Chapter 38.

Chapter 38.
Amelia’s POV.

Clover didn’t come home last night, I went to bed shortly after Ella did and Clover never came home. We’ve been sharing a room since I showed up and she comes back every night so I wonder what happened, I hope she wasn’t hurt.

I get up first thing in the morning when I hear the babies through the monitor, I grab my robe going down the hall to unlock the nursery noticing the doors ready open. After everything that’s happened Ella feels more comfortable knowing no one can get to the babies besides us, I walk in seeing my mother leaning over the crib picking up River.

“Hey I was just about to come grab them.” I say picking up Olivia and taking River from her as I go downstairs to get their bottles started, I’ve gotten pretty good at carrying both girls at the same time. I mix up the bottles as my mother comes up behind me catching me off guard.
“Please let me help Amelia.” She says as I continue what I’m doing.

“Ella asked me to watch the girls when she works so that’s what I’m doing.” I answer coldly turning to go back upstairs after finishing what I needed to do in the kitchen. I hear my mothers footsteps follow up the stairs after me. I place both babies in the cozy pillows on the floor as I sit down to feed both of them, my mother comes in silently as she begins pulling out clothes for the girls.

Not wanting to spend the day with my mother I finish feeding the girls and change their bums before letting her take over, I walk back downstairs and out to the garden subconsciously as my mind wonders in my thoughts. Once outside I take a deep breath as I feel my lungs tighten, my heart feels like it’s going to explode and I can’t get a deep breath.

I sit on the ground calming myself down after my panic attack as I faintly hear Clover giggle, I stand up following the sound to find Clover pressed up against the wall laughing with some guy.
“So this is where you were all night?“ I say sarcastically walking up to her as she turns to me still laughing.

“Amelia! This is Finnegan, he’s a wolf that came in with the new pack.” She says getting lost in his eyes the same way Ella does with Collin and I realize he’s her mate. I make small talk with Clover and her new mate before leaving to spend some time alone.

I don’t know what my purpose is here, everyone is finding their mates except for me and I’m still just alone. I may no longer live in a dark room by myself but I’m still alone. I spend the day sitting in the garden basically trying to hide out until it’s almost dark and I’m ready to go back inside. I see my mother leaving the nursery as I’m going in.

“I just put them both to sleep.” She states as she passes by and I nod closing the door behind me. I sit down on the little couch laying back allowing my body to relax, I guess I dozed off because I wake up to River crying. I Pick her up so she doesn’t wake Olivia and bring her to the kitchen. I gently bounce her to calm her while I keep making her bottle when the door opens behind me startling me.

“Oh hey, I thought I heard you get up.” Ella says softly coming to take the bottle from me.
“Yeah I was asleep in the nursery and heard her cry so I took her before they were both up.” I answer as we walk up to the nursery. After we get River back in bed Ella decides she wants me to join her outside.

Opening the front door I am hit in the face with cool night air, it smells like pine trees and fresh cut grass. We walk out in to the garden and find a spot to lay down together, looking up at the stars while the moon shines down on us brightly.
“Do you think I have a mate?” I ask softly as Ella rolls towards me quickly before answering.

“Of coarse you have a mate! we all do, why would you think you didn’t?” She says squinting her eyes at me as I feel shame wash over me.
“I’ve spent so long feeling alone, I guess I just accepted it at this point.” I answer shrugging my shoulders making a frown cross her perfect porcelain face.
“Amelia, you’ve only been apart of the real world for a few months, you need to give it some time. You will find your other half when the time is right and you are ready.” She reassures me making me sit back and think.

“Hey, have you changed in to your glimmer yet?” She asks excitedly as her face lights up making me smile.
“No, I’ve been too scared to really use my magic.” I answer and she bursts out laughing.
“What! Why?” She asks and I feel myself blush bright red.
“I just feel like I’m going to do it wrong I guess.” I answer just above a whisper as she jumps up abruptly.

“Ok your magic is apart of you so you don’t need to be scared.” She says pulling my hand to take me with her.
“Feel your magic flow through you, covering your body in a sparkling blanket.” She says as I close my eyes holding both her hands doing as she asks. I listen to her talk and I focus in on my magic when all of a sudden she’s shaking my hands laughing hysterically.

I open my eyes to see huge strands of grass beside me, standing almost as tall as I am. I feel my heart race as panic sets in and I begin looking around at my new gigantic surroundings, I feel a tug on my hand when out of no where I’m suspended in the air with only Ella’s hand holding mine.

My breath leaves me as she continues laughing.
“Feel your magic in your wings!” She calls as I choke trying to breath again, I close my eyes feeling the wind rush over me. I feel my magic and picture it flowing through my wings as my body’s thrown forward and I open my eyes frantically.
“Not as hard, you need to control the amount of magic you use so you don’t throw yourself around.” I hear her say as I try again, focusing my magic to slow as I begin to feel my wings softly flutter behind me.

I open my eyes noticing Ella’s no longer holding on to me and I swallow hard looking over to her.
“See you’re doing it.” She starts laughing again as I feel a huge smile cross my face.
“Ok but how do we land?” I ask giggling happily while she flutters around me in circle’s.
“Later, right now just enjoy the freedom.” She takes off ahead of me and I force my magic through my wings harder making my body fly through the night faster.

We spin and twirl chasing each other through the forest till we start to realize it’s getting light out, we land on a huge tree branch as I sit down exhausted.
“We should head back and get to bed for a few hours before it’s morning.” I say between breaths as Ella nods taking off again and I feel like I might die.

We finally reach the garden and shift quickly, I land face first on the dew covered grass as Ella continues laughing at me.
“It hurts for a while, Loral said it will get easier though.” She says as I groan rolling over on to my back so she can help me up. We both go back to our rooms and I notice Clover isn’t home again tonight. I guess this is my room now.