Chapter 49

Chrissy
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I allowed him touch me. I can't believe that I could not push him away, I let him take the chance again. I'm always failing that inc it's about Dayle. What am I doing? It's wrong but it doesn't feel wrong to me, yes, I really love him more he knows; but I'm trying so hard to balance the whole thing. I didn't think that living with Dayle would be such a teaser; I can't solve a single brainer.
The only thing that interrupted Dayle and I was Dom’s call, he was on the way to meet us and so we had to stop. Everything. I'm ashamed that I couldn't stand on my word, what if Egan finds out? What if the world knows that I love my stepbrother—who is also my first crush? I thought that it would end last night, I jept fantasizing over Dayle and the way he made me feel, it was almost like I didn't have sex with Egan hours earlier. How much of a bitch am I? I'm going to avoid Dayle by all means, I won't let him take pleasure and I hope not to give in every single time.
I'll fucking try even if my body is strongly opposing.

**Flashback**:
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“Teach me how to hate you and I'd do it to end this... If not, we are going to be doing more of this...”

“Exactly. You can't make me un-love you, no one can. So I'm going to love you the way I want, however, I please, whenever I want because you love me too. You can't deny it. You love me, Chrissy, you fucking do!”
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**Flashback ends:**

I have to remember those words, how do I digest them all?
Gosh!!! My fingers comb my hair softly while I attempt to focus on the books in front of me instead. I'm having Physics test in about an hour time.
My phone vibrates at once, it's a text and so I pick it up to know who's texting. It's Ken.
*Step out of that nerdy hole, we have to talk!*
*Now, Chriss!*
I sigh. What again Ken Salazar, what's the matter with him now?
I gather my books and tuvk it into my small bag like a robot that is being controlled,
I head out while adjusting my plaited skirt, it pisses me off most times.
I sight Ken from a short distance, he's focusing on his cellphone. I start in his way. I tap him from behind and he nonchalantly replies.
“You are just as harmless as a Bunny, you can't even startle a rat!” he teases, I punch his arm playfully. We share a hug, it's more like I needed to feel how warmth somehow. I mean, Ken means of everything to me.
“I have a question to ask best friend and I’d love it if she answers me sincerely!” he starts with a serious tone. My fingers tighten their grip arond the straps of my bag, I'm typically sweating inside of me. I nod positively to his demand.
“Great. What's going on between you and Dayle?” he asks. My heart drops on the floor in shatters, did he find out? And even if he did, how did he find out? What happened? I'm staring blankly at him while he awaits my responds. I wish I know what's running through his mind...
“Chrissy Horton. Theodore. Inclusive. Hwt is going on?” he asks again. I know that look, he is not beginning to suspect me.
“Uh... Erm...” I scratch the back of my neck nervously. However, scoffs with a smirk.
“Okay. Just that? Stuttering?” he asks one more time and proceeds. “Did you go through your socials this morning? The blog?” he asks and I nod lightly. No. I take out my phone and hit Instagram, I see series of videos. Egan and Dayle got physical and it’s really bad. I exit and turn to Ken, has scoffs again.
“I had... no idea—”
“I'm not worried over their asses but for the fact that YOU—my friend is the center of the commotion makes me worry. What happened? Why are you the cause? Did something unpleasant happen last night during your date with Egan or what fuvkibg happened?” he asks looking overtly concerned. I heave a deep sigh and start walking off slowly, has falls into step. This whole situation of confusion, love and lust is trying my nuts beyond normal. How do I tell Ken that I love Dayle more than Egan and we made out last night after we left Egan’s house? How?
“Chrissy, your silence is deadly. What the actual fuck went wrong?” he pulls me to face him. We both halt. Tears fill every corner of my eyes, I try hard not to start tearing in front of him or anyone. “Thats not gonna help unless I learn the truth!” He adds
“K- Ken it's nothing, I mean... It's just that... I don't know how to start!” I tell him but he death stare is dipping my skin. That a NO from him. “Egan was about to take me home and Dayle stomped in on us—he took me home!” I tell him again
“Just that?” he asks, gosh, does he know? “I don't think that's it, what happened on your way home?”
“Nothing!”
“Nothing?”
“Yeah. Nothing. What will possibly happen?! It was tense between them and that's all...” I am defensive over my lies
“Okay. I agree, that's if you're telling the truth. Maybe you should ask Dayle or Egan what os actually happening—that’s if you don't know!” he says and I remain silent, I use my index to wipe the tears hanging on my temples.
“C’mon baby, don't tear up! Come here!” he pulls me in for a hug, I tell him that I promise to be doing just fine. “I don't want them picking on you if eventually things go south, I won't take it, you hear me?! It's okay baby, let's get some chops before Physics test, okay?”
“What will I do without you, Ken? Nothing!” I tell him as soon as our hug depletes and he smiles at me, wrapping his around my neck as storm off.
I ask of Ellen since I hadn't seen her and he says that she's with Max—they are probably studying together. He raises a question about me and Molly, to know if she's been acting differently towards me but the answer is simple. No. She's weird but not towards me.
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We enter the cafeteria but something weird is happening, students are recording me, I started blankly at them.
“Just don't worry about them, every Hemsville student wants a blow up on their pages. You're trending bissh... Billionaire Daughter, Chrissy!” Ken teases and for that moment, I overlook the wannabes around here.
“Did you and Egan hit that bottom?” he asks and I shyly giggle, I know what he means. “Oopsie! Don't tell me that you're still a virgin? To this day?!”
“I'm very embarrassed right now!” I laugh but he propels me to tell him right away. “We crossed—I mean, I crossed th bottoms last night. It hurts!” I add and he blows a trumpet playfully.
“Was he gentle with you?”
“Very. Gentle. He's sweet. No doubt!” I sum up
“I'm proud of you girl, I'm excited to know that it’s with someone you love. It matters!”
“You sound like Mom right now?!” I tease and we crack up. I start telling him how it went, just the basics but not the entire details and of course, not the scenario with Dayle. Ken would hang me alive.

