66- Beginning to heal

Sebastian took the blanket and gently covered them both, they had not said anything after they had given themselves to intimacy. But the CEO was already determined that he would sleep with Helena that night and that would be the first thing he would see in the morning, he had nothing else in mind. Katlyn's reproaches and requests for explanations could wait until tomorrow.
-Emmm, could you hand me my clothes?" the redhead asked embarrassed, covering herself up to her neck with the cloth. The excitement and ecstasy had faded and her insecurities overwhelmed her again.
Sebastian smiled sympathetically and reached for her clothes, which the young woman tucked under the coverlet. The young man wanted to laugh in amusement and exclaim aloud that he had already seen her as God brought her into the world that it was not necessary for her to change by covering herself, but he understood that his secretary was shy, not like many other women he had known, and that made him fall even more in love with her.
-It's just that... it's the first time I've been in a situation like this- excused Helena.
Sebastian made a superhuman strength so that his face did not show an expression of bewilderment and confusion before Helena's confessed confession.
-But... I don't understand," he exclaimed, "Is this your first time?" After the question came out of his mouth he felt like the biggest idiot in the world, "Forget what I just said," he laughed nervously, "evidently it's not," he said looking at the bulge under the sheet.
Helena didn't laugh, and watched his swollen belly biting her lip.
Sebastian felt more confused than a moment ago, had he said something wrong?
-Are you all right? I didn't mean it that way," he apologized without knowing why.
-It's okay... it's just that... Actually, it's my first time," he confessed, looking worriedly at his boss's bewildered face, and he didn't blame him, "At least it's the first time I've done it while conscious.
A dense and heavy silence filled the room, after the confession the redhead remained mute, looking around nervously.

A force had been born from within her that had forced her to spit out those words, she had no idea why she had said it, but she felt as if it had always been there wanting to be vomited out.
On the other hand, Sebastian kept repeating Helena's words over and over in his head, as if he really found it hard to believe what she had said. He searched the young red-haired girl's face for some indication that it had been a joke in very bad taste, but no, Helena didn't even deign to look at him, searching the room for anything else more interesting to pay attention to.
He watched out of the corner of his eye as his lover's bulging eyes began to water and as she bit her lower lip trying to hold back an involuntary tremor.
At that moment the CEO knew he wasn't kidding, but he didn't know what to say, his throat had closed up.
His brain began to tie up loose ends, that video that had come to him by email, would it have anything to do with this?
Then the wedding video.
The heir began to rewind over and over the images that had soaked into his memory, recalling how Helena seemed almost unable to handle her own body awash in alcohol, or drugs, lying almost passed out on the lap of an unknown man.
Oh...
Sebastian looked at Helena in panic, but still unable to say anything.
He had lost the ability to speak.
His black orbs lowered to his lover's swollen belly and he watched silently as it rose and fell for breath. She suddenly felt nauseous at the overwhelming truth and had to cover her mouth to keep from vomiting right there.
Now everything was clearer.
-I disgust you," said Helena with a tone of seriousness that was uncharacteristic of her, "You'd better leave.
-No, Helena," exclaimed the CEO in despair, coming to his senses and realizing that he had made Helena uncomfortable by his long silence after her confession.
-Yes, you can't even look me in the eye, let alone ....- she exclaimed touching her own belly.
-Not true- he denied placing his hand on Helena's, feeling how the young woman's hand tensed, making the heir quickly remove his- I'm sorry, sorry I shouldn't have done that- he said referring to what had happened just a few minutes ago. How he had undressed her and made her somehow his.
-If I had told you before... if I had told you that I had been abused, surely, you wouldn't have wanted to touch me, I would have repulsed you", she exclaimed with a broken voice.
-Helena...
-You can leave and pretend this never happened- he exclaimed running his face to the opposite side- We can also cancel the contract if you don't want my baby, I would understand if.....
Helena couldn't finish daggering herself with cruelty, because the CEO pulled her to him in a tight embrace, wrapping his strong arms around her and pressing her into his warm and protective chest.
-You never disgusted me, neither before nor now, let alone your baby, I... I'm speechless because I can't believe they did that to you- he said hurt- I would give all of me if I could reverse that, that they didn't hurt you, Helena, I'm sorry I wasn't there.
-You wouldn't have because ....
-Still... I have promised myself to protect you, but you had already been hurt...- she denied feeling her own tears falling- as I am sorry, for not realizing the pain you carry on your back.
Slowly the redhead loosened the tension in her body, letting herself be embraced.
-I can't do anything to take away that pain... but I want you to know that it wasn't your fault, none of it was and you deserve to be happy and loved.
Helena didn't know at what moment the tears began to flow from her face like waterfalls that had been imprisoned behind a great wall, but that had finally collapsed and exploded in a strong current.
His body began to release strong spasms and his silent sobbing began to be a loud cry loaded with accumulated pain.
Sebastian said no more, he allowed himself to be his lover's support, caressing her back and rocking back and forth like a cradle for his beloved Helena. At that moment it was the least he could do for her.
His heart had been broken from the moment he realized the pain his secretary had suffered.
"All this time, she carried the pain in silence, while he made her life miserable."
He really couldn't believe how strong that woman was, he wouldn't know what he would have done if something similar happened to her. He couldn't imagine herself with the same strength as Helena.
-Cry all you want- he whispered lovingly- I'm here for you, no matter what.
Helena continued to cry, clinging tightly to her lover's chest, feeling her body release that pain she had held in for months, realizing how healing it was to finally say it out loud, to give a name to what had been done to her, so she could begin to heal.
Helena was grateful, because now she had someone with her, cradling her pain and being her support so she wouldn't fall into the void of grief and sadness.
She could not have been more fortunate.