, please" he begged, he was on his knees, I almost succumb but I know that if I succumb, he might eventually do this to me again, I tried as much to keep a calm expression, before I walked outside of the house, despite his pleas.
He let go of me before he said, " you can go, I know you can never be mine, no matter how hard I try" said before he went back inside his house while leaving me standing in the same spot he had left me, I don't know why his words hurt so much, I tried as much to keep a calm expression before I went inside the house, my fist clenched, and I felt so hurt.
I don't know why his actions were hurting me so badly, almost like I want him to continue begging me, I wanted to go back, but my ego said the latter, so I decided to leave the house before I went to my father.
I rushed to my father was sitting on his favorite armchair, without saying a word, I rushed towards him and I started crying in his arms, he hugged me before he patted me.
"What's the matter, my princess," he asked, his voice etched with concern, I shook my head violently before I said.
"No father, I'm not going back to that man you Forced me to marry him, I can't go back to him" I screamed at the top of my lungs, he wiped my tears gently with his wrinkled hands.
"You need to calm down and tell me what happened, because you know I'm always here to listen to what you have to say," he said. I sniffled some breaths, before I hugged him again, unable to voice out my pain. My mother walked in, her expression was gloomy when she noticed me in a very pitiable state, he hugged me, I felt safe In her arms, and she had a beautiful smile etched on her face.
"What's the matter sweetie, I hope you are doing well? " she asked me, which made me take a deep breath before I shook my head violently.
"What's the matter?" She asked I turned to my dad, my eyes were still blurry with tears when I remembered what happened yesterday, my fist clenched and my heart ached, from the whole thought of it.
"I'll tell you later mom, I first need to have my shower," I said before I went to the bathroom, I allowed the lukewarm water to cascade down my body, my fist clenched, when I thought about everything, I tried as much to keep a calm expression, but the handsome face if Jacob kept on appearing.
When I was done taking my bathing, I went to my bed, trying to forget about everything, but I just couldn't no matter how hard I tried, I then decided to get some rest, by sleeping for a while, but before I doze off, I noticed my father was standing beside the door, with a clear sad expression.
After some time, I woke up, my fist was clenched and my heart was beating so fast, especially when I noticed my brother, I know he was the one who had encouraged my father to marry me to Jacob, and now I'm regretting my actions.
"What are you doing here?" I asked in evident rage in my voice, he took a deep breath, I wanted to ignore his presence, so I cuddle myself in the bed my heart sank, just from the mere thought of everything, but I couldn't bring myself to say a word, because I was tired and I needed something to help me forget.
"You look beautiful" he comments, I turned to look at him while wondering why he made mentioned my beauty all of s sudden.
"I know how you feel but you have to forget about everything" he started.
"But I can't, after what he did to me" my eyes were already blurry with tears.
"Why can't you forget about him since you don't care?" He asked, I took a deep breath while wondering the same thing.
"Because you love him?".