We depart for the test, after it was done; I get a text from Egan but that's when I realize that there had been a series of text some last night. Fuck. He's going to be super mad.
*Baby, did he drive you home safe?*
*Is he pestering you????🤨*
Within the space of ten minutes,, another message followed.
*What did he say to you??*
*You are not replying my texts, that means I shouldn't bother asking after you.*
*How do you feel? Are you okay? I'm fucking worried? Do I need to drive down to see you?*
*I love you Chriss, I'm fucking worried!*
Then back to the present one, they just entered.
*Really? Are we strangers now?*
*We have to talk things thru!!!😡*
I place my hand flatly on my forehead to catch some air, I hit the keyboard to reply.
*I'm SO sorry babe, where are you?*
I start walking to my locker, I tuck in some textbooks and take out two textbooks.
Ping!!!! My phone alerts me.
*I'll be at Court!*
*K!*
I reply him and turn to my locker, I lock it up and attempt to leave but Steve is standing in front of me. If I can clearly remember, we spoke the last time Dayle got hit. He doesn't like me that much and so I'm surprised to see him here.
“Hi Ste—”
“I'll walk with you to the court.” he interrupts before I complete my statement. He looks both mad at me she calm but no way, this guy is someone to look out for. No two ways. We start walking. Students are shocked and so am I.
“Did you come across the new trendy video?” he asks boldly and I nod lightly.
“Yeah. Not quite long!” I calmly reply him.
“Great! Did you like it?” he asks and we both halt in front of the entrance to the basketball court. I swallow up the invisible lump in my throat.
“I... I can't like it, I don't know what happened—” I start to explain but he interrupts again.
“Thats the problem Chriss, you know nothing. You always don't.” is he being far as or rude to me in a stylish manner? My brows tilt. “Yeah! My best friends clashed because of you, they mostly do and it's affecting me and our entire friendship.” he stops not to eventually yell, he seem to have regretted his incapability to press his anger management towards me. “Look, I've never liked you until the day you saved Dayle from that dickhead, I just got to see you differently. But you are the reason they clashed today which got out of hand and they may be suspended for that... It's not your fault I know but you can fix it. Like I said, it's affecting me and our relationship—i mean there are certain things that bound to remain silent.” he stops
“What do you mean? You said it, it's not my fault, and so what do you want me to do?” I calmly ask and he purses his lips staring at me. He has a lot to do but he's isn't saying them.
“Please, don't breakup with Egan and don't Ignore Dayle. At least, until the end of the semester...” he says and I'm fucking confused
“Steve what's—”
“Just please, fix them. There's going to be such trouble if you don't! Just think about it. Please, Chriss! And... Neither of them should know that we spoke, not to worsen things.” he rubs my arm lightly before storming off.