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*Chapter 44*

With Frederick's soothing tone, I couldn't help hugging him back. I couldn't cease wailing before I felt my feet being lifted. I realized he scooped me in his arms but I didn't halt from bawling.

"Pardon me, Young Master Jonathan, Sir Heimon. I shall take her back to her chamber."

"Um... Y-Yeah, please do. Will Novalie be alright, right?"

"Luna..."

"She will be, my lord. Lady Novalie just needed some rest."

I didn't know what was happening and what they were talking about right now. One thing I was certain of was that I couldn't stop wailing.

Then moments later, I felt the soft mattress on my back and felt the bed sink from beside me. The next thing that happened was having Frederick console me by hugging me so tight.

"I'm here, Novalie... I'm here... You are not alone anymore. I am here. I am not going anywhere anymore. I am not going to leave you just like the last time I did. It is so wrong of me to do that. Please... Please don't come to think of killing yourself. I am not going to handle it if I get to hold your lifeless body. I sacrificed everything just so I can be with you again. I am not going to let you suffer anymore. This is because of me... I should have not broken you... I am very sorry, sweetheart. I really do..."

I buried my face to the crook of his neck, seeking his warmth. I didn't know what he was saying right now. All I sought right now was comfort.

I didn't know how long I cried but I kept hearing Frederick who kept whispering sweet nothings to calm me down. But along with it, he showered me with some affectionate kisses on my whole face like I was the most fragile precious item he had in his collection.

I realized later that I slept from crying and woke up seeing Frederick's handsome face. I rubbed my eyes together, feeling how heavy my eyes were. My nose was getting clogged as well.

"Would you like to eat for this supper, my goddess?" he asked softly when I got up and went to wash my face.

"I lose my composure... Damn it..." Frustrated, I combed my hair to face myself in the mirror. I realized how stupid I was from earlier for the sudden outburst. "Argh!" I stomped my foot to the floor, half-annoyed.

"My goddess..."

"What?" I barked and glared at Frederick's reflection in the mirror.

"May your anger dissipate," he uttered as he gently bowed his head.

I averted my gaze as I glared at myself. I couldn't believe I lost my composure back then. That was so wrong of me.

I recalled that I discoursed with my wolf and was so annoyed at her. My annoyance piled up as I got impatient at Jonathan's reply.

"Damn it... I feel so vulnerable..." I murmured, wanting to clutch my hair from my roots. Then I glared back at Frederick who was still lowering his head. I squinted my eyes at him.

Him...

This was where everything got started. It was from him.

Because of the absurd reward he wanted from me.

If I accepted it, would it turn out differently? I wouldn't have to argue with my wolf, right?

I inhaled and exhaled, calming myself. Novalie, this is not you. I don't act rationally. I must remain composed. Think of the consequences of your action. I chanted to myself.

I faced Frederick. "Kneel and present yourself to me," I commanded in my icy tone.

I caught him shivering before he started undressing. "Y-Yes, my goddess." He knelt to the floor and presented himself the way I taught him the first time he came here to my chamber.

"Bestow your belt to me." I opened my palm.

His eyes widened. But he decided to pick it up and carefully bestowed the belt to me. I almost laughed when I saw the frightening expression coming from him but there was something in his expression that made me want to punish him—his desire for me.

I rolled the belt to my hand and tested its suppleness. "Do you know why I am suddenly doing this, darling?" I asked solemnly.

Frederick flinched when I hit the edge of the belt to the table. "N-No, my goddess," he uttered nervously. "H-Have I done something unpleasant?" I heard his gulp, still his eyes on the floor.

"Yes. Very unpleasant. It caused distortion to me."

"Distortion?" He looked up with a perplexed expression. "I-I don't understand, my goddess. I have behaved..." he retorted nervously.

I smirked. "Cute. But I don't believe it." He flinched again when I hit the table. "Did I even tell you to look at me?"

He immediately lowered his eyes to the floor and flinched when the belt hit the table again. "I-I'm sorry, my goddess!"

I smirked. I approached him and hit his arm. I saw him gnashing his jaw as he flinched at that hit. "Do you wish to be punished even if you did not know what you had done wrong?" I asked as I fisted his hair so I could compel him to look at me.

He exhaled sharply looking at me like I was the most desiring woman he had ever seen. He gulped and opened his mouth. "Yes... my goddess... If it will please you, then I shall receive the punishment. After all, I still deserve to be punished because of my actions before."

I arched my eyebrow and gripped his hair more causing his face to be contorted with pain. That pleased me before I released him and took the ropes to the drawers of my bedside table. I looked and saw Frederick did not dare to turn his head as he patiently waited for me to approach him again.

"How shall I tie you?" I whispered in his ear causing him to have goosebumps on his arms. "Shall I spare you, darling?" I teasingly grazed the rope to his shoulders. With my action, Frederick inhaled and exhaled before I heard his gulp.

"I... I do not deserve to be spared, my goddess. I have been a bad boy to you," he stated as his breath was shaky.

"Oh?" A sly smile appeared on my lips realizing that Frederick had so much improvement in our playtime. "Stand up," I commanded.

I halted in front of him and held his cock which he groaned in pleasure. His long, alive, pulsating cock was under my hand. It reacted to my touch when I started stroking him.

"My goddess..." he whimpered as his face was flustering right now. "W-Will you allow me to cum this time a-around?" he asked in a difficult tone.

"Hmm... let's see..." I hummed as if I was thinking about it carefully. "No."

