Book 2 Bianca's Revenge: Chapter 3: Her New Reality

Nevaeh helped wash her up and put her in some clean panties and a robe. When Bianca refused to put on clothes. “I’m not sure if I can do this whole mothering thing, I have no idea what I’m doing. Nor did I have a good role model growing up. Now I’m really scared and just want answers to what the hell happened. After I lost consciousness in the woods with my mother’s lifeless body in my arms. All I remember is seeing you, Breann, and Alex after you all found my mother and I” she cried. Nevaeh tried to reassure her that every first-time mothers were nervous an unsure of things. “The lactating nurse will be stopping by tonight and will be helping you get adjusted to breast feeding for the first time” Nevaeh whispered as she helped brush her hair and put it up into a high pony tail.
Bianca was becoming confused again when Nevaeh told her about the lactating nurse coming to show her how to breast feed. She whispered back not wanting anyone to overhear her “What do I need a nurse for, what about you all who’ve been feeding them since they were born? Can’t you all show me instead.” Nevaeh laughed as she opened the bathroom door and helped Bianca back to the bed. While everyone was watching and smiling wanting to know what was so funny. Alex, Bonita and Tyler were still there holding and talking to Sydney and Victoria. Bianca reached the other glider chair in the corner next to the crib concentrating on breathing. Along with the pain that was now raging through her veins. “I wanted to apologize for snapping at you all..” Bianca whispered as she finally caught her breath. Everyone told her it was fine and that it is was to be expected. After what she had just been through in the last month.
Bianca sat and just watched as everyone held her son and daughter like it was no big deal. “I’m going to do this, I’m not going to be my mother…” she muttered to herself as she felt her heart skip faster and faster just thinking about the how. Bianca stopped gliding in the chair and told Tyler to bring their daughter Victoria to her. Tyler smiled and slowly walked to Bianca with their daughter close to his chest. “Just cradle your arms like I have mine and I’ll lay her in your arms” he said as he slowly placed Victoria in her arms. Then waited to make sure things were going to be ok. Bianca did what Tyler said and as soon as he placed Victoria in her arms. Victoria started to move and get upset. “Just relax B, they can feel your anxiety…” Tyler whispered as he got down on one knee. Bianca let out a deep breath and a couple tears before trying it once more. “Ok what is her issue now? Does she need to be changed, fed, tell me please….”
Bonita told Tyler to get back to the other Glider and relax. Bonita didn’t move just gave Bianca her space and spoke gently to her. “Bianca honey, just close your eyes and connect with your baby. Then when that happens you’ll know what to do.” Bonita got up only to lay Sydney in his crib next to her. Bianca did exactly what Bonita asked and a couple minutes later Bianca had calmed down and so did Victoria. She slowly angled Victoria close to her chest and Victoria began to make suckling sounds. Bianca opened her eyes and could see that her breasts were leaking. That Victoria was suckling her fists as they became damp with milk. “Okay baby girl mama understands you’re hungry. So let us see what we can do by ourselves without instructions…” Bianca said softly as she opened her robe and exposed her breasts. She slowly and carefully held Victoria’s head and body with one arm and picked up her breast. Then slowly inserted her nipple into Victoria’s mouth.
Bianca forgot about everyone who was in the room. She didn’t really care as she started the bonding process with her new born daughter. Victoria had finally closed her mouth as she became calmer and started suckling away. “Omg….ok this is different and feels so weird but so natural in a way…” Bianca whispered to herself. She watched has her daughter was really moving her little mouth. Then at the same time relieving the pressure that had been building. Victoria started to cough a little telling Bianca she was taking in too much too fast. “Ok angel slow down, this is new for the both of us. So together we will do this nice and slow ok” she whispered. She sat Victoria up just a tad to have a better angle at eating and tried it again. The more she watched Victoria the more she started to relax. Also to get into the fact she was now a mother and it was all sinking in. All at once to the point it brought tears to her eyes. She hated showing that emotion to anyone. She just wanted to be the strong mother her children deserved that she never had growing up.
10-15 minutes later Victoria stopped sucking and started to fall asleep and whine a little. Bianca was trying her best to figure it out on her own. “Ok, now what….” “Burp time!” Tyler stepped up and softly spoke trying not to over step. Where Bianca might not want him or anyone else to be. Bianca listened but didn’t look up keeping her eyes on Victoria. Then softly moving her from her position to over her shoulder. Then softly patting her back like she had seen in the parenting books. All at the same time Tyler was directing Bianca and telling her step by step even though she was already doing it. “Now just tap lightly but firmly, and if that doesn’t help it out rub from bottom to top and ease it out that way” he suggested. Bianca had the hang of it after a few minutes, Victoria was relieving herself. Along with a little present that ran down Bianca’s back. “Ummm okay now either my boobs are on my back, or she just spewed down it” she commented. Everyone in the room broke out into laughter knowing that Victoria had given her mother a present.
The audience had still been laughing and Bianca kept making funny faces. Unable to comprehend how much liquid could come out of something so little. “She threw up…. Wow ok well I guess the shower doesn’t make a bit of difference does it?” she sighed. Tyler shook his head “Yes a lot of liquid, but it’s pretty normal, she probably drank too fast” he guessed. Bianca was starting to feel a little overwhelmed with everyone still in the room. She finally looked up at the father of her children. “So now you’re a baby whisperer are you now Ty?” she asked in a sarcastic tone. Tyler was feeling just as drained if not more and got real close to her face and gave it right back. “Nope far from it trust me these last 4 days have been crazy” he hissed. Alex told his son to back up out of Bianca’s face and with a little huffing and puffing he did so. Bianca got a little upset at first but refused to let it show. “I don’t even know what day it is or what my children’s birthdays are… so spare me your B.S. Ty..” she reminded him.
Tyler sat next to Bianca’s side on the floor hoping he could comfort her in any way possible. So, he started by rubbing her legs. “Well today is December 29th and the twins were born December 25th. So, there for we now have Christmas babies” he informed her. Bianca started to cry just a little and softly whispered “Christmas Angels.” Bianca brought Victoria forward and cradled her on her lap laying her in her hands. “They are so little still, how were they able to come home so soon. Do they have any health issues?” she demanded to know. As her emotions where starting to have an effect on not just her children but the entire room. “Bianca….Bianca calm down they are both fine, yes they are little but healthy” Bonita and Alex promised in unison. Bianca slowly grabbed Victoria’s lower calf with her other hand and slowly got to her feet. “I can do this I want to put her down and change her. Especially now that she is starting to smell like pooh and pee” she muttered. Bianca gave a little chuckle as Tyler slowly moved out of the way and watched as she did her thing.