40-Get Her Back

**Saviera's POV**

My doctor's appointment is only an hour away. I texted Zuri to see if she was still going to be there and she said she would meet me there. I can't wait to see how my little bean is doing and I get to see Zuri. I miss her like crazy, but I don't want to overwhelm her. I know she's doing what she needs to do so that she can make the right choices for herself and I have to respect that, even if I don't like it. Daveed had to go to the university because his class had a final, but he should be back home any minute. He brought me to the apartment this morning so I could grab some more clothes for his house and take a proper shower before the appointment. It feels weird being alone in the apartment and at first, I was kind of scared. Daveed insisted that I go with him to the school, but today is way too busy and I have to start living like a normal person. Sometimes, I will have to be alone. I'm still not ready to leave the house without someone with me and I haven't driven my car yet either.
It's crazy how much a dead man and a man who has no access to me can still control so much of my life. Maybe it isn't them, but the possibility of others like them doing the same thing. Who else could I have pissed off that could want revenge on me? I don't go around and treat people badly, but I will always stand up for myself and for others who don't have the courage to do it. That alone is enough to make an enemy, apparently. My anxiety starts to kick in and I have to breathe through it.
Daveed finally walked into the apartment and I instantly feel relief wash over me.
"I'm so glad you're finally back!" I groaned dramatically.
"I told you to come with me." He pulled me against him with a tight hug. "You are so stubborn."
"And I told you I had to get a proper shower and shave before I go to this doctor and possibly have to sit spread-eagle in her face. She more than likely will do a pelvic exam." I hate pelvic exams. I get one every year anyway just to make sure my lady parts are healthy, but I don't know what difference there will be now that I'm pregnant.
"That sounds painful. I'm so glad I'm a male." At least he recognizes the struggles of a woman.
"It's very uncomfortable and it's not a feeling you get used to. Then there's gyno-rrhea that you have to worry about."
"What is gyno-rrhea? It sounds like an STD." He looks disgusted and I laugh.
"It's not an STD. It's the feeling that you have to go number two when the doctor is doing the exam down there. You don't actually go number two, but you really feel like you need to. It's not our finest hour, that's for sure." Why not go ahead and keep it real with him? I might end up seriously going number two while I give birth to our child. I read that a lot of women do and now that's another thing I have to worry about. How gross.
"Oh my god. That is horrible! I'm not sure I want to know anything else. Keep those other details to yourself because it's getting worse and worse." He looks at his watch. "Let's start heading out now. We're supposed to be fifteen minutes early."
He carries my bags for me and we're out the door. Daveed's hand holds my thigh while he drives and gave a squeeze when he noticed I was a little nervous. Sometimes I can't believe we are having a baby. I'm going to be responsible for another person's life. This is kind of scary when I think about it that way.
We pull into the parking lot at the same time as Zuri. We get out of our cars and I go straight to her and give her a big hug.
"I've missed you so much." I might be hugging a little too tight, but I don't care. Eventually we let go and I see her face. Anyone else might not notice when she's upset or been crying, but I always notice. "What's wrong? Why have you been crying?"
"I'm okay, Sav. Let's go inside so we aren't late." She tried to brush it off, but she should know better than to think I'll let it go.
"That doctor will still be there after you tell me what's wrong. Daveed, can I talk to Zuri in private please?" He nods his head and goes into the building. "Talk to me, babe."
She takes a deep breath and her eyes start watering again. If Rory hurt her in any way, I'm going to be so angry. "Rory and I just got into an argument and I'm just overwhelmed and frustrated. I can't honestly be mad at him because I can't expect him to ignore his own boundaries just to make me happy. This morning I told him that I'm still in love with you and he said he expected that. But then he asked me if I have any feelings for Daveed. I couldn't lie to him. I told him that you don't have sex with someone on a regular basis and nearly live with them without feeling something. Am I in love with him? No. But of course I have love for him. He didn't like that answer. Apparently, he's willing to be patient when it comes to you, but not when it comes to his best friend. He said he feels like he's competing with too many people for my heart. I feel so bad because he isn't wrong and I think I'm only hurting him while he's bending over backwards to be perfect for me. I think I need to let him go. I come with too much baggage."
I pull her in for another hug, "You don't have too much baggage. You've been put in an unfair situation because of me and I'm so sorry I made things harder for you. I was reckless and I should have done better." I pull away just enough to look her in her eyes. "You are worth competing with the entire world for, Zuri. If that isn't something he is willing to do, then it's his loss. But, like you said, you can't make him ignore his own feelings and boundaries though. Just know that I'm not going anywhere and I'm still very much in love with you too. You, me and Daveed could make this work, I swear. You won't feel like a third wheel, just come back home and I can prove it to you. Please."
She actually looks like she's considering it. After ten painful seconds she says, "Okay. I'll come back home." My heart feels like it exploded from excitement. "But I have to talk to Rory again this evening. This is going to be so hard, but I know it's the right thing. I'm really going to miss the clubhouse and everyone there too. I'm going to cry again." A small tear rolls down her face and my heart breaks for her. I owe her so much for the trouble I have caused her. I wipe away her tear and put a small kiss at the tip of her nose.
"You are so strong. I owe you for all the trouble I've caused you. Whatever you need me to do, I'll do it."
"I can't be too mad. If we had any regrets, then we would be regretting this baby and we can't do that. It may not have been a part of my plan, but what's meant to be will be. This baby is supposed to be here. We wanted to have a baby of our own anyway, right? It might be sooner than we planned and it's you carrying instead, but we can work with this. I was really worried about us being a polyamorous family and feeling replaced. We'll just never know unless we try. I'm ready to try. I miss my girlfriend." I pull her in for a hot and much needed kiss. I've missed her lips and her taste on my tongue. Zuri moans softly as I deepen the kiss. I know some people can see us, but I don't care. I have my other half back and I couldn't be more happy. My mind wonders back to our first kiss. The pure love and raw emotions are even stronger now than it was back then.
We break the kiss and embrace each other once again. "I love you, Zuri. We're going to be the best mommies. Are you ready?"
"As ready as I'll ever be." She takes me by the hand and we ready ourselves for this new experience together. I have my family back and everything is going to be okay.