Chapter 52

No such thing as right or wrong. All I could think is this crazy feelings, the excitement, the aching, and his breathing. We are already here.


His kisses went from my mouth to my jaw.


Oh, damn! I can feel him a lot in between!


I pursed my lips and shut my eyes. I was about to open my mouth but Kairus returned to my lips and hungrily claimed my mouth once more. All I could think about was giving him a kiss in return. I was so weak, and so crazy…so crazy to kiss him back ten times his kisses.


I did, and I did again and again!


He halted. He placed his forehead lightly against mine while keeping his nose in contact with me. I gently opened my eyes to find him smiling as he looked at me.


I couldn’t smile, and even I would, I think it would turn into sexy grin. I don’t like it.



I fix my gaze on his gorgeous eyes.


”Do you like it?” He asked. The fire that had just destroyed itself was rekindled by the chilly and warm tones in his voice.


I remained silent. It was already too much, and I know that even if I respond to him, he couldn’t hear me. I’m so weak inside.


This is the reason why I don’t want to go to his room! Just thinking about my feet went to his property, will go already insane!


My gaze shifted to his lips. I bit my lower lip as my shaking hand inched closer to his lips.


I smiled. It was incredibly soft and and so tender. All I wanted to do was taste it.


In between, Kairus whispered, "I'm an addict, too." This is why I've been so distant in the past, he said as he drew nearer and snatched a kiss from me. You have me in a bind. I want to have you all to myself.



He slowly sighed. We were both aching for something. I can hear his breathing, and I can feel him down there, more.


I know that I’m not a Filipina and given by my nature, I should be more advance but I feel like I was born ages ago. I’m scared. I’m thrilled. I’m excited. I don't know, but all I want to do is beg.


Touch me….


"I'm sorry for not asking you," he murmured, and then slowly tried to walk away. I stopped him. I grasp both of his shoulders. He stopped. His lips parted My eyes were begging me to say it, but I couldn't.


And, all I could see is fire on his eyes as well.


Fire, fire, fire. Fire erupting from my body, soul, heart, and eyes. I yearn to feel his touch. I want him so bad.

My eyes stopped to his lips. We know that we want it. I couldn’t say it. Something moved there as I heard his labored breathing. The longer we wait, the worse it gets. It hurts more now.

He dropped his lips to my forehead.


“Fuck,“ He cursed. is lips touched mine before I could raise them to him. Finally, Kairus kiss me again. This time, tasting every edge of my lips.


“I have no plans on leaving you.” He declared.



I know. It was me who have plans to dump you.


His kisses became more aggressive as I started taking off his shirt, which I liked. I’ve been curious to this…to him, then might cure this curiousity of mine.


We made a loud noise that filled the room. My hands were touching him all around, as if I owned the space. I own him. Like he is entirely mine in every way.


Perhaps I did this evening.


The first time I saw him, I know that there’s something with him. I found myself drawn to him. I was attracted to him in different ways. He was the first man I met with a dark side, one that said, "Go piss me; you'll regret it," not in a particularly ominous manner, but it still gives me the willies, chills and excitement.



Every night, I had dreams that were exclusively about him, and the more I ignore them, the more they will bother me whenever I have a moment of free thought. I could imagine myself giving up to him. I only think foolish things to him. Despite working with several men, I couldn't help but look for him.


My eyes will always seek him. I’m attracted to him inside and out.



He is dangerous and out of my league in terms of status, maturity, and age, even though we don't have the same hobbies or traits. But for him, my rock heart did once break and ignite. It shattered, and created fire for him.




I give up, and tonight I'm yours. I'll taste you all the way down to your soul. I will remember this night, and will never ever forget this that…I feel it completely…that… you were once mine.




His lips moved down, then toward my throat. I followed him. He licked his tongue along all of the corners as he closed his eyes. licking and tasting it as though it were his favorite beverage. Not wasting any drops. All must be tasted on his damn good tongue.


Indeed, tongue is the most flexible part of the body. It does not only eat real food but it also tasted unexplainable kind of food. Even after everything, it didn't even feel tired.




I smiled. Fuck, I will never regret this.



I gave everything to him. As I previously stated, I won't regret it. Do I regret it? My answer is, no. I felt safe with his strong embrace. He was clutching me so tightly that I thought he didn't want me to let go or go anywhere. He seems to be more scared to let go more than I am.


I am not scared of him leaving me. I even wanted to see him after this. What will he do now that I have surrendered to him and given everything? Will he abandon me and walk away? I’m hoping to that too.



His boobs were also lightly brushing mine. I'm already exhausted, yet I couldn't fall asleep. I enjoyed seeing how our bodies were touching and singing together.




After the sex, then what’s next?



I slowly closed my eyes, and moved towards him. I thought that I only want his body but I didn’t know that I wanted his embrace, too.


Kairus pulled me closer to him. Even though I gave him a very close hug now, and I still don't think it was enough. I yearned for his tender touch. I want more.


“Need more?” He asked as he gently brushing my hair.


I nodded to him. I can’t explain but I just want to feel him while I want to close my eyes When he carefully pulled my arms away from his waist, I pursed my lips. I can see the disappointment in my eyes.



It's over now, right? is the end?



I was going to leave with a sorrowful heart when he stopped me and said, "What are you doing?"


He made a small chuckle. "I feel like I'm beyond the grasp of your tiny palm, all of it. So, this huge hand will embrace you," he whispered softly before embracing me in both arms.


He was on top of me, and now I'm underneath him. I didn't feel his weight as he was supporting himself by placing a hand on each side of me. I gave him a hug while grinning and slowly wrapped my arms around his frame.


I suddenly feel as though he is mine.