Chapter 18

The days turned great. I stayed in the hospital for almost three weeks, and two days after that it’s going to be my birthday and the Christmas.


Today, I got discharged. I want to go home before Christmas. My brother and Kelsey didn’t visit the house, yet after they went back here. It would be our first time to go there after I got an accident.


Chris went in prison. I wasn’t only the victim, and I heard that he got a lot of victims and I’m glad that he’s in the jail now. I didn’t see him there though but I saw his picture that was taken with my brother, his face is not in good shape.


“Are you done?” I looked in the door, and it was Kairus. I looked behind and I didn’t saw my brother. He was supposed to be the one to fetch me.


“Your brother couldn’t make it. So, I volunteered.” I smile.

We don’t bring anything. I just changed into a maxi dress. I want something light and something lose.


“Did you see my phone?” I asked him. I froze when he put his arms ay my waist. We both stopped and I parted.


His touch and, my reaction.


“I will buy you one. I think someone picked up your phone when you were …kidnap.” He whispered.


“Can I hold you?” He asked, and my heart stopped. I think I needed his help. Even simple leaping or raising my heart pains me. I think I’ll get better once I’ll be back home. I was even more surprised that my brother let me leave.


“Please…”I whispered. I feel his hot breath and the way how his body called mine. I sighed and focused my own heartbeat.


“Are you sure that it safe to go back home? You still…still look so pale and yet beautiful.”


I’m glad that the doctor needs to talk privately about my case or else Kelsey and Kairus will know.


“You’re going back to your condo?” I asked and he nodded.


“Uh-uh, your brother wants me away from you. It’s understandable, though.”


I went silent. I still can’t forget that be use me and think I was his girlfriend, and the way he mention her as his wife, and I know I didn’t take a chance.


“It must been hard for you.” He whispered, and I rolled my eyes.

“I already warned you to stopped talking about it.” I feel my heart tightened again. I closed my eyes when we get inside the elevator and I couldn’t breathe. If I breathe, my heart aches.


Kairus quickly notice it. He slowly pulls me towards him and he looked at me, widened eyes, worried face, and sweat dropping his forehead.


“Jette…Jette!” He called me, and he gently tapped my cheeks. “Jette! Listen to me…Jette! What happened?!”


I closed my eyes and tried to breathe. Kairus quickly called someone.

“N-not d-doctor.” I mumble. “Bro-brother A-andrew.” I slowly closed my eyes, and he carried me.


“Andrew! Jette collapsed! Why would I have to send her to you! Should I go back and talk to the doctor?!”


“A-andrew…” I whispered to him. I clutch my heart so badly. The guy who carried me shake and tremble.


In my heart, I knew I couldn’t make it. In my heart, I knew I couldn’t endure it.


My heart starting to lose me.



I’m fine and still glad that I was able to grant this heart desire to live in the Philippines. I was glad to fulfill this heart donor’s wish.
We both died now.


To Aime, and Cassia’ heart, I hope that our hearts were happy despite the pain and agony we have felt.



Are we still going to fight or maybe all the pains were enough and all the happiness we have felt each day were enough? Is enough better? You’ve fulfilled Cassia’s heart and how about your own heart Aime? What about your life? How about the person you’ve been currently attracted with?


I couldn’t be more proud of my heart. It’s still fighting. I feel the voices around me.


So, you continue to fight?


“Can we call hope and begged for it? I can go to her and too her parents. I don’t care if I kneeled in front of them."


“I wanted to beg as well Andrew, but we can’t just asked her family to let their daughter die-

“What about my sister, Mommy! What about your daughter, Mommy! I c-cant…I c-can’t watch my sister like this, Mom!”



I think I have the answer now. It’s not me or my heart is strong and why it’s still fighting but it was the people who loved me so much who is fighting for me.


“M-mom…I…I’m still not ready to lose her. She’s too young, too precious, she could still have life to come.”

“I-it wasn’t easy for us as well Andrew. Your Daddy cried every night, looking anything that could match your sister’s heart! We’ve prepared for this financially but we aren’t prepared like this.”


I fight, again and all over again. I slowly opened my eyes. My brother is sitting and talking in the laptop.


He mess his hair and he was crying.


“D-drew…”I called him, weakly. He quickly darted his eyes at me. He widened and bit his lip. He moved closer and hugged me.


“You’re awake, thank God!”



I caressed his back. “You’ve been so stressed. I think it’s time for you to let me go.”

He shaked his head.


“Don’t think like that Aime!” Mom screamed like he heard us. “I want to talk to Mom and Dad.”


Andrew shook his head. It was hard for him. I softly chuckled. “I won’t leave you but promised me when you get tired fighting, you’ll say it to me and I just closed my eyes, and it’s finished.”


“How can you say like that?” Andrew whispered so much pain.


I guess life made me accept it. It was for me and for me, I have to accept it bravely.


Mom and Dad tried not to breakdown talking to me. I saw myself and I was so weak.

Two days from now its Christmas and my birthday, I don’t want to have the biggest celebration in pain.


I smiled and laugh to their stories. They are trying to comfort their selves. They are fighting for me, and it was hard and it was either hard for them as well.



I was sleeping in my room. Kairus wants to see me, and I heard to my brother that he decorated the house and buy Christmas tree because we were about to decorate the house. I wanted to hug him. I wanted to rest to him but I couldn’t let myself see me this way. I begged all of them not to see me. I will just see them in Christmas and my birthday.


One day of sleeping is making me fine and better. I watched my reflection in the mirror and I got so thin. I can even see my collar bone. I was wearing make-up, just light make-up to lighten my face.


They endured one day without seeing me. It’s December 24th, and in twelve midnight we are going to see the fireworks.

I heard everyone were busy. Andrew sometimes went to my room and when he saw me looking good and with a light make-up, it make him happy.


I heard the boys screaming and playing. I watched myself in the mirror. I was wearing a black and full sleeved dress. I didn’t look think, and I smiled.


Every time I stare myself in reflection it doesn’t make me happy or not give me the butterflies. I can heal better and be fine.


I heard a knock on my door. “Ofcourse, I should see my princess first!” Andrew yelled. I chuckled. I don’t have gifts to them. I opened the door and my brother is looking dashing in his suit.


“Why you look so formal?” I asked and chuckled. “It’s your eighteenth birthday. We can’t miss it.”


“I’m looking so simple!” I yelled pouting. He smirked and bow.

“Ofcourse, the brother prepared everything. Here’s my gift, darling.”


It was a big box. He pulled it behind him. I didn’t even noticed it.



I slowly opened it and it was a dress! A beautiful gold shining dress!


“Get ready, your prince and princess are waiting for the beautiful debutant.” He said and softly closed the door. It was so beautiful and fully fit around me.



Did he just recently buy it? I’m thin and it fit around me.



I slowly turned around and the insecurities that I looked thin vanish away.



I was staring to a beautiful lady right now. I’m so beautiful. Yesterday, I begged God to heal me even for a day, on his birthday and my birthday. I think he saw my begging and crushed heart or maybe he pity me how I kneed and begged for my life.


I retouched myself again. I was wearing more red lipstick and shining in my eyes.



It was a beautiful lady infront of the mirror. I smiled for too long and stare for myself.

I was staring to the beautiful girl now. A woman.

I slowly walked and cleared my throat. I’m going to be happy and do anything I want. I can’t promise if I’ll be here next year or another Christmas.


We will make it memorable that we can’t forget. No pain, no heart tightened, or no shot breathing can stop me today.



I slowly opened the door and my heart raced and our eyes widened. Infront the door of my room is a handsome Kairus in a suit. He looks so handsome and dashing that my jaw dropped.