10-Let's Have A Baby

**Zuri's POV**

Sav comes out of her dad's office with a smile on her face, but I can tell she has been crying because her face is super red and her eyes look puffy. I asked Molly the same thing Sav planned to ask her dad, but she said she thinks I should hear the story from Sav when we're alone tonight. While Sav talked to her dad, Molly and I drank some fresh squeezed iced lemonade and talked about random things. At this point, I'm feeling kind of anxious. Molly goes up to Sav, gives her a big hug, and tells her how much she loves her. Then she turns to me and does the same thing and her dad followed behind her with the same gestures and affection. We are both so blessed to have parents that love us unconditionally.
I wonder if Sav will end up wanting kids too. We always told each other that we are enough. Adoption is always an option, but what if I want to experience pregnancy and child birth? What if she would want the same? With me going back to college and Sav about to start her career, I know now isn't the right time and paying for an insemination for both of us would be rather pricy. My mind is all over the place today. I woke up with marriage on my mind, then get to work and a huge opportunity is waiting for me, now I'm thinking that I more than likely want to give birth to a baby at least before I turn thirty. After thirty-five, you have higher chances of complications. And what if Sav isn't on the same page? I would never force a baby on her if she doesn't want a baby. She already said she would be willing to marry me if that's what I wanted, but is that what she wants? I wouldn't want her to resent me because of all the sacrifices she makes to see me happy. Tonight is going to be full of hard conversations.
We say our goodbyes, get into the car and drive home. I'm glad the ride is short because it's an uncomfortable silence the whole way home even though we are holding hands. We walk into the apartment and as soon as I shut the door she says, "Come shower with me, please. Then I have so much to tell you."
I hug her close and say, "I think that sounds good. Today was much bigger than we anticipated, wasn't it?"
"Yeah it was for sure."
We take a shower and, like always, I wash her hair and body and she washes mine. We shave, rinse, dry off, rub each other down with lotion, and put on some oversized shirts and fuzzy socks. We haven't had dinner yet, so we ordered Chinese for delivery. We went ahead and started talking while we waited for our dinner to arrive. Sav told me everything her dad told her and by the end of it, I'm wiping away tears. I knew I would end up crying because I saw how Sav was affected when she walked out of her dad's office. After hearing everything her dad said, marriage is for sure a goal for Sav and me. Now that we're certain about marriage, there is another issue we need to discuss.
"There's something that crossed my mind today and I want to know what you think." I said.
"Okay I'm all ears." She said.
I take a deep breath and start my rambling. "I see the way our parents love us and a part of me wants to have that one day. We've always been so content with just each other and we never really talked about having kids because we can't just make love and have one ourselves. Then, adoption is an option, but I wouldn't have my own experience with pregnancy and breast feeding and all the other things that come along with motherhood. I kind of do want to have a baby at least before I'm thirty. I just don't want to force a baby on you and it end up breaking us apart."
It's like I can see the gears turning in her head as she thinks about it. "I wouldn't be against us having a baby. We will have to think about insemination and prices. It's more expensive, but if I could put a baby in you myself, I totally would." She says with a wink.
I grab her a little too aggressively and squeeze her in a tight hug. "Thank you, Sav. You're seriously the best thing to ever come into my life."
"The feelings are mutual, babe." She kisses the top of my head.
Another idea flashed in my mind and I almost brush it away, but Sav and I are pretty open minded.
"I might have an idea. Just be honest about whether you're down with it or not." I said.
She chuckled a little and said, "Hit me with it."
"So, we've had fantasies about sharing a man right?"
Understanding flashed across her face and she responded, "Go on."
"Maybe we could try something like that in real life. It doesn't have to be a commitment, but maybe we could get lucky and find a super laid back guy who wouldnt mind giving us a baby and then once I get pregnant the guy won't have to stick around. We always said we wanted to experiment together and this could be our chance."
"That actually doesn't sound like a bad idea. It'll be way cheaper than a sperm bank, plus knowing the man personally would be convenient in a phyical way and I'd hate to have sperm from an ugly person, as bad as that sounds. So we get married, get pregnant, and take it day by day, right?"
"Right. What could go wrong?"
"A lot could go wrong." She says with a short laugh. "But we'll be careful and think things through step by step. Anyway, let's have a baby."