Chapter 65

Muse
I can no longer control my impulses in front of Euniel. I had to control myself for quite a while. My body took more than it could handle. It's just enough that I see Euniel for me to want to jump on him and throw myself into his arms, from which power emanates. It makes me beside myself. I want to kiss him, take his hands off him, caress his manly chest. I imagine myself making love with him. It's torture to see him talking to me, looking at me with his dazzling gaze, being at zero steps and I inhale his bewitching perfume, without being able to snuggle up against him, or even kiss him and end up make love with him. My body rebels at the sight of it. My brain and my body immediately clash at the sight of it.
It was enough that there was this little spark of this evening for our bodies to express their fed up. Euniel was very close to me. I could smell her scent and her breath. From his body emanated a certain heat which was communicated to my body. I wanted him, I wanted him to take me there. As if Euniel reads me, he reaches out with his trembling hand to my cheek and caresses it.
"Euniel..." I whispered as I pulled away from him.
"Shuuut! Let go bae! I need you, please!"
His voice was pleading and his gaze on me burning like embers. As for my body, it was bubbling with desire. I felt a strong attraction for Euniel, which didn't even require my willpower to manifest itself. My body had completely taken over my will. I only heard him crying out to me constantly about his desire for this man who is ready to make me his own on the spot. As remotely guided by a supernatural force, my mouth opens in the direction of Euniel's, inviting him to kiss me. With a quick gesture, Euniel pulls me towards him and kisses me with all the passion in the world. I too respond to his kiss. After a minute, the kiss was no longer enough. Our bodies wanted more. Euniel begins to walk his hands throughout my body whose heat was very high. He begins to lay soft kisses on my neck, my bare shoulders. The contact of his hand on my bare skin produces in me like a big electric shock. With each kiss, I let out small moans. At one point, his hand between under my light dress, then it evolves in its caresses to the level of the breasts. He begins to caress one of my breasts, which has the gift of exciting me madly. With the other hand, he unbuttons my dress, leaving my buxom breasts in his view. He pauses for a few minutes and stares at my chest eagerly. Then, as a hungry falls on a feast table, he puts his mouth on one of my breasts and begins to suck.
"Mmmm Euniel..." I moaned the excitement rising inside me.
"How I love you Muse! I'm crazy about you. I can die far from you!"
Euniel had raised his head towards me and was looking at me with burning eyes. He picks me up and then puts me on the bed. It is now on me.
"I want to love you Muse, to taste every part of your body. You are so beautiful, so delicious! I want to love you, to be one flesh with you. Let yourself be loved!"
Euniel spoke in a voice weakened by desire. His gaze was intense on me.
"Euniel..." I stammered, letting out a moan.
Euniel kisses me, stifling my words. He does it passionately, as if he wanted to drink from me. It is now very close to my body. I can feel his member doubled in size on me. He starts kissing me on my stomach. He slowly descends to my crotch, which is already wet from the desire that Euniel arouses in me. Arrival at my underwear, I stop him before he continues his exploration.
"No Euniel!"
"I know what we're doing is wrong, but I can't help it."
He is right. What we are doing is wrong. God doesn't like that. I decided to dedicate myself to him and as such it is not allowed for us to have sex outside of marriage. I somehow betray my future husband and him, he betrays Sandra who loves him and is expecting a child from him.
"You're right Euniel, my body can't resist in your presence too. I'm madly in love with you. It's enough that you talk to me, that you look at me for me to start shuddering. I would lie If I said I don't love you, but you belong to another woman who loves you and who didn't do anything to us. When we get back, you'll be with her. It's in the same bed. you'll sleep. It's with her that you'll walk all day long. Me, I'll be apart, I'll be nobody. And me, I'll spend my sleepless nights crying and reminiscing about tonight, which is going to hurt me more. Let's not make it harder than it already is. Beyond us, we're sinning against God by doing this."
I started arranging my clothes and putting on the buttons of my dress. The atmosphere was very tense. Euniel also stood up looking disappointed. He stammered to me, looking down
"I am sorry !"
He turned around and left the room. I was left alone, tears streaming from my eyes.
