35-I’ll Kiss You When I Want

**Saviera's POV**

This massage chair feels so good on my back and the nail tech is working her magic on my feet and legs. It's nice being out of the apartment and spend quality time with Zuri after all the stress and crying. Zuri and I are both getting a simple gel manicures and pedicures instead of getting acrylics. I'm getting a blood red and she's getting a soft pastel pink. I check my finger nails to make sure they aren't messed up.
"I'm so glad you declared a girl's day. I didn't realize how badly I needed it. Let's do lunch before we get ice cream. I'm starving." My stomach started growling mid sentence.
"Yeah I could go for some food too. None of us ate this morning." She pointed out.
"I haven't really been eating as much as I used to because this nausea makes me feel horrible. I wonder if it'll stay like this the whole pregnancy." I sure hope it doesn't. I love food way too much.
"I'm sure it'll get easier the farther along you get. Anytime you get a crazy craving, just tell me and I'll make sure you get it." She smiles at the thought of feeding me crazy foods and it makes me smile too.
"I'm gonna hold you to that." I respond. "So what's the game plan?"
"What game plan?" She asked.
"Are we still going to be living together? Or were you considering other arrangements? I would really like for us to stay at the apartment together still."
"Oh that. I honestly didn't put much thought into it. I guess we can still keep the apartment that way if something doesn't work out with Daveed or Rory, we would still have a place to call home. I do plan on staying with Rory majority of the time though, of course. I love the clubhouse and everyone is so welcoming." I forgot for a minute that Rory stayed at his biker clubhouse or whatever.
"That would make sense. I'm scared for us, Zuri. It's like one minute we were untouchable and the next minute we shattered. I didn't realize how fragile we were." I still love her just as much as I love Daveed. I know she loves me too, but I feel like she's putting a wall up instead of embracing what could be with us.
"We weren't fragile, Sav. We still aren't fragile. We're taking on new emotions and trying to figure out where we fit. This is just a small bump, is all." She responded.
"A small bump is forgetting to pay the water bill. I know me getting pregnant wasn't part of the plan and I know I was irresponsible, but I really thought we were going to make it through anything." Maybe this isn't the right place to have this conversation, but I can't sit on this while it's so heavy on my heart.
"So I should just drop Rory before I even get the chance to explore what this connection is between us? While you and Daveed build a family and live happily ever after? You know I love you so much and this is not how I thought our lives would play out. Rory isn't the type of person who shares his woman with other men and I'm sorry, but I'm not going to jeopardize what I might have with him." I know I'm being selfish. She would resent Daveed and me if I don't be more understanding.
"I understand. It's so hard for me to not be selfish with you and it's weird because seeing you and Rory look at each other the way you do doesn't bother me. What bothers me is I have to lose you for you to have that." An idea forms in my head. "You said Rory won't share you with another man, but did you ask him if it would bother him if you and I were still together in a way? I'm sorry, but keeping my hands off of you is not easy for me and I know it isn't easy for you either."
"I honestly haven't talked to him about that. I'm not really sure what he would say and to be real I would be too nervous to ask something like that so soon. We haven't even had sex since the first time." Her nail tech finally looked over at my nail tech and said something, but his accent was too strong for me to understand. I'm sure they're enjoying the juicy conversation.
"If he was open to us still making love, would you still let me love you?" I might as well give them a proper show. Zuri starts to grin.
"Have I ever been able to resist your love, Sav?" She makes a fair point, "I'm just trying to do everything right."
"We'll take our time and let you and Rory explore whatever it is between you two, but I'm still going to kiss you when I want. Rory can fight me." I think that's a good compromise.
"Okay. You can kiss me whenever you want." If she was close enough, I would kiss her right now. The nail techs are finished with our toes and we're gathering our stuff to pay.
"So, on to the next topic. Does the motorcycle club have some badass name, like Hog Riders or something?" Zuri laughs and nods her head.
"Yeah they're called 'Silent Aces'. This club is filled with perfectionists and very wealthy people, but they're super secretive. Rory isn't the only doctor , but he's the only one who doesn't go by a nickname."
"That's really cool, actually." A whole club made up of successful men and women? I can see why she loves being there.
We get into the car and I glance into the back seat before I put on my seat belt. I think I'm always going to do that now. Zuri and I go to a little diner to have breakfast for lunch. I order french toast, sausage, bacon, and cheesy scrambled eggs with a chocolate milk. I fucking love breakfast, but obviously right now I'm not always able to eat. Since I'm not feeling sick at the moment, I'm smashing. Zuri just orders two pancakes, a side of mixed fruits and an iced water. I can count on her to always be the healthy one.
I texted Daveed to let him know where we went to eat and he responded with 'Yeah I know, I can see you'. I look out the window and sure enough, they're eating at the competing cafe across the street. I texted back and said 'The place you chose has roaches'. I don't know if they really do, but now he's going to be paranoid.
"What are you cheesing about?" Zuri asked.
"Daveed and Rory are across the street and I told him they have roaches just to gross him out. I'll have to tell him later that I was just kidding." I wouldn't want to unintentionally give that place a bad reputation.
We get our food and eat it so fast, you would think we haven't ate in days. I basically haven't, so I guess that's fair. We pay and leave the tip.
"So where to next?" She asked.
"I'm surprisingly too full for ice cream now. Would you mind going back home? I'm feeling really tired." Between being stuffed and not getting the best sleep recently, I'm exhausted. I texted Daveed and told him we were going home for a nap.
"A nap does sound like a good idea." She drives us home and as soon as we walk through the door I'm ready to strip and throw on a t-shirt, so that's what we both do.
We crawl into bed and hold each other close, facing each other.
"Sleep tight Zuri. I love you." I whisper.
"I love you too, Sav." She whispers back and I kiss her sweetly on the lips. She's the one who deepens the kiss and I hear her softly moan.
I know she's feeling what I'm feeling. The same spark I get from Daveed and the same spark she gets from Rory. It's a fucking fireworks show between the four of us. I just hope none of us get burned in the end.