How to Convey

*Chapter 116*

"Novalie, please don't leave me... Please come back to me."

I instantly opened my eyes and gasped for air. The first thing I saw was Frederick's crying face. "W-What...?" I immediately clutched his collar, gasping more for air. I felt like I was drowning in the water and I desperately needed some air.

"You're back!"

"Darling..." I hadn't analyzed my surroundings yet when Frederick hugged me. I roamed my eyes around and saw that I was not in our chamber. I got distracted when I heard Frederick sniffing. I distanced myself away from him and held his face. My heart was feeling broken seeing my darling smeared with tears. "Frederick..."

"My goddess..." Frederick said. There was worry expressed on his face. He helped me drink some water.

After that, I didn't wait for anything and smashed my lips against him. I had missed him so much. I would just ask him later as to what happened but I wished to let him know that I felt the same way... that I had loved him, too. I wished to spend the rest of my life with him.

Frederick... The one who understood me the most. The one who watched over me these years to love me silently and endured those years I had fooled around with different men. Him...

Atticus Frederick de Carteret...

My prince... My darling... The man I loved.

Through the kiss, I expressed how much I loved him. I felt the same intensity through Frederick's kiss before he slowly parted and held my face, looking at me lovingly which made my heart skip a beat.

"You have me worried, Novalie... I missed you so much," he said softly which made me purr when his thumb was caressing my cheek.

"How long am I sleeping?" I asked as I placed my forehead on his.

Frederick breathed as he cuddled me inside his arms. "Whole day, sweetheart..." he whispered and hugged me so tight like he never wanted to let me go. "Please... Don't ever do that again. I thought I lost you."

I looked at him, confused. "I only spoke with my mother for a long moment and I already slept for the whole day?" I asked, ignoring what he said earlier. I would highlight that later. For now, I was dumbfounded that I found out that I had slept for the whole day.

I closed my eyes when Frederick kissed my forehead. "Luna Queen Rachelle explained that the time in the celestial world is different in the mundane world. It also depends on how the Moon Goddess runs the time there. You might stay there for a short time but in the mundane world, it costs a day already. Or vice versa," he explained.

"I see..." I licked my lips when I remembered something. "Mother said that She spoke with Alpha King Azarius not to punish you, Frederick." I held his face, looking at him, worried. "They did not punish you, right? Please tell me they did not touch you..." I looked into his forest green eyes.

Frederick sighed and nodded. "Indeed." He smiled when he saw me and I sighed in relief. "It was the first time Brother Azarius had spoken to the Moon Goddess. Usually, the Moon Goddess would really communicate with the Alpha King who is said to be the bridge between the celestial world and the mundane world."

I nodded my head before I drew closer to him. "I'm glad that you are safe, darling..." I sighed in relief, hugging him more. I wanted to let him know that I also worried for his safety.

"I always keep safe, Novalie. Just for you..." he whispered while his hands were gently caressing my flanks.

"I love you, too, Frederick."

What I said made Frederick stiffen. When I looked at him, I saw his eyes widen in surprise. I could even hear his heart pounding so loud. I chuckled seeing that he didn't expect that I would finally admit my feelings for him.

I knew that he had been wanting me to reciprocate the feelings he had for me. But he never pressured me. He was patient and all. He wanted me to fall for him naturally.

What he didn't know was that I fell for him.

I am ready to reciprocate the feelings he had for me.

"Aren't you supposed to say something, darling?" I asked, grinning. I obviously caught him off guard right now.

Frederick blinked, dumbfounded. He snapped back and looked at me intently. "Did I hear those words right?" I nodded my head. "You... love me, too?" I nodded my head. He looked shocked, still in the process of the words I uttered.

I took his hand and placed it on my left chest. "You should know by now that I am telling the truth, Frederick. I cherish you and care for you." I drew closer to rub my nose to his cheek, purring. "You are my first love who broke my heart but still the one who mended it." I sighed softly, having a hard time conveying my feelings for him. I'd rather want to show it in action but I didn't want to confuse Frederick anymore.

He needed to know that I was also in love with him and I was ready to make our mate bond stronger than ever.

"You knew that I almost had gone insane when Reginald hurt you. Do you still remember that, darling?" I asked, coercing him to look at me.

"Yes, my goddess..." He stared directly into my eyes, waiting for me to say some words he wanted to hear.

I would be happy to tell him if that was what he wanted. "You're right. I really care for you. I don't want to lose you and I blamed myself that you were hurt because of me." I released a sigh, feeling nervous. I had never been vocal about my feelings yet here I was finally opening up to him. "I almost went insane as well when you departed from the Wall Burgundy pack." I bit my lower lip, halting myself from crying. "I was hurt when you left me. You knew that you became an important person to me yet..."

"I have to leave because the time has come that we have to meet finally, Novalie," Frederick butted in. He gently wiped the tears that cascaded down my cheeks. "Your plans are working and everything has been set already. What we need to wait for is to have it implemented. I know that you don't need me anymore."

