29-Irresponsible

**Saviera's POV**

"We forgot the condom." Daveed's voice sounds far away. I'm about to freak the fuck out because how the hell did we forget something so important? Zuri is going to be crushed. How do I even tell her? Shit! Zuri and I never had to worry about condoms, obviously. It completely slipped my mind and I was so turned on. The way he looks at me like a predator makes me instantly wet.
"First thing in the morning we can get the Plan B pill. It almost always works, everything will be okay Sav." I nod my head at least to show that I hear him, but I can't find the words to say what I need to say. What if it doesn't work? There's no way I would get an abortion and I could never give my child away. No judgement to those who do choose those options, but they aren't for me. Zuri is the one who wanted to carry a baby. I'm so scared this might push her away. It's not like it's a small inconvenience or argument. This is major.
"Let's clean ourselves up and go lie down. I'll take care of this, don't worry." Daveed kisses my forehead and leads me to the bathroom so we can clean up.
"What if Zuri leaves me?" I blurt out.
"Zuri loves you. You two are invincible okay? You'll be alright." He reassures me the best he could and we get into bed. Zuri on one side of him and I'm on the other. I've come to another terrifying realization.
I'm in love with Daveed.
The next morning, Zuri leaves for work before Daveed and I wake up. I'm kind of relieved because I'm a coward and not ready to tell her what happened.
"Let's go get that pill before I cry and have a panic attack." I hop out of bed and get dressed in a rush. Daveed gets dressed just as quickly and we go to the nearest pharmacy. I take the pill in the car right after he bought it and prayed to mother Earth.

**3 1/2 weeks later**

I run into the bathroom and throw up as soon as I made it to the toilet. Daveed and Zuri rush to take care of me until I have nothing left.
"You must have a nasty stomach bug. I'll go buy stuff to make you soup. Daveed, help her into bed so she can rest. I'll be right back." Zuri kisses my forehead and leaves in a hurry. I'm a horrible person. I still haven't told her about that night because I'm so scared to lose her and now it's even more real because two days ago I took a pregnancy test and the results couldn't have been more clear. Daveed and I are having a baby and I don't know if Zuri will want to have anything to do with it.
Daveed helps me clean up, I brush my teeth and go to our bed.
"We have to tell her, Sav. The longer we wait, the worse she'll react." He gets in bed with me and holds me.
"What if I break her heart? I love her so much, Daveed." The last three weeks have been so stressful, but despite the situation Daveed still makes love to us with so much intensity. He makes sure to give special attention to both of us, sometimes together and other times individually.
"If it was my place to tell her, I would have already done it babe. You know I support you no matter what, but Zuri deserves the truth and it should come from us together. At the end of the day, you and our baby is my main priority. I care about Zuri a lot, but things changed when we saw that positive pregnancy test." Daveed has been a lot more possessive since we found out we were expecting and it's been hard for him to not make it obvious. To be honest, the caveman that comes out of him when no one is around turns me on. The way he takes control without being toxic is impressive.
"I'll tell her today. You're right she deserves more than this. We've really fucked up, Daveed."
A flash of hurt crossed his face before he could control his reaction. "I don't have any regrets. Once we get this off our chests, you won't either."
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you. I don't have any regrets either, I just should have told Zuri sooner."
"Should have told me what?" We both jump at the sound of Zuri's voice. She came in so quietly we didn't even realize she was back already.
"Come here babe. There's something we need to tell you. Just promise to hear me out before you get mad at me please." I know it's selfish to even ask that of her. She will have every right to hate me.
"You're scaring me, Sav. What's this about?" Zuri gets up on the bed next to us.
"A few weeks ago, Daveed and I had sex and in the heat of the moment, we forgot the condom. It happened so fast and we got too carried away. The next morning, I took a Plan B pill but it didn't work Zuri. I wanted to tell you sooner, but I didn't want to stress you out for no reason if the pill worked. I'm also terrified that you're going to leave me." I try to rush the words out so I could fit everything in with one long explanation.
"You're pregnant?" She asked. I can't tell if she wants to kill me or not.
"Yeah. I'm pregnant, Zuri." I feel the tears start rolling down my face.
"How could you two be so irresponsible? And then to leave me in the dark about it? Sav you know you can always be honest with me, but this? This is a whole different level of disrespect. I need some space." She stands up and walks towards the door.
"Please don't leave. I never meant for this to happen and I really need you." I pleaded.
"This changes everything, Sav! A baby? With someone who was meant to be temporary? Do you love him?" She asked.
I can't lie to her. Before I can even give a response, she reads me like a book.
"You've fallen in love with him. And where does that leave me?"
"I'm sorry, Zuri. I know this is a lot, but we can work through this." Daveed chimed in.
"I'm not interested in what you have to say." She fires back at him. He looked like he had something else to say, but changed his mind. Zuri has been through enough as it is and fighting with her would make this worse. She turns her attention back to me.
"I'm still in love with you, Zuri. You've been my everything since the moment we met."
"Maybe that's where we went wrong then. We never gave ourselves the chance in the real world and look at where it's gotten us. Just because we love each other doesn't mean we were meant to be together. We were playing it safe with each other all these years. At least now we know and we don't have to waste any more of our time. I'm glad we did this because we learned that we need more than just our love. Were we ever truly satisfied? Would you be satisfied if we stayed together and Daveed was no longer in the picture?" She's firing these questions at me that I didn't even think about before.
"I know we're meant to be together. I know I couldn't imagine doing life without you. It's not that we weren't satisfied, we just didn't experience everything that we wanted to. Daveed can stay in the picture and the three of us can make this work. We can all be a family. You can still have a baby when you're ready." At this point I'm desperate, grasping at nothing. Now I'm volunteering Daveed to stay with us and give Zuri a baby too, but I never even talked to him about it. I'm just hoping it's something he would be willing to do.
"Just give me some time. This is too much for me to make any promises. I'll be staying somewhere else for a few days." Zuri walks out without packing any bags.
Daveed holds me while I cry for the next few hours, occasionally comforting me with his words. Finally, I had no tears left and I drift off to sleep.