Chapter 74

Audrey
I am distraught. How can Pen do such a thing to me? After all we've been through?! After all the love he sang to me all day long?! I trusted him so much that I would have given him the good god. No, he must be playing a joke on me. I love Pen too much to give up on him. This man, I have it in the skin. My thoughts are constantly on him. Everything reminds me of him. As Corneille put it so well in his book 'Le Cid', "you miss only one being, and everything is depopulated". That's exactly how I feel right now. I have the impression of being alone, abandoned to the world, without anyone. I don't think I'll survive if Pen leaves me. I love him too much, I believe that more than my own person.
"Salvation !"
I raise my eyes, misted with tears, to my sister who has just entered my room. I was so lost in thought that I didn't even know when she entered.
"Salvation!" I responded by wiping the tears from my cheeks.
"I knocked on the door, but you didn't answer. I hope I'm not bothering you?!"
"No, take a seat." I hasten to answer him, while indicating with my hand a place on the bed.
Muse sits down next to me, then observes a relatively long period of silence. She finally decided to break the silence and ask me in an affectionate tone.
"So how are you"
"I've seen better days, but I'll be fine."
To be honest, I didn't think it was going to work at all. I didn't want it to go anyway. All I wanted right now was to wake up and find things the way they were before that incident between Muse and Pen.
"I'm so sorry Audrey! I understand how you may be feeling right now..."
"No Muse, you don't understand anything. How can you understand me, you who always got what you wanted? Everyone has always taken care of you since you were born, while me, no one has never cared about me. I don't exist for anyone. I could disappear from this earth, it wouldn't cause anyone any pain."
I spoke with bitterness. I was sick of it all. I just wanted to rest, to disappear from this world of hypocrites.
"Glad we love you Audrey. Everyone cares about you..."
"No, that's not true! All you care about is advancing your research. As for me, I'm just an asshole. The only person who actually cared for me and loved me , it was Pen. But your fault, he's gone and won't come back to me. The one time I finally felt good with someone and was happy, you screwed it up. "
I spoke with a raised voice. I hated my sister right now. She was the only culprit in this story. It was she who made my happiness soar overnight.
"Audrey, can't you see Pen was using it? He's just some scum who took advantage of your naivety."
"What do you mean by that? Am I not good enough to be loved?" I was offended.
"Of course you are, my dear. You're much more beautiful than you think. That's why I think you deserve better than this... nutcase." Muse replies by finishing the last word with a dismissive tone.
"Well, know that it's this weirdo I love and no one else. Stop smearing his name." I cried out angrily.
"Open your doors Audrey! I don't know. Pen is very dangerous. What man can ask his partner to spy on his family? Why do you think he asked you to spy on us? It's because 'He's steeped in very shady affairs that he doesn't dare tell you...'
"You're lying Muse, you're just jealous that a man like Pen loves me. You want to ruin my happiness!"
"Trust me Audrey, I'm telling you the truth. Pen is a bad guy. He's a rapist, he raped me..."
"Shut your mouth!" I cried out, plugging my ears.
"My sister..." Muse whispered, looking at me in fear.
"Get out of the room." I ordered him in a low voice.
"Please listen to me..." Muse insists, making my anger rise.
"Get out of my room!!" I ordered him in a hysterical voice.
Muse finally resolves to leave my room in spite of herself.
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The next day during the day, I was able to get permission to make a call. So I take this opportunity to call Audrey. I really have no choice. I've been trying to get rid of her for quite a while now, but it doesn't seem like the time to do it yet. When I really hoped to be done with her after our fight last time. Either way, I have no choice but to deal with her right now.
"Hello!" Finally answers Audrey on the other end of the line.
I had to make three call attempts before she picked up. I imagine she must be depressed after I left her. I know she's crazy crazy about me, I managed to do it and I like it.
"Hello sweetheart..."
"Pen? Is that you?" She hastened to ask me, without giving me time to finish my sentence.
"Yes darling, that's me."
"Where are you? Why did you say so many mean things to me last time?"
"Forgive me darling for everything I told you. Forget it all. I've been in the cell for two days."
"What how ?" Audrey asked panicking on the other end of the line.
"Calm down my love, it's nothing. I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry for yelling at you the last time we met. I'm so sorry. I don't have much time. leave alone..."
"Hold on!"
I know what I'm doing. I know Audrey well and I know that she must be in all her states when she learns that I am in prison. It is therefore on purpose that I play on his psychology.
"Which police station are you in?"
"Why are you asking that? I don't want you to come here honey, it's dangerous, especially when you're carrying a child." I replied, playing my game perfectly.
"Please Pen, tell me." She said to me in a pleading voice.
First I make myself pray by making Audrey walk, before finally giving her the address of the police station where I am locked up. She comes back in less than thirty minutes, like a young woman who has lost her husband.