I creased my forehead. "How can you say that?" I asked him in disbelief. "I searched for you... You hid your scent..." I started sobbing, remembering how I wanted to see him. "You are the only one I relied my strength on and... you left me..."

"I'm sorry if I did that, sweetheart..." he said softly. He looked guilty with the way he was looking at me. Then he hugged me so tight. "I kept hurting you... I felt bad for the actions I did. No words can justify that."

"Because you are really an asshole," I said in a subtle tone, clutching to his shirt while I was secretly sniffing his musky scent that sent tingles down my spine. My wolf and I really liked how he smelled.

It reminded me of the time I saw him as the special male slave from the Maiden's Lair.

"Yes, I am. I am sorry for that..." He kissed my temple. "Don't worry. You sought revenge on me. You punished me so many times back when I was your slave, my goddess."

I looked up at him and saw his softened expression. "I am sorry..." I uttered. I had hurt him so many times, yes. "I didn't spare mercy back then." I leaned to his touch when he cupped my cheek. "But believe me... there were times that I felt guilty and my wolf would always nag at me because I kept punishing you severely."

"Forgiven, sweetheart." I shivered in delight every time he would address me, aside from my goddess. I felt more special whenever he would say that.

However, whenever he addressed me the latter, I felt more powerful than him.

"Hey..." he said softly and grabbed my attention. He must have felt that I was still feeling guilty for what I did to him back then. "I hurt you. You hurt me. You forgive me. I forgive you. I love you. You love me." He drew closer. "Why can't we just move forward now and continue loving each other, hmm? And make love..." He wriggled his eyebrows causing me to laugh. "Also, the punishment I received from you... I know I am a masochist but... I felt pleasurable. Promise."

I looked at him in disbelief while I had an amusing smile on my lips. "Huh... So, someone is hinting that I must punish this man beside me." I drew closer as I teasingly grazed my lips on his lips. I shivered in delight when he did the same while looking at me lustfully.

I moaned softly when he placed me on top of him. "Then, punish me, my goddess. You can command me to please you while you treat me like a piece of trash," he said dreamily. His hands were starting to wander around my body as he pulled up my skirt to expose my leg, caressing it.

It ignited something inside me as I teasingly kissed his jaw. "How about wearing your chastity belt and not being allowed to come for a week?" I asked.

He growled and frowned, not like my suggestion. I only grinned and gripped a handful of hair. "Novalie..." he whimpered in delight.

"What?" I looked at him in a manner that I was treating him like a useless, valueless individual. "Are you going to defy me, you useless wolf?" I asked in my sultry pitch.

His chest rose up and down. "No, my goddess."

"Good." Licking my lips, I smiled seeing that he was answering me promptly. I lowered my head to descend my lips on his lips. Frederick replied to me with the same intensity as I felt his hands were spreading my thighs so he could place the apex of my thighs in his bulging crotch to let me know that he was already hard just for me.

I moaned inside his mouth and started rubbing my hips against his crotch. Frederick started removing the ties from the back of my dress and exposed my shoulders.

"Darling..." I closed my eyes when he licked the crook of my neck, shivering from this pleasure. "Show me how much you love me, darling."

"Yes, I shall do that, my goddess."

Moments later, we were naked already. I was moaning so loud when I felt his tongue glide up and down to my wet core while I was sitting on his face.

"Fuck, Frederick... You're so good, darling... More..." I said as I rode him.

Frederick held my waist while I was hearing the slurping sound. It was so hot I cummed without any warning. I convulsed, holding myself in the bedstead. I kept riding his face until he licked me clean.

When I got off his face, I grinned seeing his handsome face glistening with my wetness. Frederick was panting before he kissed me deeply until we were out of breath. He went down to suck my nipples and kneaded my breasts as if he was sculpting something.

"Shit..." It was fucking good I didn't know what words I was uttering right now. I forwarded my hips when his two fingers were wriggling inside me causing me to moan more. Then he added more and moved them up and down. "Fuck, darling!"

"Did I please you, my goddess?" Frederick asked in his husky tone as his thumb was playing now with my clit.

I nodded as I opened my eyes to look at him, seeing him covered in beads of sweat. I was panting when I caressed his face. "It shall please me more if your cock is inside me, darling..."

That moment, he smirked. "Thank you for your permission, my goddess..." He raised my leg and placed it over his shoulder. "Please don't blame me if I don't stop now."

"Don't stop..." I bit my lower lip when he positioned his hips in front of my cunt, moistening with the pleasure he bestowed. "Take me, Frederick... Take me and show me how much you love me..."

His hand reached for my breast as he entered inside me. "Let the whole palace hear your moans, my goddess. Because I am not going to stop until I hear your moan my name so many times."

"Oh my god!" I gasped when he shoved his big and fat cock deep inside me, causing me to widen my eyes. I clung to the sheets as he did not allow me to process everything.

Frederick kept shoving inside me until I moaned his name so loud that was enough to hear the whole palace.

Then, I realized what he said. Did he just mean the royal palace? I looked into his eyes when he smirked.

And the answer was there... Oh no!