74-Another Try

**Saviera's POV**

"You've healed perfectly. If you want to be sexually active again, you're safe to do so." Doctor Ramirez finished with my post-birth check-up. "I would suggest being easy getting back into it. Your body has gone through major changes."
I feel like I've been waiting for this day my entire life. No one warned me about how much the healing process sucks and the insecurities a mother feels when looking at her body. I never want to come off as insecure because I always believed confidence makes a person much more attractive. Zuri and Daveed still look at me with lust in their gaze and tell me how beautiful I am every day. I simply do not feel it anymore when I look at myself. I used to love my body, and I had no problem showing it off. Now I have stretch marks on my stomach and legs. I do not rock my mom-bod the way Daveed rocks his dad bod.
We get something quick to eat and go back home. Being out in public for too long makes me paranoid, and I feel as though someone is following us. I feed Jilly, bathe her, and put her to sleep in her crib. I keep the camera in her room pulled up on my phone to watch her closely while I sit in the other room.
"Would you and Daveed like to get cleaned up and put on comfortable clothes? I'll stay with Jilly until you're both finished," Daveed kisses her forehead.
"Yeah, we can." She must hear uncertainty because she wraps me up into her arms.
"I'll be in the room with her the whole time, I promise." She thinks I'm worried about Jilly while I take a shower, but I'm scared about tonight. I've been looking forward to making love to them again, but what if something happens while we're busy?
"I know, I'm not worried about that. I just can't help but to stress about tonight. I know we've been waiting for so long to make love, but I don't think I could do it while worrying about Jilly being in another room alone." I never thought I could feel so much fear for another person's life. I've always been super protective over Zuri, but having Jilly here has intensified my protectiveness.
"I will be with Jilly while you and Daveed get some alone time. I already planned for that tonight because I'm honestly not in the mood. I want to relax." Poor Zuri has been feeling pretty irritable recently, and the boys have grown so much.
"Are you feeling alright? We can relax with you tonight, so you aren't alone," I want to make sure she's feeling okay. Her due date isn't that far away now.
"I'm fine, don't worry. I only feel like hanging out with our baby and elevating my feet. You two are well overdue for some time together," She isn't wrong.
"Okay, as long as you're feeling fine." After a quick kiss, Daveed and I make our way to the shower. I hate that I don't look forward to being completely naked in front of him like I used to. I haven't been showering with them since giving birth to Jilly-Bean, and I get dressed faster than I used to so I can cover myself. I can't wait to get pregnant again because I didn't mind having a big belly when I was growing our child. I'm not a fan of having a gut. However, Doctor Ramirez said she recommends giving my body another five months to recover before getting pregnant again. I might have to ignore that suggestion.
Daveed is already in the shower, adjusting the water. As soon as I join him, he has his hands on my body. It was easy to get in the right headspace because my body ignites under his touch. I'm nearly begging for more as he kisses down my neck and slides a hand between my legs. He lifts me with ease, and I wrap my legs around his waist. We kiss like it's the last kiss we'll ever share as he slowly lowers me onto his length. Thank goodness we're wet because this is painful.
"Be easy, please." He isn't used to taking it easy with me, so I felt like I needed to let him know.
"I'll be easy." He leans my back against the wall and goes a little slower, going slightly deeper with every careful thrust. It went from painful to sensual in a matter of seconds. He has me going wild because he's still moving slowly.
"You can go faster now," I try to grind down against him, but he has all control.
"I want to last as long as I can. I'm not going faster." He stays at the painfully slow pace while I quake with need. I shake as my orgasm washes over me. Daveed pulls out and washes my hair.
"Why did you stop?" I'm sure he hasn't finished yet.
"We're going to hurry up in here because I want you in our bed. I've been dying to bend you over." In only a couple of minutes, we are both showered and dried off. We don't bother putting on clothes for bed. I lie down, and he kisses every inch of me.
"Bend over, Sav." His voice is strained, and I know his hunger is intensified. I get on all fours and put my face in the pillow because his strong thrust makes me moan louder each time. I feel him grow harder and longer inside me as he gets more aroused. I forget every insecurity in my mind as he ravishes my body.
It takes me by surprise when he slides out and rolls me onto my back. Daveed looks into my eyes with many emotions, "Do you want to make another now?"
I take a moment to think about how I would feel if I took a positive pregnancy test. I know I would be ecstatic to have another baby.
"I want another baby as soon as possible." With that simple answer, he brings his lips to mine. His hands glide down my thighs, and I hook my legs over his hips. His tongue skillfully explores mine as he lowers his body once more. The love we make is not rushed or desperate. We're making love with the intention to create a life; there has never been a more powerful connection between us before.