Chapter 47

Euniel
I came home today very happy. Kissing Muse again was just magical. This girl is driving me crazy. It's decided, it's impossible for me to live without her. I need to end my relationship with Sandra as soon as possible. I must not continue to delude her. She doesn't deserve such a thing. Sandra is a young woman with a big heart. I even engaged her out of pure gratitude. I told myself that she is a good woman and as such, I must not let her slip through my fingers.
Back home, Sandra had already left. So much the better by the way. I didn't want to have to tell him the news of our separation that very evening. I intend to do it next weekend, and in an atmosphere where she will not be very upset. Either way, I know she'll be sad when I tell her. I know that Sandra loves me very much and she will be very affected by our separation. Nevertheless, I want to make the best arrangements so that she doesn't get depressed afterwards. It is therefore on this thought that I find sleep tonight. Tomorrow is another day.
The next day is Monday. As I've become accustomed to, I take my bath when I wake up, then I quickly make an omelet which I eat with bread. I don't forget to have a good glass of orange juice. So I leave the house in great shape. I go straight to my office where a ton of consultations await me. The last few weeks have been pretty busy for me. And so, I plan to catch up this week. From this morning, I start with consultations and psychology sessions without wasting time. I work for quite a while without paying attention to the time that passes. It was around 3 p.m. that my door opened to Nicolas. He walks into my office with both arms full. He's holding two bowls of meals, the smell of which makes my stomach gurgle. It is at this precise moment that I realize that I am hungry.
"Hello buddy!" Nicolas throws me before taking place in front of my office.
"Hello my not friend!" I mumble pretending to sulk.
"What's up mate? Did I miss an episode?" Nicolas asks me the question, pretending not to know why I'm sulking.
"Who do you call your buddy? You're a Judas rather, not my buddy." I retort by continuing with the sulk.
Nicolas burst out laughing when he heard me say that. Coated, he replies.
"I brought you some food and drink. If you think I'm not your buddy, then I guess I'll go home and give it to my real buddy." Nicolas tells me, playing the game.
"In that case, good feet on the road!"
The rumblings in my stomach give me away and make Nicolas laugh at me.
"Looks like your belly and your brain aren't on the same page there." He is ironic.
I reach out and take the bowl of food from the table.
"I thought I wasn't your mate and you just asked me to leave with my meal!"
"We're just having a break for the period we're going to eat. Coated, you become my no friend again."
Nicolas and I start eating. I was really hungry. After a few bites, I tell him
"You broke the code of friendship my man."
"Ah yes? And by doing what?" He asks me, as if he doesn't know what I'm referring to.
"How can you flirt with Muse after everything I told you you feel for her?"
It's true that there was irony in the way we talked, but I wasn't at all proud of Nicolas' attitude. As for, it seems like he doesn't take my feelings too seriously.
"As far as I know, you are greatly engaged with another woman, who you are about to marry. Besides that, you and Muse have never had anything together. Why am I going to prevent me from courting her, if it turns out that she is the woman of my life?" Nicolas tells me with a certain casualness in his voice. That disappoints me a bit, coming from a friend like him. Knowing myself, I would never have done such a thing to a friend whom I consider a brother. I thought we were on the same wavelength, but I was seriously mistaken. So I answer him.
"You're right, between Muse and me, there was never a relationship, but our feelings were linked all this time. And for this reason, we decided to get together."
Nicolas almost swallowed the food in his mouth the wrong way when he heard my last sentence.
"What? How is it possible? And Sandra in all this?" He asks me eagerly.
"Calm down buddy! Sandra and I never liked each other. And you know that more than anyone. I therefore intend to end our relationship." I answer him calmly.
"But that's unfair! Have you thought about her feelings? All the time she spent hoping that you would finally love her, have you thought about it? How can you dismiss her like a rotten old sock, just because Muse is back? So all this time you've only been using it as a spare wheel, waiting for Muse to come back?!" Nicolas inquired, very annoyed. I don't understand his reaction. Even if he doesn't approve of my decision, how does it affect him so much?
"Calm down bro! This is about ending my relationship with Sandra, not you. Why are you getting so angry? What's it got to do with you?"
"It concerns me in the event that it was I who proposed to you to put you in a relationship with Sandra and she is a dear friend of mine. You imagine how devastated she will feel when you are going to put an end to your relationship? She'll feel used by you, then abandoned when the other came back. No one deserves such treatment."
"Thank you for reminding me that you were the one who proposed Sandra to me and facilitated our relationship. However, you seem to forget that it was you who put pressure on me to get in a relationship with her, despite my reluctance at the start. Far be it from me to blame you and divest myself of my responsibilities! Nevertheless, stop playing scandalized if this situation happened, because you knew my position from the start." I tell him without hiding the truth from him. It seems like my words are having an effect on him, as I can see that Nicolas is starting to calm down. So, I take a deep sigh, then say to myself, regaining my composure
"You're right mate! Sorry for getting emotional. I was just trying to put myself in poor Sandra's shoes, even forgetting that you weren't too hot for That relation."