He groaned in disagreement when at the same time, I ceased stroking his big cock. I stepped forward and made him look at me.

"Your reward," I paused. Frederick snapped back and became attentive.

"Y-Yes?"

I pulled him to sit down on my bed. "Is that really what you want?" I asked and caressed his cheek using my knuckles.

Frederick locked me in between his legs, indicating that he would never want to let me go ever again. "Yes, my goddess. That is truly what I want," he said in conviction. "I wish to have a date with you." His voice sounded hopeful.

My lips curled up into a furtive smile, caressing his cheek. "I will accept it in exchange that we will have our playtime on that day. Will that be enough bargain for you so you can have a date with your goddess?" I asked in a sultry pitch.

I heard his soft gasp as he gulped. "P-Playtime?" His face looked frightened but excited at the same time. But his olive orbs pierced on me. "W-Will that please you, my goddess?" he asked, hesitant. "If I accept it, then will you have a date with me?"

I traced his sculpted face like I was brushing my paintbrush and painting him to a new canvass. Each stroke of my fingers made him shiver as I saw goosebumps rising on his arms. Even his cock was begging for me to be touched which made me more aroused.

"Yes, darling." The moment I said that I could hear my wolf snort. She was suddenly feeling bitter at my change of behavior but it pleased her because I finally accepted the reward Frederick wanted from me.

I bestowed him with my hand. Frederick took it and placed it on his cheek while looking at me like I was the only goddess he had been asked to be saved. He looked like a cute puppy with his expression right now.

"Is that for real, my goddess? You are not going to change your mind, right?"

Ah, Frederick. You looked so adorable yet that kind of expression you had right now was making me inflict pain on your face. I wanted to say that to frighten him but I was still adoring his expression right now.

I nodded, brushing his lower lip with my thumb. "I am looking forward to our next playtime, darling. We will do the date you want. However, I have no experience of dealing with this kind of dating since I never experienced that," I said, castigating myself that I really allowed the dating with Frederick.

I freaking had no experience dating any man. What I only knew was what was to enter in different arranged marriages due to my father's influence.

His beaming face almost blinded me. He looked like a puppy that was so happy that he had been granted a bone. He held my hand. "You will never regret your decision, my goddess! I am happy to hear this!" With that, he cupped my face and kissed me for a second.

My eyes widened. I was stiffened as I felt my heart freeze at that sudden movement from Frederick. He must have realized what he did when he saw my expression. He suddenly removed his hands from my cheeks and knelt. Then he placed his forehead on the floor.

"P-Please forgive me for my insolent action, my goddess! I acted on my own accord without your permission," he said with his voice quivering in panic.

I stood up and took his robe. "Stand up," I commanded.

"My goddess..." He looked hesitant but he stood up.

"Kneel a little." I helped him get dressed in only just the robe. "The furnace hasn't set on fire yet. So, it is still cold. Let's get you dressed up." I tugged him into my walk-in closet.

Frederick was watching me getting him dressed up even though his cheeks were tinted in red. I could already surmise that he was questioning himself again why I was the one serving him when he was supposed to be the one who must serve me since he was my knight.

But somehow, he looked merry. It was not because I was helping him to get dressed. It looked like he was delighted because... it was me?

Frederick lowered his head as he let me pet his head. "Good boy," I said, sighing. He melted at my compliment. "Also, one more thing, darling." I used my hand to hold his chin.

I ignored how my heart reacted when our eyes met. I also couldn't ignore how gorgeous he was right now with his new knight uniform. I could command him to fuck me while he was in his uniform.

"Yes, my goddess?" He had a perplexed expression.

"What happened earlier..." I wanted to remind him about my sudden breakdown. My emotions had been piled up ever since my wolf and I conversed and exchanged a few conversations which failed me to calm myself after my wolf was daring me to reject Frederick. "Thank you for consoling me, darling." Sighing, I tiptoed to kiss him.

I might not be able to recall the soothing words he said to calm me down but whatever it was, it really helped me to calm down. I wanted to deny that being in his arms made me feel safe but at that fleeting moment, I felt that I could rely more on him.

He was the only person with whom I could allow myself to be vulnerable even if it was just a moment because I felt like he could be trusted.

Frederick gasped softly. It didn't take long for him to respond back as he kissed me back passionately causing my stomach to flip upside down. My wolf was feeling skittish as she urged me to return the same fervor Frederick was doing.

But as he entangled his hand around my waist and his other free hand was at the back of my nape, he deepened the kiss which made me feel alarmed and felt delirious right at that moment.

It somehow implied that I admitted that I really wanted Frederick by my side.

I gasped and hastily distanced from him at that realization. It suddenly frightened me.

When I looked at him, his wet lips were slightly opened from the infusing kiss we did. His eyes had satisfaction as well. I licked my lips after that, feeling my heart go rampant right now.

I jumped to my feet when I heard a knock. "Luna, supper is ready." I heard Heimon's voice.

"Damn it..." I suddenly remembered about my breakdown earlier. That was pretty embarrassing. I cleared my throat and glanced at Frederick. "We must go now, darling," I said when I stormed out the walk-in closet.

"You are really beautiful, my goddess."

I halted when Frederick spoke out of nowhere. Sighing, I glanced at him with an arching eyebrow. "I already know that fact. Can you not think of something impressive?" I rolled my eyes.

He chuckled. "I shall think of another compliment then. I shall think of something that will make my goddess fluster."

I snorted, looking at him in disbelief. Make me fluster? The hell... This scumbag... "You wish."