Uncontrollable

Josephine POV
I was concerned the moment he left, without uttering a word, I felt so guilty, that's the reason why I decided to follow him, there was that deep spark of genuine feelings, the feeling I have never felt for Aiden was growing so deep within me. But I needed to be certain to know if I wanted him, I don't know why he was taking the whole ordeal very seriously, I just wanted him to calm down so we can seek out things together, but he was not doing so.
I took a deep breath before I walked in his direction, he was sitting outside while talking about s bottle of liquor, and I was surprised when I noticed the way he tried to resist the tempting body of his secretary. I knew it right from the beginning, that his secretary was of no good to him. From the first day I set my eyes on her, I know for a fact that she had other intentions, but I never knew she was ready to go this far, to extend trying to seduce my husband in his house.
I clenched my fist, but I was glad when I noticed the way he resisted her lustful attempts. I rushed inside my room when I noticed that he was also heading to his room and I don't want him to know that I was eavesdropping on their conversation.
I gently laid my body on the bed, before I closed my eyes while trying to keep a calm expression, the lingering thought of how Celine tried to seduce my husband, made me even more infuriated than I had expected, I tried as much as possible to keep a calm expression before I stood up and walked towards his bedroom.
I stood beside the door, unable to summon enough courage in other to knock on the door, so I decided to walk back to my room. I started pacing back and forth, not knowing how to start the moment I set my eyes on him.
I noticed lately, that my heart easily skip to his touch and I oddly wanted him which was weird of me.
I decided to wear something more revealing and sexy before I walked back to his room.
I knocked on the door, and I heard the sound of groans, which was evident that he was trying to stretch his body, when he eventually opened the door, his eyes darted from my face down to my legs and I was expecting him to show some reaction in his face, but there was none, he shrugged his shoulders telling me he needed time to think.
I couldn't argue with him, but deep within I was hurt, so I decided to walk back towards my room, I clutched the hem of my dress feeling immense pain, I tried as much to keep calm, but I couldn't know full well that I might lose control and start acting emotional.
But what just happened, was making me feel so much hurt, I drew in a deep breath, because I don't want to think much about it, but I kept on thinking about it and I hate it. I then went beside the window, while looking at the open space, I kept on thinking about many things while increasing the intensity of the hurt I was feeling.
After some time, I heard a knock coming from the door, I felt so happy, knowing that he might be the one, when I eventually opened the door, without a warning he smashed his lips against mine, making it hard for me to even breath.
His actions were unexpected, I thought he was going to settle things with me, and I started crying because my thoughts easily wandered to when he attempted to force himself on me.
"Please don't do this" I begged, he continued with his lustful assault without caring about the pain and hurt I was experiencing.
He was about to shove himself inside of me, and that's when he noticed my expression, the way I turned my face to the right while closing my eyes, showing how I was feeling nothing but hate for him.
He abruptly stood up and rushed towards his room. I was left all alone, but happy that he didn't finish his predatory assault, I then cuddled myself before I started crying, allowing myself to envelop myself in my pain.
I tried as much to forget about everything, but I just couldn't, no matter how hard I tried.
" Why did you do such, how could you do this to me Jacob why?" I cried, not knowing what to do, or how to start, I eventually made up my mind, that by tomorrow I'll be leaving this house because what he would do the next time, it's something I don't even want to imagine.
" Please you need to calm down, " I told myself, but I know it'll be very hard for me to calm down after knowing what he did to me.
I closed my eyes while trying to sleep but I couldn't, I thought of Aiden coming for me after six months, was heartbreaking, and the thought of my parents forcing me to marry Jacob was even more painful, I then decided that I'll be going back to my father by tomorrow And I'll tell him everything, I don't want to continue in a marriage that doesn't have understanding, I hate the fact that I'm sounding this way, but I don't care.
I now know that Aiden was better than Jacob because he has never tried to force himself on me, no matter how bad he craved for my body, I took a deep breath before I took my phone, I thought of calling my Aiden seeped in, I was about to dial his number but something stopped me, I want to call him and tell him what happened, but there was that unknown force that's something me from doing so, so I did the unexpected by calling him.