Chapter 61

KIRA:

The only thing I can hope for now is that whatever bad feeling that just found its way into me had better be simply a feeling and not something real.

My heart rate has increased rapidly since I started to run off in the direction of the quarters which I was sure to arrive soon. I am suddenly scared that something bad has happened and not just anywhere but in my household.

This had better not be what I am thinking, I tell myself inwardly when I arrive right in front of the quarters which I sight with the door opened ajar. It is the first feeling that something was totally wrong and instantly I barge into the apartment to want to know why the door was left open that way because that has never happened.

Perhaps I should not have gotten in yet. Because I was not even prepared for what I am about to see. And the moment I come in contact with the sight, I instantly become weak to the knees.

My father... My mother. They are both lying on the ground unmoving. And it was not just them on the floor that made me know that something was not right here. It was their bodies in a state that I cannot fathom.

I realize the situation when I see Adam crouched beside their bodies wailing. He was wailing so badly without any sound that I immediately feel a pang in my chest. It was like a tightened bolt that I cannot seem to unbolt. I feel my breathing start to hitch after that.

I cannot stand the sight anymore. I want to let the tears that are threatening to seep out of my eyes but it is difficult for me right now. The only thing I feel like doing now is to leave and that is what I start to do.

I suddenly barge my body into someone while on the way out but I do not even bother to take a look at who it is because my mind is in total disarray right now. I cannot think straight. And I don't think I will be able to if I am still around here.

I finally leave the quarters while walking down aimlessly. I don't even know what I am doing right now. I just want to go. Go far away from here.

“Kira, wait!” I hear a voice reach out to me from behind and I can also hear running footsteps approach me. I think the voice belongs to Kelvin though because of the familiarity with it.

“Stay away from me!” instead of the hurt that I was feeling a few seconds ago, I am suddenly overwhelmed with anger. So much anger that I could let it out on Kelvin if he does get to me.

I cannot hear the footsteps anymore. Means be has stopped trailing behind me. At least gives me a better opportunity to continue with my aimless journey.

Until I find something that would put me back on track, I don't think I will be stopping.

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REID:

Today has been a rough day. And the only thing that I want to do is clear my mind off it.

I am starting to feel the pressure of everything happening get to me. I suddenly feel like this is beyond me and maybe I should have rejected ascending to the role of Alpha when the position had been proposed to me.

What am I thinking? It is too late already to turn back. I took this upon myself so why should I be bothered already? Instead of standing here and letting such thoughts get through to me, I should be thinking of ways to get a better handle on the happenings around the pack.

Still, I want to let my mind be free of the pack for the time being. At least until I get my acts together.

I stand up from my armchair in my study room and start to pace about with no thoughts, in particular, going through me. I am no different from an empty barrel right now. I mean it literally.

When I am fed up with the pacing, I decided to sit back down but this time on the leather sofa. I have the feeling that it would make me feel better. And it sure did after some time of being on it.

“Bryan?” I call out to my wolf, but with my voice when I should be using the link I share with him.

I get an instant response in my head. ‘Yes?’

“What do you think I should do now? I am already out of ideas and trust me it's frustrating to even try to cook up a new one.” I tell him. I know it seems weird now because I look like I am talking to myself. But I want to feel sane right now which is why I decided to go with this approach in speaking with Bryan.

‘Well, what should you do? Do nothing.’

Now that was the most absurd response I would ever get from my wolf. Why would he tell me to do nothing in the middle of a crisis? How does that even make sense?

“Do you care to make sense of what you just said?”

‘Of course, I will,’ he says and then proceeds with that. ‘To start with, you do not need to force things from coming into place. Yes, I know the Elder already told you to make a move in getting the Green Dales pack into making a peaceful pact with you. But now that you have tried to do that, why then do you want to force things to go in place?’

A little confused, I say, “But I never had that in mind right now.”

‘That had been the process of your thought even if it is not in your mind at the moment. Don't forget I can sense the things you are thinking about.’

I sigh. “Alright, I have to admit that I have that in my mind like every time. But how do you expect me to do nothing while my pack members are dying almost every day?”

‘It is not the same as what I am saying. Doing nothing does not mean you should fold your arms while they die one after the other. No, it is about getting your acts together and waiting until everything falls in place for you.’

“And if I am dead by then?”

‘Hope that you do not die before then.’

That makes no sense to me. Instead of getting something from him, I am left with a more confused mindset. I should not have reached out to him for advice.

I have the figure out now how I was going to get myself back on track because the mood I am in now is nothing to write home about for me. I know when things are going really bad.

With my clothing in place, I walk out of my study. I think I have it in mind to go to the back of the quarters but the first thing I need to do is walk out of here.

“You going somewhere?” I hear that, prompting me to look to the side to see Venice, my sister, who is still very much around and poking her head through the door of her room.

I am surprised that she is still around despite knowing how bad things are in the pack. Besides, she told me she was not going to stay up to this day, and yet she is still here. Well, I have no plans to send her away. This is still her home.

“Yeah,” I tell her. “Need to clear my head.”

“Want me to come with you?”

“Nah, I'll be fine.”

I was completely out of hearing after that. Not that I would not be able to hear her speak when she does, but that I was not going to let any of her words get through to me because I have now shut myself away from her. It was the only way I could have my peace without her asking questions.

Instead of going through the main route which would have me pass the living area, I make a turn. The turn was leading me in an opposite direction which is exactly what I have in mind right now.

The instant I get to the door that leads out of here to the back of the building, I swiftly unbolt it, leading me out into the cold hands of the evening.

I feel the breeze take a hood control of my senses and I knew that I needed it the moment I felt it go through me. Felt like my senses were being renewed by it.

Then I start to walk around the yard with the hopes of finding something sublime to do. I have no motive for what to do but I decide to just try.

That is when I finally decide that it was the woods after all that I needed to take a walk through.