Chapter 54

I watched Kairus swimming happily. He invited me to swim with him, but I declined. I wanted to look at him from a distance and also rest. I've already swam much too much today. Swimming is beneficial, but excessive swimming can be harmful especially with this heat coming from the sun.





Regardless of how much time I spend in the sun, my skin never tans. The more sun that hits my skin, the redder it becomes.



I decided to allow myself to be frail and brittle around him. I'm not going to be able to escape him. I'll let this adventure be ours. The view is magical, but this is reality, and what we experienced and shared right now is the true fantasy. This is real for the time being, but it will soon become a myth.


The sun is gradually setting. The gleaming and brilliant sea is already enticing. Kairus looks like a hot man-made merman. The faded sunset was in love with his hue.
I think the sea was made for him. He could pull a great stunt in the beach.


He called out again, waving his hand at me. This is only temporary, and I know Kairus wanted to keep it forever, but I'm not sure why I'm not taking the chance again. I’m not risking it.


It is already assumed that love will be painful, and it must be in order to be called love. Love, like a rose, is both the sweetest and the most painful thorn in one's life, but we can't throw it away simply because it has a thorn. We even accept its imperfections, even when it harm us. Love is the most serious risk, and you'll be lucky to find the right guy who stays. A guy who take the game seriously until he woke up and he already lived on it. You woke up, and you hold on to it.



"Are you already tired?" I overheard Kairus say. I raised my head, and there he was, walking near to me, the faded sunset looking wonderful on his posture. He looks like he's made of gold.


“Do you want me to massage you?” He continued, and I instantly frowned. He smirked and sat down beside me, mumbling pointedly, "I made you move a lot..."



Hm... does he mean I lose all my strength with that intense and passionate unity?


My gaze was drawn to his hand, which then moved to my legs. My brow wrinkled even more. His touch vibrates differently on my flesh. I think he was attempting to put me to the test or challenge me here.



“what are you doing?” I forewarned. I can already feel it. I know he doesn't have any intentions right now, or perhaps he does, but the way his eyes gazed at me, I knew he was just playing with me.



While staring at me, he chuckled softly, "I'm only giving you a free massage; I'm not doing anything without your consent."



He laughed and he seems extremely happy and young right now, unlike the last time we saw him, he seemed angry and jealous, and I saw his eyes trying to trap me with those harsh eyes.


Whatever his stares are, his old one was the first one I recognized. Those were dangerous, but I understood they were dangerous for me because of how easily he could make me lose without fighting.



He fell silent, but his hand had already left my legs and was resting on my arms.



“What do you want to eat?” He asked, softly.


I can’t blurry the dirty thoughts in my mind. I just kept my face blank since I didn't want him to think it was his manhood that was on my mind.


I can’t imagine seeing it and…even eating it. He is so huge and big. I've seen guys in other countries, but it was only Kairus who didn't make me look away.


He’s good in action and words. I can feel him everything. He's good, and if it's not already doubtful, many girls offer for him. He's never been in show business, yet his name is already everywhere. Many people fantasize about him. Several women desired him more than gay guys.


He is good fight. He is a good one to risk, and… I suppose I overestimate him. He is the best, and simply having him is a huge win. Never a loss.



I gently lean my head against his left bicep. He tried to move closer so that I could lean comfortably.


We do grow at a breakneck pace. I didn't notice the passage of time, and all of a sudden, everything is already change.


Just having his flesh contact mine brings me peace, and before that? For the most part, everything seems to be wrong and disgusting. And touching isn't already making me feel cold. It doesn't feel wrong in the least.


The sea is already engulfed in darkness. There are no stars or moons yet. Light is provided by the brightly calm and smooth waves. It's quite romantic to sit and listen to unexpected things or random stuffs.


I have a lot of questions for him or things I want to understand about him that are either new or that I didn't know about.



“What is your plan after this?” I asked him. He stayed deafeningly silent. I'm curious whether he has any specific plans. I'm certain by that time we will be stranger again.


I'm caught between wanting the day to go slowly and wanting it to go quickly. Whether we travel quickly or slowly, we will always arrive on time that destine for us.


I thought Kairus wouldn’t answer. It's a difficult question. I'm not asking him to let me sway or even be a part of his decision.


I gazed at him as he cleared his throat. He seemed unsure or afraid to say it.

"What about you?" What is your plan? What will be our plan?" He said softly.


Our plan…our plan…our plan.



He smiled, trying to protect my world. “I’ll let you decide. And…I’m wishing if you would allow me to stand behind you.” He uttered.



Stand behind me? What does it mean?



"I've seen you work hard for this brightest light," Kairus says, as though he witnessed my progress from the beginning to the end. Kairus is holding my hand. "I'm not going to be the guy who dims your light." I...I'll be the person who stands behind you and watches you achieve your goals. I'll keep an eye on you and stay close behind you. I will watch you, and stay right behind you.”


I watched his eyes. He smiled and placed his other hand on my jaw. He gently strokes it like it was his favorite part. "I know I'm not the only guy who wants to have you. There's a race going on, and I'm in it. I don't walk, jog, or run with them. I'm just trying to close the gap behind you. You'll run, and I'll follow."