Chapter 62

KIRA:

I lean against a tree with my hand. The aim was to rest my weary legs which have been going on and on for who knows when.

“Where am I?” I ask myself while glancing around to make sense of my environment. And after a while of looking, I figured I have no idea of my location.

The truth is that I do not have it in me to think about it as I push the thought of that to the back of my head and then plump to the ground with my back against the tree that I was initially leaning on.

A brief glance around once more while seated and then I decide I should just stay put for a while until I figure out what next I need to do.

I can’t believe it. I just can’t. I still want to tell myself that what I saw was a lie but the realization keeps hitting me over and over again.

How can my parents be dead? How? What could have killed them? They were fine when I left home today. And it did not seem like I would be going back to meet the corpses. Who knew that nature had everything planned out already? Except that it was totally in the wrong way.

I can still feel the knot around my chest. But the problem is the will to cry. I want to let the tears out of my eyes but I cannot seem to get that done because I keep getting angry with myself anything I am almost overwhelmed with the urge to mourn.

I should have done something before now. I was aware that danger was lurking around the pack yet I chose to keep a blind eye to the safety of my family. Look, I did it again. I left my brother all alone at home with no one to take care of him. What if something similar happens to him as well? I know I will not be able to forgive myself this time around.

I suddenly feel numb. Numb in a way that I do not even want to get up from where I am seated. I wish I could just sit here all day and let my anger out because I was sure to vent it on someone else if I come across any other person at this point in time.

What is going on around me? Why did I have to lose my parents? Why? They did not deserve it. They were a simple couple and pack members living their daily lives with little to no hope of a big future. At least they kept on surviving. But what is the point now that they are dead?

I thought the moon goddess was supposed to be protecting those that are hers. Aren't my parents part of them? Or they did not fulfill enough obligations just to be called hers? Because I do not have an idea why she would choose to neglect them when they needed her the most.

Kelvin told me I am special. And what he means is that I am something ordained by the moon goddess herself. Now, why the hell would I want to be ordained by someone who chose to turn her back on me? Never.

My senses start to go on a riot. It was more like a rampage and I don’t know how the sudden urge to get up and so something that I would regret later invades me.

I try to let off the feeling but it is not something that I can let go of just like that. My body seems to be taking a control of itself just like when I had first discovered that I had suddenly acquired a wolf that I never planned for.

Before I knew it, I have gotten up from the ground. I will call my movements an act of spasm because I am not in control of what I am doing at the moment.

And when the feeling decides to take me to wherever it is, I try to fight it off but nothing happens no matter how hard I try. I eventually have to give in to the feeling and hope that I do not find myself in a place that I cannot explain.

Suddenly I am walking aimlessly again. Although this time I know what I am doing but I cannot control myself from not doing it. I was still trying to fight against the feeling even though I gave up earlier but nothing seems to be working.

My body continues to take me to where I do not know of as I go through the thick woods. I start to get scratches on my body from the ticks on the trees but that doesn't stop me from continuing. The only thing I can do is whimper in pain inside my head all the way. A head that I cannot even access Alexia at the moment so I could get a detailed explanation of what is going on.

This is ridiculous, I must say. This is totally not what I wanted when I decided to leave the quarters in anger. I only left because I could not bear the sight and just wanted to clear my head off a lot of things. So why am I in this situation that I did not plan for?

I can hear noises around now. They sound like instructions being dished out to a bunch of others due to the choruses I can hear alongside. One notable thing from all that is the masculinity from the sounds. It is telling me now that I might be coming in contact with the warriors of our packs. What would I tell them when they see me walking aimlessly with cuts on my body? And would I even be able to tell them anything when I cannot even control my speech anymore?

This is a disaster. And it has to stop. I do not want any of this again. I just want to be normal once more. Kelvin should have told me that he did go through such when he newly became what he is. At least I would have prepared my mind for things like this happening to me. But he chose not to say anything and now I am left to carry this burden on my shoulders.

It took a while but my body eventually stops on its own. And it was just after I had made it out of the woods.

I could feel now that I have gained control of myself once more so the first thing I do is to look down at my body and see how many cuts I have received.

Before I could even get a good look at my body, I have noticed already how much damage has been done to my wears. It has been ruined now by the number of ticks that got through to me which I would say was a great lot of them.

Looking at my body in precise, I could tell that it was going to take a while before I get healed from the amount of injury I have sustained. Was even bleeding profusely in some parts now, sending stinging pains up to my body. I just have to bear with it as I look for where I would be able to relax myself until I figure out a way to get myself away from here.

The only available spot I could find that I was sure would not do any harm to my body was a rocky part. It was like a big boulder of rock lying single on the ground and so I make my way to it and rest my back when I get seated on the ground.

Just like when I had regained my senses the first time, I had no idea where I was. Now, this is even worse because looking around, I noticed that nothing about all that I was seeing was familiar. I hope I have not gotten myself into another territory because that would be a huge risk for me. How was I going to escape if that was the case?

‘Alexia.’ I reach for the link with my wolf. At first, I get no answer which makes me anxious. But then, about a minute later of trying again, she finally comes through.

‘I don’t think you should be here, Kira. No, you should not be here at all. This is not the Green Dales!’

The instant she says that I stand up to my feet in haste, not minding the pain that I was feeling from the cuts all over my body.

Taking a good look around, it made sense that this was indeed not to the Green Dales. Little wonder that the whole environment has not been familiar. But how the hell did I leave my territory and find myself in the territory of another?

“How did I get here?” I was asking myself more than I was asking Alexia because this does not make sense to me.

“A better question: How did you find out about this place?”