Chapter 53

We've been in his room for five hours, counting the time I came here. When I looked at him, his eyes were already closed. I'm sure that one of my blows would put him to sleep. I waited for him to fall asleep after our passionate exchange, but it's already 2 p.m. and Kairus has no plans to sleep. He just wants to cuddle me and carry me around all day. And…I think the soft caress I gave him caused him to fall.


"I...will never leave you..." he mumbled one last time before falling asleep.

I don't want to wake him up or disturb him by leaving his room. He grips and hugs me so firmly that I can sense he doesn't want me to leave, as if losing me would be the end of the world.
He made two vows to me: he loves me and he will never leave me.
I wanted to put it to the test. He already has my body and soul, and I'm curious to see what he'll do next. Women were mainly the ones that lost their womanhood after having intimacy, and we don't know what happened after that.



I looked at him one last time. He appears to be at ease and tranquil. He has no idea that the person he is holding is no longer me, but a pillow. He doesn't have to be worried. I, too, want to leave, but I can't. I don't have a helicopter to take me away from here.





I'll never be sorry for what happened. While we were doing it, I was conscious and sober. I'm sane, I want it, and I have no regrets about doing it.


I spend the time in the bath tub, and hoping that the hot water would help lessen the pain I felt in all the edge of my body. I can still feel the aching pain and sore down there.
I hummed while watching the soap in my hands. The next thing I would is go to the beach, and enjoy the sun. I don’t have news about my reality.
Kairus ask my phone ack. And, maybe this is already the time to take a rest and relax.


I’ve seen the news and many don’t like Ryan. They just didn’t like him.



After, having the bath, I went to my room. I take my swimming suit underneath, and just big loose lace.
I bit an apple that I saw in the fridge. My eyes moved to his room, and it’s still locked yet. I’ve lost count how many times we did it, and the longer we stop, and the feeling inside of me excites me,



The first thing I went is in the beach, far from the restaurant. I chose the farthest place and so that Kairus wouldn’t notice. Even in the hottest sun, I still lay down. I covered my eyes using my hand when someone appeared.


I couldn’t see it at first but I frown to dr Kairus.”


It was Kairus. It took him late to come here.


“Why do you leave me alone, There?” He asked, and pouted. H doesn’t feel any awkwardness, and he is even looking grumpy right now.



I remained silent and unmoving. I don’t know what I have to say. That’s the reason why I’m here to think a lot of things. All About him.


“You wake up early.” I said as he took a seat beside me. I sighed, and watched the sky. It’s so beautiful and refreshing but no one dare to come there again.


“I was looking for you…” He whispered, softly. He said pouting like a kid who just someone to have a kids. I chuckled. “You Don’t have to worry,” I say and smiled. “I’ll think you have it all.” He went silent, and unmoved. He took a seat beside me and we both stare to the sky, and the sea. I know that watching it would help lessen something we carry all along. I smiled, and how peaceful it is right now. There are pain that it’s better not to be said but there’s a pin a that needs you to balance everything. I was curious to Kairus, and I can’t stop but think how crazy he is. He is staring at me.
Our eyes met together. I have fun and maybe we will all be in always good term. “Do you like it?” I asked, and regret the question but he asked me that before and I forgot to answer him. Kairus nodded, and smiled. “ I loved it knowing that it was you….”


Are you that crazy of me? Do you really love me with no pranking and all?


I loved it because it was you, too. I gave it because I want it and it was for you. I hope that I will never regret it later. I didn’t right now and I feel like my heart has been lighted with fire again. It didn’t stop giving up. He stood beside me and he slowly rest his head to my shoulder. I don’t know wat’s plan again and all I just know that Mama. “Don’t leave me…” I heard Kairus begged. My heart aches as he imagine that I would left him. “Let’s start building our own. Let’s finish what we haven’t started. All I know is that I won’t leave you.’ He looked at me in the eye. “It’s hard for me to let go knowing that you gave everything to me and I want to gently be with the guy you wanted to be. I’m not perfect but I will promise to be the man that you need and want.” You can but I can’t. I’m scared of everything. I’m scared to trust again and put my fully healed heart in the glass for him to break. I want to protect my heart but the question is, does it make me happy and at peace? I wish we could promise. I soflty sighed, and lean my head to his head as well. Kairus took my hand, and seconds passed, I feel the hot breathing on my forehead. “I…don’t know the answer…” I mumbled softly. That’s the real answer. It ust it make me lazy watching him bringing a lot of things. He softly chuckled and slowly massaging my hands. “Ill wait when youa re ready.”