The next morning we boarded the flight back to our city. Neither of us dared to mention what happened yesterday between us. The atmosphere was so tense between us. However, I was in so much pain. It could also be seen on Euniel's face that he felt bad. We both suffered from this situation. Things were always so complicated. Nothing ever went the way we wanted it to. There was always something beyond our control. Why do we have to do what we don't want, give up what is dear to us? Why is life like this? I hated this love I had for a man who was not for me. I hated myself for still loving her. I blamed myself for the fact that, despite all the time that passed, this love seemed to increase even more. Why couldn't I forget her? Would I therefore be condemned to suffer seeing Euniel without being with him? What such painful punishment was mine? What had I done to deserve such a severe punishment? Was it a curse? Where has this beautiful love gone that our parents and novels boast about so much?
As soon as I got home, I headed for my room, saying hello as I passed without glancing at those who were sitting there. As soon as I get to my room, I throw myself on my bed and give free rein to my tears which jostle each other to come out, it seemed like they were just waiting for that to come out. In no time at all, my sheet is flooded with my tears. I feel like my heart has been ripped out. Lying spreading my bruised soul, there's a knock on the door, then it opens. I quickly wipe my eyes, lest I be found crying.
"You don't have to wipe them you know?!"
It was my father who had just come into my room. He sits next to me and looks at me with great affection.
"Dad!" I exclaimed, bursting into tears.
I get up and take refuge in my father's arms. He pats me on the back and says words of comfort.
"My angel, everything is fine."
"Dad, why can't I forget Euniel? Why do I still love him despite all these years of trying to forget him?" I ask my father, raising my teary eyes to him.
"My darling, I don't know what to answer you. But know that this is how life is. Today we have questions and we don't understand why things happen in such ways or in such other ways, but know that you understand much later the why of things."
"Why does God allow me to love him even though I beg him day and night to forget him? Yet he knows how much this love makes me suffer."
"He alone knows why he allows this. But I can reassure you that sooner or later, love always ends up triumphing. Because God never does anything for nothing. doesn't make any sense, but believe me, all of God never makes a mistake." My reassures me.
"I don't see how love can triumph in my case dad, nor how what God is doing to me is logical. Euniel is going to marry Sandra and in addition, they are expecting a child. It is impossible that we end together." I tell him looking pessimistic.
"That, you don't know, my daughter. Only God has the last word on this and in your case, only time will tell what will happen."
"Oh dad, I'm in a lot of pain from this love. I'm in pain... I'd like to take my heart away so I don't have to go through all this anymore."
"I'm sorry sweetheart! Come here."
My father pulls me towards him and hugs me tightly. I really need it, it does me a lot of good.
Sandra
Euniel came home from his father this morning. He looks very affected by what happened. I waited for him impatiently. I came to his house since yesterday, believing that he was going to return in the evening. Of course, I know what happened to her father, because Pauline has already informed me of what she did. However, I have to play the know-nothing to play the game thoroughly.
"Honey, how are you? Where did you spend the night?" I questioned him pretending not to know anything.
"I had gone to see my father."
"How is he? Why do you look so sad? What happened?" I ask playing more ignorant.
"I found him dead." Euniel responds in a broken voice.
"Oh my love! I'm sorry! How are you?"
"I've seen better days. He's my dad after all."
"Is that why you spent the night there?"
"Yeah. We had to do the paperwork and all. Luckily Muse took care of that." He told me with a sigh.
"Muse? What is she doing here?" I ask alertly.
"She came because I called her. I was bad and I wanted her to come." He answers me asshole.
"But you hear yourself talking there Euniel? I'm your wife, but you call her because you feel bad. Why didn't you call me?" I tell him come up.
"I'm sorry, she was the first person I thought of and I called her. Besides, I didn't have the head to think about who I should call."
"And that's supposed to make me happy maybe?"
"Listen Sandra, Muse beyond this rivalry that exists between you, is first of all my friend and I have known her for many years. She understands me and it is vice versa. In addition, I wanted her to be there and that's it."
"But what you're saying is mind-boggling! And when we're married, will you call on her too when you have a problem?"
"I don't know and I don't want to think about it. And you know what, I'm exhausted. I've had a pretty rough night and all I want is to rest and not for you to make a scene." Euniel tells me looking annoyed.
"I'm sorry my love! I didn't mean to add to your pain."
I must be wise not to irritate Euniel. I have to play the one who supports him and understands him.
"Agreed !"
"Do you at least have an idea who shot him?"
Euniel gives me an inexplicable look. What did I say wrong?
"Why are you looking at me like that?" I ask him in panic.
"How did you know my father was shot dead?" He questions Me in a suspicious tone.
Whoops! What did I do?