Chapter 4 Where the Nightmares Wait

Once inside she closed the door and turned on the lights waiting to find her mother passed out on the couch, but to her relief there was no one in sight. She headed to the bedroom to drop off her book bag and headed back to the kitchen to start on her chores. She was hoping to be home alone for the rest of the evening without any drama from her mother or anyone else who might be visiting with her mother. She had finished up the last of her chores and was just starting to search for what she was going to eat for dinner “maybe just a sandwich tonight” she whispered to aloud. After searching the refrigerator and cabinets she decided on a pb&j sandwich and a nice tall glass of milk.
Pulling up a chair at the kitchen table with her dinner and a glass of milk trying to get her head wrapped around all the events that had happened during the day. “What the hell am I supposed to do about my damned mother and her inviting people over on Saturday, oh yes now of course there is Ty who wants me as a damned girlfriend too. That is one thing that will never happen I will never be some ones possession to use and abuse.” She finished up with her dinner and headed for her room to start on her homework, with it being already 7pm in the evening and still no sign of her mother. “it looks to be that mother will be out for the evening, thank goodness I’ve at least dodged that bullet.”
She grabbed her bag off the ground near her desk and took out her assignment that needed to be done before Friday, but the kind of student Bianca was she had all her assignment done the next school day and well that’s only because it kept her out of trouble and anyone raising an eye to what was going on at home. 3 hours later Bianca was startled by the front door swinging open and hitting the wall behind it, without another thought she ran to see what the hell was going on. When she emerged from the hall way she found her mother stumbling in, “what the hell ma where have you been I assumed you’d be out for the rest of the evening.” The only sound that came from her mother was hysterical laughing and swinging of her arms, and the smell of alcohol on her breath. Not wanting to ask any questions afraid of the answers she helped her mother to her master bedroom and to the bathroom to get cleaned up.
While in the bathroom helping her mother into a bath, she turned away to finish gathering her mother’s cloths to take them to the laundry room and put them in the washer. After returning to the bathroom exhausted and fuming with anger now that she had to deal with all this and with it being already 10:30pm, she just sad down the edge of the bathtub and stared at the woman she called mommy. She grabbed her mother’s hand and waited for her mother to show her some kind of acknowledgement, after 10 long seconds her mother opened her eyes and looked at her daughter. “why do you do this to me mom, leave me here worried about you all night, not knowing if and when you’ll be home I’m to damn young for all this shit.” Her mother just looked at her with sad tired eyes, and Bianca knew right now was not the time to question her mother and since her mother never gave her answers all the times she’d sat in the same spot helping her mother.
She grabbed the loofah and the homemade milk and honey soap to wash up her mother, once she was scrubbed and clean she washed her mother’s hair with the same gentleness a mother would do for her child. Once again Bianca’s mother Anastasia opened up her eyes to find her daughter looking at her with disappointment and anger in her eyes, I’m sorry baby girl, I know that you hate seeing me this way.” She spoke in a whisper. “I just hate seeing you this way ma, I just want you to get better and out of this life”. Her mother just looked at her with a smile and all the while shaking her head “NO”.
As anger rose in her chest Bianca screamed out “What the hell are you shaking your head no for, you like living this way? Being some one’s personal property to use and abuse all they want.” By this time Bianca was shaking to the core and filled with so much anger and hate towards her mother that she knew she needed to walk away and go back to doing her homework and then to get some sleep as much as possible. All she wanted was a good night sleep and to forget about everything that had happened and the way the beginning of a crazy week that would only get worse she feared. She finished cleaning her mother up and got her settled into her bed, with some hot tea and her laptop she’d asked for. Her mother just smiled at her and blew her a kiss when she had looked quizzically at her mother and thought it be better not to say anything at all.
Once her homework was finished she’s started to get ready for her shower she had ran over all the evens of the day through her head, Tyler, her mother showing up at school, Tyler again taking her to Lake Monroe and his undying affection for her, and again her mother after she thought she’d have at least one night alone without any complications. As she stood under the water she heard her bathroom door open and a few minutes later Marco was in the shower with her. “What the hell are you doing Marco, get the hell out”, she said with anger. “Oh no you whore I own you now and you will always be”, he replied. As bile rose into her throat she closed her eyes and prayed that this was all just a bad dream that she would wake up from. As Marco stepped closer and grabbed her by her wrists she knew than that in all reality this was not a dream that she’d wake up from, but a nightmare that was all too real. He put his lips to her throat and pushed her up against the wall of her shower. “omg, if only I was stronger to fight him off, I could kick his ass and get him to leave us alone” she screamed to herself.
Marco grew harder and thicker as he felt all over her body. “oh you feel so amazing you little slut, and you are going to enjoy every minute and every inch of me.” He whispered in her ear. As he promised he fucked her hard, long and fast all while she silently prayed for it to be over. Once he was done he slapped her in her face and smiled a cold heartless smile and left. She sank to the floor of her shower and cried until she couldn’t cry any longer. She didn’t know how long she had been setting there, but knew she needed to finish washing her body and get to bed. She didn’t know if she could even stand so she stayed sitting while she finished up her shower. Turning off the water and opening up the curtains she saw that Marco had left her money on the edge of the sink.
After drying herself off and putting on her night clothes she stood in front of her sink and looked into the mirror. With her eyes puffy and a red hand print on her face she looked down at the sink where the money had been laid. Picking it up and counting it she couldn’t believe how much it was. “$500 fucking dollars” she spluttered out. “what the hell does this mean now”. She brushed her long beautiful hair and brushed her teeth. She wasn’t sure what would be awaiting her on the other side of the door in the dim light of her room. Her heart was racing as she came around the corner and to her amazement she was alone. She fell to the ground weak and just laid there for 5 long minutes hoping the ground would just swallow her up. Her mind racing she crawled her way to her bed and up on to her knees to open up her night stand to find the stash of the morning after pill.